Moon Blessed Luna

Chapter 18 - Lena

Nerves race through my body alongside the sparks as Brianna carries me upstairs. We walk slowly, as she focuses more on kissing me then getting to her room as fast as possible. Her full lips feel wonderful against mine and she tastes even better than she smells. I can't help but compare everything she makes me feel to what the Alpha made me feel. When he wasn't near me, I didn't think fondly of him at all. At least not after I realized everything he said had been a lie. In the short time I'd known Brianna, I only felt really happy when she was close by me.

I had felt emberassed after crying so much, but she had been so sweet to me and all I wanted to do was to be even closer to her then I already was. When I blurted out I wanted to kiss her I was sure I had done something wrong, since she had gone very quiet. But then she said she wasn't stopping me. Luna cheered in my mind, helping me to push aside all the dark memories and when my lips pressed against Brianna's my body seemed to explode. Sparks were everywhere and I felt absolutely certain that this was where I was meant to be and I knew what I wanted. I wanted to be Brianna's, and I knew the sooner she marked me, the sooner I would be whole again.

But the confidence I found in her office started to waver when we reached her bedroom. I knew what the fake mate bond made me feel, what it made me want to do, and I worried a real one would make me want that even more. But how did I do that with a woman? What if I screwed up and she didn't want me anymore?

Don't worry so much, Lena. Everything will work out and you know our mate won't hurt us. I silently agree with her and try to push my worries away.

Brianna kisses me deeply once she let's me down in her room. The increased sparks settle deep in my stomach and a familiar clenching accompanies a wet feeling between my legs. Brianna growls and bites my bottom lip, making me gasp.

"I can smell your arousal, my little moon." she growls, her voice much lower than before. I try to swallow but a ball of nerves seems to have made a home in my throat. Something about the way she spoke excited me so much already, and to much greater extent than the Alpha ever had. She pushes me against the wall and kisses me, rougher than before, her hands roaming away from my waist and finding my butt.

"Let's take a shower." she growls in my ear, nipping at the sensitive spot just below it. I gasp as that somehow clenches my core, and I fight against the memory of cold water buckets that preceded any parties of the Alpha.

"What's wrong?" Brianna asks, her voice suddenly back to sweet and worried instead of deep and seductive. I realize I had squeezed my eyes shut and flattened myself against the wall as the memory had popped into my mind. Her voice and her scent pull me back and I relax slightly.

"Nothing. I'm sorry. We always had to shower before the men wanted us, so it makes sense you want me to shower before you want me." I look away but Brianna grabs my chin and I'm confused by her frown. Did I say something wrong?

"I don't want you to shower for me, little moon, I want to shower with you. If you don't mind, ofcourse. You never have to do anything because I tell you to, you can say no or stop at any point and I will listen." she brushes away the single tear that spills from my eye, the sincerity in her voice simply too much.

"Don't cry, my sweet little moon. I know a lot has happened in your life, and it will take a while before we know everything about eachother. But never, ever feel like you have to do anything you don't want. And if I say or do something you don't like, you can tell me, alright?" I nod and smile, stepping up on my toes to press a soft kiss against her lips.

"So, about taking a shower..." I start, but Brianna takes my hand and leads me to the bathroom.

"Let's see if we can change some of your memories to something better." she says, as she let's go of my hand and walks over to a large area seperate from the rest of the room by a large glass wall. She turns a nob on the wall and water falls from the ceiling, like an indoor rain storm. Amazed I stare at it, especially when it starts to steam and heat up the room.

"It's a bit much isn't it?" Brianna asks, laughing softly. "The water is filtered and collected in the basement, and the sprinklers are linked to them, so we reuse it. I felt bad wasting so much water but I love a good rain shower." I smile and walk over to investigate, sticking my hand out to feel the warm water and completely ignoring that the clothes I'm wearing are getting wet.

"We should probably take our clothes of before they're completely soaked." Her husky voice is right next to my ear, and her arms wrap around my waist. I feel my cheeks heat up as I turn around in her arms. She's seen me naked before, when she helped me in the bath, and I have been naked pretty much since my 18th birthday so it isn't something strange. This feels different though, this time we would both be naked, and I would be naked because I wanted to be with her, not because the Alpha ordered me and wouldn't allow me to wear clothes.

Yes! We want to be naked with her! Now tell her to take of her shirt first!

"What is your wolf saying, little moon?" Brianna asks with her eyebrow raised, as a weird choking sound escapes me at Luna's orders. My cheeks heat up even more and I'm surely looking like a tomato by now. I stutter, unable to get the words out.

"Tell me." she lifts my chin again and I watch as her eyes flash from their usual deep brown to a dark orange.

"She says you have to take your shirt of first." I whisper, mesmerized by her wolf's eyes and I feel Luna coming closer as well, wanting to see her mate for herself. A low growl forms in Brianna's throat and her eyes go back to brown.

"They can meet tomorow. Right now you're all mine, understood?" I nod as her low voice activates the butterflies in my stomach. She pulls her black t-shirt over her head and I look at the smooth muscles of her stomach. I look at her eyes again and find a trace of the confidence I had in her office earlier, so I pull my own shirt off in the same manner I saw her do. She gasps and her scent becomes heavier in the steamy room.

We take turns removing the remainder of our clothes until we're both naked. She is absolutely beautiful, her breasts are full and her hips curve out from the small divet of her waist. Her muscles roll under her smooth dark skin and I know she must be incredibly strong and fast. In comparison to her I feel pale and for the first time in my life, insecure about my lack of curves and muscles.

"You are beautiful." I whisper, wanting to touch her but unsure of what to do. She smiles, her pupils enlarged from excitement, and opens her arms. I step into her embrace and let her kiss me as she pushes my backwards so we both stand under the warm streaming water.

"I don't know what to do." I admit, when we stop kissing to catch our breaths, foreheads pressed together.

"What would you want to do?" she asks, as she looks into my eyes. I reach my hand up towards her breast, wanting to touch it but she stops me, forming a barrier between my hand and her skin. I look at her in confusion and my heart hurts when I see the pained look on her face, eyes clenched shut and her full lips pressed into a tight line.

"Are you oké?" I ask her and her eyes open. She nods and smiles slightly.

"You're not the only one with Demons to fight, little moon." she whispers, before pressing my hand over her heart. I hear her gasp and I try to pull my hand away, afraid I'm somehow hurting her, but she keeps it in its place. I feel her heart slowing the longer we stand like that, and eventually she bends down to kiss me again.

"Let's go to the bed, I want to be yours." she whispers and she picks me up, pressing our naked bodies together. She keeps kissing me, her hands cupping my butt and squeezing softly while my hands tangle themselves in her braids. She sits on the edge of the bed, keeping me on her lap. Sitting like this we are face to face, and I love the feeling of her breasts pressed against mine, her hands trailing up and down my spine.

"Are you sure about this?" she asks, nuzzling my ear and trailing kisses down to the center of the bleck scar, the spot that so rightfully belongs to her.

"Yes, please." I moan, being this close to her with our combined scents in a heavy cloud around us and the sparks coursing through every inch of my body made me forget everything that ever happened to me. All I wanted was to be with Brianna, to be hers in every way she wanted me. I bend my head, giving her easier access as she nibbles to find the perfect spot. I almost cry out when she pulls away.

"I don't want you to just be mine. I know they told you the bigger wolf marks the weaker wolf but that's not true. Mates mark eachother, and I want to be yours just as much as I want you to be mine." I stare into her eyes and nod.

"Let's do it at the same time." I whisper, the sudden insecurity in Brianna's eyes giving me another boost of confidence. I kiss her full lips and trail a path to the spot I bit earlier, was that only this morning? Brianna does the same, my canines extend as I feel her nibble on my spot as well and I nip her softly to tell her I'm ready. I feel her canines press against my neck and I sink mine in hers at the same time.

At that moment 3 things happen, first I become completely aware of Brianna as her emotions rush through me and mix with mine. Intense joy, lust, and a hint of insecurity and fear. Secondly, I hear Luna howl in excitement and I feel a surge of power course through my body. Finally I register a loud pain filled growl and for a split second I see the Alpha, crouched on a floor covered with blood, clutching his neck.