Last night was incredible. It wasn't good but it wasn't bad either. He f****d me hard all night and made sure he claimed me in every way he could. His words still haunted me though. Was I scared? No, not really but I wanted to know all of his secrets and everything about his past. I wanted it all. I think I was just as obsessed with Ben as he was with me. Ben was the picture-perfect guy to strangers and people who didn't know him but to me, he was a devil, ready to make me his willing victims and a victim of us all. Ben woke up super early today and he was speaking little to no words to me today. I knew he was hurt and upset but I never understand why he didn't just say what he felt. I didn't mind the punishment but I know there was more to it than that. Parker hadn't brought Lily back so

