One Night, One Baby

Postlude II

Postude II

"Are you happy?"

I tilted my head to look at him. Am I happy? I asked myself the same question millions of times and I still have the same answer to it.

"Yes. Very."

I don't regret doing the things I did. I will never regret any of it. Kung hindi ko ginawa ang mga bagay na ginawa ko ay wala sana ako ngayon sa harap ng taong mahal ko.

"What are you thinking?"

I smiled fondly at him. What am I thinking? Ano nga ba? Ah, I'm remembering the days I've spent away from him... from them. Isolating myself thinking that it's for the best.

"I love you, you know that?"

He reached for my hand and squeezed it gently. Tumingin ulit ako sa malawak na dagat sa harapan ko. I really like it here. It's peaceful and serene here. I feel so calm whenever I'm here.

"I do. I just wished you weren't so stupid and told me the truth sooner. Then things might be different right now."

I chuckled lightly. He's still on it. Telling me how stupid I am for hiding the truth and running away. Tama naman siya e, dapat sinabi ko agad. Edi sana...

"Can I sleep?"

I can feel his gaze directed at me. Hindi ko na siya nilingon dahil hindi ko kaya na makita ang umiiyak niyang itsura. It will be hard for me if I see him crying. It breaks my heart to see him crying. And I did make him cry for so many times. Oh, maybe that's what I regret, making him cry.

"I want to say you can't but I know you're tired. Go to sleep. I'll be here when you wake up. I love you, Kai."

And slowly I closed my eyes. The beautiful sun as it sets is the last thing I saw before everything went black.