my bittersweet lover

Today was the day every girl had been so eagerly waiting for. One could tell from the lit up faces that shone on every lady and their preparations , conversations ; it was clear of just how excited they all were. It was said that the famous young musical band was going to be taking place at the city hall, an opportunity for us all who had never had a chance to meet these guys in person . It would be an evening like no other and ofcourse I was not going to miss the chance of atleast enjoying myself just this one time . This had been the topic on every group of three or more girls that gathered anywhere that week. It was all about that evening. As I went about my chores that afternoon ,in an attempt to leave everything done for the family before I left I couldn't help thinking of how it would turn out.I had never been to any club before. Not because I did not want to enjoy myself like my mates ,but because I just couldn't find the time to. If only my aunt, Mary would let me.All I did was work from the time I woke up till the time I retired to bed.My life had turned into a living nightmare the minute I stepped foot in her house. She turned from the loving and caring aunt I knew to a mean ,heartless woman that did not hesitate to turn me into an ordinary house maid in her house. I had no one to fight for me ,no one to run to I was all alone no mom,no dad. I had no option but to swallow it all ,endure every hurt and adjust to my new life . Thinking about this made my eyes water."Lina ur strong ,u can't let this bring you down ,atleast not this evening. Who knows....one of the guys in the band might like u ," I said to myself . My inner voice was the only comfort I had . As I walked towards the city hall club ,I couldn't help noticing how spick and span other girls looked. All but me were clad in beautiful, pretty dresses, their necks were adorned by expensive accessories their faces shone of excitement. I on the other hand was the complete opposite of all that. My old blue jeans to match with my white tank top. That was the best attire I could find in my little bag. My long curly hair on a ponytail neatly combed the best way I could and no special accessories,I had none. I could see the reactions of the other girls as they looked back at me in wonder and giggled amongst themselves. " see that girl and the rags she's wearing....she's always weird, ...." " yeah she's a loner..." I was used to them laughing at and making fun of me. I was nothing close to being stunning or attractive like others . I admired how easy , smooth and happy their lives were just being a normal teenager .Life I could never have . As we neared the club, loud music filled the air , fleet of cars , hundreds of young ladies in short, sexy outfits and gentlemen all sharply dressed. As I made my way inside, the place was packed to capacity, and so alive with the band's music to which everyone flowed with the lyrics so effortlessly. The lights were amazing, the drinks were everywhere, oh it was something I hadn't experienced before. Trying my best to remain unnoticed , I made my way to the back , where I sat at the lonely end in amazement . The place was amazing. The tables were arranged systematically each with five chairs round it. People made themselves comfortable as young pretty waiters and waitresses served with great diligence and care. The stage was slightly raised so that everyone could see what was happening up there. The music was loud ,I could feel the ground shake. I had never seen this before. It would be nice to have this kind of fun, every time, I thought. I wondered how my life would have turned out, had my parents been arrive. Maybe I would have been used to this kind of life by now. I felt the urge to taste the drinks, confined in those expensive bottles. How did it feel to get drunk? Or be high? Or come to a club like this every weekend? With real friends? I was always alone. My classmates always said I was weird. It's no wonder no one came to sit with me, I had the whole table all to myself. I felt misplaced, but I didn't care. Tonight was about having fun, and I was determined to do exactly that. Who cares if no one wanted my company? It wasn't long before they arrived. One could tell from the screams and the noise that suddenly filled the air in volumes , as girls screamed their names to the top of their voices. They appeared on stage, all four of them clad in black famously known as " The gifted four". one of them caught my attention, something that had not happened before. He was the most gorgeous being i had ever seen. Honestly, calling him handsome would be an understatement . He was like an angel sent on earth in a human structure .He was simply breathtaking. From his coal , black hair that flopped slightly on his forehead ,to his flow less delicate skin ,to his tall self not to mention his masculine structure.His attire crowned it all. I could not help gazing. I had never beheld such a beautiful creature before. I had never been attracted to any guy before now. I wasn't sure what was happening now but I was sure it was something I had not experienced or felt before . My whole being felt so attracted to him, as he stood there waiting for the crowd to take his pretty self in. It was like a surge of alien feelings all together deep down. Though they all sang at the same time , his voice was a bit louder , making it so evident of how talented he was . It was so melodious it made my heart sing. Occasionally he looked at the far end,where I sat. This act of his left me wondering whether it was me he was looking at. It left me feeling things I did not know existed in my system. Time flew by as the crowd went wild , music filled the hall , drinks continued to be filled up in glasses , and everyone had a good time.".........gotta keep ,gotta keep gotta keep your head up .........."oh that was my song!!!!! I was thrilled when they sang my favourite amongst others. I could feel my heart somersault on the inside as I sang along on the few lyrics I knew ,while dancing to the rythmn from where I sat. I could not remember the last time I felt this happy and free. Young ladies and young men seemed to be living in the moment too as the band sang song after song,enjoying every bit of it.At the end of the last song, the hall was filled with applause and satisfied screams in appreciation, till they made their way out . Other bands went on stage and did their thing. No one seemed to be in a hurry. Most young people amidst the crowd seemed to be so drunk, others high, others making out, it was just crazy. I was just glad I had been able to make it in time to watch the band live like everybody else. I had been so engaged that I had lost track of time. It was sad that my happiness had been cut short and before long I'd be going back to the miserable maid I was at my aunt's house. At least I had had a moment to experience what other normal teenagers enjoyed, in their lives. Now I know how it felt. Part of me did not want to leave ,but I did not have another place to go to. As I rushed back home alone ,all I could think of was the way our eyes locked at times while he sang. I could not help wondering ; did he feel what I felt when he looked at me? How would it feel like being around him? As amazing and wonderful as it was thinking about it, I knew at the back of my mind that it was all just that, fantasy. He and I were on two different worlds , like the sky and the earth . That's how big the distance between us was. There was certainly no way a wealthy , rich , well to do handsome guy like him would like a poor unattractive girl like me , right?