Flower Boy

2.3 | INCESSANT RAIN

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SOMEONE ENJOYED WHAT I DID and that's all that matters today. I'm never an egotistic person, but having someone say something no one had ever said to me makes me feel extremely happy, rapturous even.

I sit in class trying to recall his name. It starts with a 'J', that's for sure. Jake? John? Jacob? I'm still stuck here with no memory of his name whatsoever, and it's starting to get frustrating. He had a rather unique name if I were to recall, and it's definitely not Jermaine.

Wait, maybe it is Jermaine. Jermaine sounds unique enough to be his name. 

I'll call him Jermaine for now.

I blame myself entirely for moving away too frantically. He probably hates me from running away like that, but of all things, I did not sign up for an awkward encounter. I don't think Jermaine did either, life just slapped it on for the drama.

Jermaine's nice for a guy. Or anyone to be frank. 

No one really gives a damn about me, and they would certainly not give me their time of day.I am never the first choice in anyone's mind, and as much as that says about me, I don't have a best friend. I was really sad at first when I found out my friends didn't see me like I saw them as, but there's no point in crying over things you don't have control over, you can't make people be friends with you forcefully, and I don't have the money to bribe my way to friendship.

But there's always a rainbow after the rain. No matter how hard the rain pours and drowns you, there will be sunshine and rainbows to greet you at the end, reminding you that you made it through the storm. There's no absolute need to drag yourself into an abyss of despondency, you just need to look at things in a different perspective.

And for most, maybe, I'll find my rainbow soon.