Moon Blessed Luna

Chapter 19 - Cait

---reader warning, abuse, assault, torture and miscarriage in this chapter---

My feet slip on the blood covered floor and my wrists burn painfully above my head as the silver chains dig into them. I try to force my eyes to open but they're both swollen shut and my eyelashes feel crusty with dried blood. Every inch of my body burns and I can feel more blood dripping on the already saturated floor from the most recent cuts on my back.

I've lost all sense of time, having been locked up in a dungeon like room for who knows how long. After the Alpha and his men gave up on finding Lena he came for me, he had smelled me in the room after I said goodbye to Lena, after I had begged her to try to run. I couldn't suppress my relieved smile when I learned she had somehow done it, that she had somehow gotten away from our horrible lives.

He lost his mind. Within seconds he had pit the silver cuffs on my wrist, barely even flinching as he touched them though they instantly started to burn my skin. He dragged me through the pack house, down several flights of stairs, until he reached a room that looked more like a cave. A chain was wrapped around the cuffs, stringing me up until I could barely stand on the very tips of my toes. Then he left me there. I don't know how long, but my wrists turned red and raw, my head grew fuzzy and my whole body started to ache from the awkward position.

When he came back, I was almost relieved, the mate bond forcing feelings of attraction and happiness at his sight and scent. It didn't last long. He had carefully put a bucket down on the ground, alongside a small bag that rattled ominously. I flinch as my mind forces me to relive the memory all to easily.

"I am very sad, little mate." he had whispered, and the mate bond made my heart ache for him, forced me to want to make him happy again. I moaned softly as he lifted my chin roughly to look at my face. Standing this close to him made my body respond despite the pain of the chains, and the scent of my arousal filled the space.

"Your body wants me, little mate, I can smell it. So why did you betray me?" he growled softly as he lowered his face to nuzzle my ear and I bare his mark to him, submitting to his power over me.

"I did not betray you, my Alpha-Aaah!" I screamed as he bit me on the infected mark, sending pain and pleasure and sparks through my body. I could feel him take deep gulps from my blood before he moved back, forcing me to look at him again. His face had partially shifted, elongating his nose to more of a snout, his eyes dark and his canines dripping with my blood.

"Do not lie to me!" he growled, the low sound threatening, making me try to submit by lowering myself as much as the chains allowed. I heard as he dropped his pants on the floor and in one fluent motion he picked me up and settled my on his long, hard shaft. I cried as he filled me, pain from the sudden intrusion being replaced quickly by pleasure as the mate bond forced me to enjoy his closeness.

I shudder at the memory, shaking my head to try and get it out of my head but the movement sents pain through my entire body. I don't want to think about him, I don't want to think about the pain. But it burns, and I'm so cold. If only I could put my arms down, maybe sleep for a little while, but the burning in my wrists and the soft sound of dripping blood won't allow that.

What had I done to deserve this? I was a good kid, I think my parents were a pretty high rank in our old pack and I have vague memories of happiness and laughter. We had gone camping I think, just mom and dad and me. I don't remember what happened to them, just a lot of snarling and blood, so much blood. Then a strong man had picked me up and ran away with me, telling me it would be oke, that I was safe now. I now know he was The Alpha, back then I just called him my savior. He dropped me off with the matron and I didn't see him anymore until my 18th birthday.

Lena was already there, along with 4 other girls who were a little older then us. The older girls were taken when they didn't get their Wolves on their 18th birthdays, but Lena and I were sure we would get our Wolves and be able to pay back the kindness we had received after having been rescued. We fantasized about being mated to our savior, ofcourse at 14 we didn't really know what being mated meant except that your mate was your true love chosen by the moon goddess herself. We didn't know how it worked, and when the Alpha told us we were his mate after our Wolves didn't show we believed him. We were happy to be mated to the same man, convinced it meant we were also mated together but as sisters. We defended the man, even when more girls were marked, when the girls were taken and never returned. I didn't know why they were taken until it happened to me and they told me I was pregnant, finally giving back to the pack I had taken so much from to be raised. But I lost the baby. They told me it was my fault, that is was greedy and didn't appreciate everything that was done to me.

I never told Lena, I didn't want her to share my pain. She had just stopped talking, and I could see her will to live dissparearing more each day. She only took action to help the new girls, when they were hurt badly by the Alpha and his men. We were used to it, we could handle it, but they couldn't. When I was taken again I was so happy! This time I would do it right! I would give the pack a pup and they would see I was thankfull! But I lost it again, I hurt so badly but I had to stay strong for Lena and the other girls.

I think it was 3 years before I was taken again, more girls had gotten pregnant but never returned like I did. I still hadn't told Lena about what happened when we were taken. This time I watched in amazement as my belly extended, bigger then I ever thought possible. My arms and legs were like sticks but my baby grew, I could feel him move! With every last ounce of strength I had I managed to bring him into this world, only for him to be taken away immediately! I screamed for my baby, but they told me I needed to rest, that the baby was for the pack and I shouldn't be selfish, hadn't I taken enough from the pack already? I fought through the darkness, watching my body shrivel away again, and only the thought of how worried Lena had to be kept me going.

A singe tear rolls down my cheek, stinging one of the cuts with its saltiness. I curse at myself for letting these memories resurface. There's nothing to change about it, but I wished I could have seen my baby at least once.

The door of the dungeon opens with a loud squeek, as if protesting my tormentors entrance. I don't look up, I don't even try to open my eyes. The sadness of remembering my baby, the thought that Lena may be out in the world somewhere all alone, I couldn't fight the darkness anymore. Giving in was so much easier.

"Are you not gonna look at your mate?" his voice hisses close to my ear, but I ignore him. He walks away and I hear him pick something up before burning water is thrown over me from the bucket he has with him every time. I can't help but scream as the wolfsbane laced liquid reopens the cuts and washed away some of the dried blood that had started to close the older wounds.

"There, that's better. I prefer my little mate to be nice and..." I listened for him to finish his sentence, but instead the stone room was filled with a painful howl.

At his sudden outcry I force my eyes to open and I watch as the strong Alpha falls to his knees, clutching his neck and howling in pain. In my confused and weakened state I barely notice the soft silver glow that now radiates from his neck, but when he looks up I do see it. His eyes are dark, filled with anger and pain, and his canines are out as he growls at me as if I hurt him somehow, but that's not what I stare at. From the spot that should have been marked by the first girl he bit, silver scars spread around his neck and up to his cheek. They glow softly for a little while before settling in a pale silver pattern on his skin, the color exactly the same shade as the silver gray eyes of my best friend.