50 Days to His Heart

Day 19: Lorraine

I don't know what happened last night. Everything was just fast, in an instant and I'll be hypocrite if I'd say I didn't love it.

When Henry got home he handed me a bouquet of roses (and I pretended not to like it) played the video over and over again and I started crying knowing that my boys are safe and are happy eating Icecream. Henry hugged me and comforted me, telling me it's gonna be fine, it's gonna be okay.

Later on, his lips took mine. I was surprised with what he did and his eyes were telling me to kiss him back and I was crazy enough that I responded to his kisses, savoring the moment that felt like forever.

And I thought it would just be a passionate kiss but I was wrong.

My mind is telling me to stop but I could not control my body. I felt ecstatic with all his touches, my hands found their way inside his polo and before I knew it, we ended catching for our breaths, screaming our names, sharing the night in our sofa!!! Of all places. I wanted to do it with Henry too since we have not done it, but I was hoping it could have been more romantic and special but...

Argggggg.

I hate it! I said I'm giving myself one week for a space to think about things but it was only 2 days of not talking to Henry, no, it's just 1 day and 23 hours of not talking to him and I just gave it, wholeheartedly, he didn't force me. I responded to his every touch. I even initiated removing his polo. What has gotten to me?

"Baby, you're awake?"

His eyes were looking at mine with a thousand emotion I cannot comprehend.

"Don't call me baby! I hate you."

"I'm sorry."

But he doesn't look sorry at all. He was all smiling as if saying 'I've enjoyed it.' And I did too.

"Sorry?!"

"Coz you said you wanted space but I could not help myself. I wanted to make you happy. I know there are other ways but... Sorry for taking advantage baby."

"Let's just forget that this happened. I will still be staying at the guest room."

I said, trying to control myself from smiling. How could Henry be so adorable with his hair all messed up and his eyebrows and lips and.. Argggg. I wanted him sooo bad too.

"Baby."

"Don't call me baby!"

Henry chuckled and grab my hand. He started giving my hand light kisses and ...

"Okay Lorraine... I'll give you one week... But can we do it again?"

"What?"

"Just to keep me going Lorraine, one week is one week Lorraine."

He continued kissing me and my stupid self just gave in right away.

***

"Thanks Juliet. Right, yes, true. My doctor said I'm fit to work. Yes. Right. Yes. Yes. Thank you. I'll see you tomorrow and don't forget to schedule that meeting. We really have a lot of catching up."

Before Henry left this morning, we have agreed to go back to our "space arrangement" and just like yesterday, he prepared something for me to eat. What an adorable chef I have.

Dear Lorraine (coz you don't want to be called Baby)

Here's baked eggplant with herbs and cheese

Hope you could smile for me please

I still feel the warmth of your embrace

But I'm willing to wait and trust God's ways.

Missing your hugs and kisses,

Henry (Call me daddy please)

I too felt his embraces. I too miss his hugs and kisses. And here I am asking for one week! Lorraine!

***

After eating, I went to check on my children's room to see if I could get clues. Why didn't I think of that? I mean it was very obvious in the footage that my kids have run away from home. There was no adult with them and they were both happy ordering their favorite Icecream. Dos likes double Dutch while Tres loves Cookies and Cream and ACC is the best place for all our sweet cravings.

I remember the first time we went there was when they were still five years old. The boys quarreled over a robot and Henry brought us to the place. He asked the boys to consume as many scoops as possible and the one with the most number of scoops will win. Both surrendered after their 6th scoop and Henry came in saying 'Kids, there are things that are meant to be shared. Love each other kiddos.'

'Right baby?' Henry kissed me in front of the kids who said in unison that they wanted a baby girl. I looked at Henry and his apologetic eyes. We have agreed not to be so 'intimate' in public but he would always violate the rule! He got his phone and texted me---- 'Sorry baby, you got Icecream on your lips and thought of tasting it too.'

I went to check my boys' cabinets and there's nothing really unusual. The last drawer though of Dos has our family picture with Henry's picture crossed out.

Why did my child do this?

I found another note written by Dos meant to be given to Henry.

Dad,

I hate you.

Dos

What could be the reason why Dos is mad of Henry? I could not think of any. There are times that I may feel alone when Henry would be out for business trips but Henry has always been a great father. He is a good provider and he would even play with my boys--- basketball, hide and seek, karate, even snake and ladder, but what's wrong?

Why is Dos mad? And why is Tres with him?

I decided to visit Principal Pearl and seek help. Apart from Henry and I, the next adults that they spend most of their time would be their teachers and Principal Pearl. I just hope we can still patch things up and make my family whole again, and just like what Henry said, I'm trusting God's ways.