How To Bake A Fighter

Chapter 19: What's the Big Dill part 2

*Millie*

"Mills, I know you're here. I saw your bike two miles south of here. Please come out", the voice sighed out in plead. Against my better judgment, I rose slowly and walked towards my fire now alight with roaring flames. "What Lucas? I mean you don't know me and you probably never wi-", I spoke. "I do know you". He said walking towards me, reaching out his arms before pulling into a loving embrace. "I just never thought that I'd find you again", he said softly. I pushed him away and turned around so I didn't have to face him. "Please don't lie *huff*. I am an unknown person in this world. A drifter in life who barely makes an imprint in the lives of others besides family and friends. I tried to define myself in this world once. I tried to do everything I love with who I love, well I loved. But, I also destroyed myself. I lost my hope, my faith, and my confidence in one day's time. People rejected me after that. I wasn't 'memorable' enough to be around. I do charity work with kids, homeless, and less blessed than me but somehow it wasn't enough. All my life I want more responsibility, more knowledge, more love, more self respect, more self reliance, more more more. I could never have enough of it, enough of life experiences. That's the reason I learned to fight and street race. I wanted to fight the thrill of doing something that crossed the line of my good girl nature. Most people don't remember me, so don't worry about it. Don't say you do remember to make me feel better so I'll go home. Don't say you know me to make me believe I'm so exciting or amazing to be memorable in your life. Just say the truth and let the cards fall where they may. Just don't lie to me is all I ask", i finished. Nearly in tears, I kept facing away from him. I didn't hear anything from behind me so i figured he left which was fine by me. I just stared at the lazy autumn moon rising through the trees as the cool crisp air streaked harshly against my cheek. A rustling sound from behind me came nearer until I felt hot breath hit the side of my neck and a pair of arms surrounded me. "I do know you, little one. You were sweet and quick tempered. Soft and sour. Kind and harsh. You are the one to change my life. You didn't take any s**t back then either, you just had a nice way of saying it", his lowly voiced chuckled sending familiar goosebumps over my arms, "But then again, you were always sweeter back then to anyone, well except to me. You just couldn't let me win just one argument. You had these little braided pigtails that hung to your shoulders, freckles that covered your rosy red cheeks along with that button nose, and the beautiful blue eyes that reminded me of the 25 cent lollipops you could get at Harvey's grocery. With everyone you had this big smile that would light up any room in that old school house. But with me, you had that pouted face with that out turned lip and you would scrunch your nose until it turned bright red". I smiled at the memory of how I looked from others' eyes. Usually I say myself as a shrunken Oompa Loompa. Slowly, the arms turned me to face their owner. I looked into his dark brown eyes as he looked back into mine. "You knew anything and everything about my weaknesses. You knew every crush of mine, well almost every one, and how to help revenge my heartbroken girlfriends. You knew everything about me but one thing. Well maybe two. I always thought your name was Mindy not Millie, so that's why I kept calling you Meddling Mindy", he said looking away to shake his head in foolishness before looking at me deeper than before. "One thing you have never known about me is.. *huff* I liked, still like, and always will like you, Millie Waters. There's not a day that went by I didn't or don't think about you. You made my life different," he said stepping closer to me, our breaths mixing together now, "and I can't let another day go by without letting you know how I felt and well still am feeling". I had only one thing left in my mind to ask, "Who are you"? "I am the Luki a mixture of Lucas and cacti, the biggest prick in middle school. I'm the kid who fought with you over any and everything under the sun. I was the kid who hung out with your brother and still ignored you. My life hasn't let me move on from the time I met you to the time we parted ways. The day you walked through that door with Tyler of late freshman year, I knew I had to know you. But, as sophomore year dragged on you still wouldn't talk to anyone but him and it made me envious. That's why I did what I did. I just wanted you to get angry enough to talk to me but now in these two days I have relived the moments we had in 5th grade where we argue though this time it was as friends. So, Millie Waters, please indulge me for a night to catch up on old times". I smiled at him. He finally has realized who I am. He has changed a lot but not enough for me to reveal my secrets from him but I'd like to start over with him. "Sure, let's talk then", I smiled at Lucas sweetly. Not because it's an act of him to put his guard down but so he can have something he's finally worthy of, my trust.