It's Happened To Be

15. His need

Rohan

I come to my room after reaching home. I  changed my clothes. I don't want to go to office.

I'll have to stay away from her.

These feelings I am feeling for her is not good. I am not good for her.

But how can i stay away from her when she all the time looking very beautiful.

I come out from my thoughts when Anjali asked me about lunch.

After saying that she went from their but i stand there thinking.

Should i stay away from her or not?

I heard that someone calling me but I am all engrossed in my thoughts that i didn't paid any attention.

After that someone shake me and I glared at who is shehe.  It's Anjali why can't she leave me alone some time.

She said me to have lunch and went towards table  and start to eat.

I yanked towards her and grab her hand tightly. And pull her to a wall. Her back is touching it.

I didn't care if it's hurt her or not. "stay away from me. And did you forget  that I marred you for revenge." I  said to her holding her hand more tightly.

"You are hurting me." She barely speak due to pain and tears fell from her eyes.

But this time I didn't care anything.

"If you don't want to feel pain then stay away from me." I  said leaving her hand

I turn to go but stop when I heard her saying "Then I am ready to bear any pain."

I  turn around and take stride towards her.

"Why?" I  asked looking her in eyes.

"because you are my husband and I have all rights to stay with you." She said with determination.

"So are you  ready to fulfill your husband need?" I  asked smirking at her.

She didn't said anything and close her eyes. I know any girl will not compromise with it. If she is the man's wife.

I take a look of her face and then turn to go.  I  barely went a feet away from her when I hear her.

"yes, I am ready." She said and i turn in shock.

"What did you just say." I  asked not believing on my ears.

"I said I am ready to fulfil your every needs." She said looking in my eyes.

"Don't say like that when you are not able to do it. Remember na last time when I tried to kiss you. You slap me." I  said

I know I was the fault there but I will not disclose this to her.

"This time I will not." She said

I didn't said anything but start to walk towards her.

When i reach where is she. I start to lean towards her face looking at her. Despite from fear or what not she close her eyes tightly.

I just a few inches apart from her face when I  see a tear rolled down from her eyes to her cheek.

Silly girl saying that she will be ready but scared from inside. I  smiled

You are thinking me as a mad person because some time before I am angry on her and now smiling.

I don't want to take any advantage from her.

I know she can give me a fight back but what I am doing its all for her.

I wipe the tear and then I remember her wrist. It's went red.

I feel guilty for my earlier behaviour.

"Open your eyes." I  said caressing her cheek.

She open them and directly look at my eyes. There is tears in them.

I mask my face with anger and pull my hand down.

"Say when you are ready  I don't want to take advantage when you are so weak." I  said and put some distance

" I  said to you myself that I am ready so why you think that I am weak." She said like she didn't realise her tears.

This girl. Hearing it my anger come to me and this time in real.

"If you are ready then why your tears felling from your eyes." I  said to her.

I know this time I behave like a jerk but she had to understand that. She have no need to do this when she doesn't want to.

"I  am not cryi....." She said but stop when she touch her face.

"So next time put your bravery front of me when you are ready."  I  said and come out from my room.

Not wanting any other drama.

I am not angry on her what she did in hospital. But that time I was? That's why I said this marriage to yes for satisfying my ego.

But when we went to her house I think about this and laugh at myself that it's is not a worth reason for taking a revenge.

I went to my office room and sit on sofa and lean on it back.

Thinking now that she will back away from this husband topic.

Anjali......

When i start to eat food he suddenly grab my hand and pulled me towards a wall while holding my hand tightly.

He said that stay away from me and also said that I forget that he married me for take revenge.

It's hurt when he is still stuck on this.

He held my hand more tightly and there I said that he is hurting me.

Tears come in my eyes. I didn't want became weak before him but tears come out for my liking.

"If you don't want to feel pain then stay away from me." He said and turn around to go but my next words stop him when I say I am ready to bear any pain for it.

He asked why so I tell him that he is my husband so I have every right to stay with him.

"So are you  ready to fulfil your husband need." He said smirking at me.

I take a breath and close my eyes to think.

am I ready?  I asked to myself

Yeah I know I like him and it's more than like.

It's gonna happen later with my constant so why not now?

It's is not like that he will do that in next moment when I said yes.

So taking courage I open my eyes and see him. He is going but my next words turn him in shock.

He again asked and i reply with determination that I am ready to fulfil his every need.

He said that if I'll not able to do it so I'll not say like this and he also remember me last time when he try to kiss me and I slap him.

And this time I also said that I am not do anything like last time.

He come to me and stood just a few inches apart from my face.

He started to lean and i close my eyes.

Did he wanted to do this now?

I tremble in inside.

I know this time I can't do anything because I am the one who said yes to this.

I try my best to  not do anything stupid.

This is the chance when I will be able to work in our relationship and changed him.

I didn't feel his lips but I feel his breath near my mouth.

Then after some time I feel her thumb on my cheek.

Then he said open my eyes caressing my cheek.

I open my eyes and see his angry face. He even pulled his hand from my cheek.

"Say when you are ready I don't want to take advantage when you are so weak." He said and put some distance.

I said him to that I myself said to him that I am ready so why he thinking me weak.

Then he said that If you are ready so why yours tears felling.

But I know I didn't cry.

I said to him that but stop at I touch my cheek and feel there wetness.

Oh god  i tried hard that my tears don't come out but they betray me.

"So next time put your bravery when you are ready." Saying this he went out and I stood there.

If it's going to happen like this so how will I changed him.

Frustrating at myself I set on bed and try to think something else.

My all appetite gone.

Now my mind on how to do something that he will give up  and try to change.

In night after dinner he didn't said anything but smile a mock one.

I groan on it.

I am not liking his behaviour a bit.

Why he is mocking me.  I mean if tears come out from my eyes so he have to show concerned about me. But he is a arrogant who will do other thing satisfying his ego.

'but you love this arrogant man.' My subconscious said

Yeah love.

I sigh knowing it.

If someone listen me he/she will surely  laugh on me.

I changed my night clothes with very difficulty due to my hand.

I even think try to seduce him.

Did anyone think that I will do it but this idea come to me through you tube when I search 'what we should that our husband give up '  and they suggested this.

Anyone can believe on this.

And i drop this idea I don't want again mock by him.

I come out after changing and see him laying there in his side.

I to went there and lay down.

He suddenly come to me and I scared at his suddenly gesture.

He pull his hand towards my side table and pick something and show me his fu*king phone.

"Say who I am ready?" I  heard him muttering

"What did you say?" I  asked

"Nothing." He said and lay down

I am understanding his all moves now.

I will show you Mr. Rohan what I am when time will come?

Thinking that I sleep.