Alison I can't name a pain worse than that of losing your child. The trip back from the hospital almost felt like a fever dream. No, I wanted it to be a fever dream, a nightmare. At least if it was a dream, I could wake up and have things be different. Joy would still be here bragging about being the smartest of the triplets. The flight back was filled with silence, none of us said a word. Timothy spent the whole flight in a daze, staring out of the window. Asher was going through the papers we had confiscated from the hospital while I sat on the ground between Joe and Jayden's seats. I was scared to even blink. What if they weren't there when I opened my eyes? Asher had refused the offer to give a cabin crew member and I was more than glad about that. I was in no position to have a stra

