Finding Sky

CHAPTER 15

Skylar POV

This is the life. I sighed for the third time during this massage Kyky is giving me. She laughs, "Are you ok there?"

" I'm great! Thank you for this I appreciate it"

"My pleasure. I know you're stressed about the situation with your parents I mean Stella and Jared. So anything I can do to help you I will do."

"Thanks for correcting yourself and yes I appreciate everything you both have been doing for me. I can't remember when last I felt so comfortable around anyone since my mother's death."

"I'm glad we can be of some assistance. Which I want to ask what are you going to do about that situation?"

I raised up from the couch to look at her, "Why? You don't want me here anymore?" My eyes are already filling up with tears.

"What?!? No that's not what I meant baby. I'm just asking because it's been a week already and you expressed how you need some things of your mother that's there. I don't want you to leave EVER. Neither do Dijah but we will support everything you want to do. We gave you the pool house so you can be comfortable knowing that will always be your space."

I just stared at her then smiled, "you called me baby."

She visibly stiffen, "I.....I.....(clears her throat) Is that a problem? I'm sorry it just slipped out I didn't realise......."

I giggled, "You're so cute when you get caught off guard. Your face even turns red." I kissed her in her cheek and her face got even more red if that was even possible.

"I understand what you're saying though. I will go there today which reminds me.....can I borrow a car?"

She breathe out. Was she holding her breath?

"Sure we only use our favourites anyway. Take any of the cars in the garage. Do you need us there to support you?"

"No thank you. I need to do this on my own."

" Ok but the first sign of trouble you call us first."

I smiled again, "yes I know, thank you."

FAST FORWARD

I've been parked outside for a half hour now procrastinating. I sighed, "might as well get it over with" I said to myself. I got out and walked to the front door of my childhood home.

I haven't passed through the front door in years because my step-monster didn't want me to contaminate the greeting area with my "poor energy".

Funny how she was spending my money and calling me poor. Shaking off the thoughts I put in my keys expecting them to change the locks. I was a bit shocked that my key worked.......I stepped in and watched everything like I'm seeing it for the first time.

I watched where the pictures of my mother and I used to be is where picture of Stella or both Stella and Jared are now. I started ripping them off the wall and dropping them to the floor the same way Stella did my mother's and I pictures while I cried and begged her to stop.

I then moved to my family's vase that passed down for generations and yanked the flowers my mother hated and throw them on the floor as well. She always hated red roses she never told me why just that she hated them.

I felt their presence behind me but I never acknowledged them I just continue walking through the house throwing things my mother didn't put there in the ground. When I was satisfied with my work I turned to them.

" Stella I want this all cleaned up before I leave. I only came for some things and to inform you that my offer stands you have a month and some weeks remaining. If I missed anything of my mother's I will have you both charged for theft. Jared I need the contacts for MY lawyers before I leave. "

They both just stated at me with their mouth hanging like fishes.

I rolled my eyes and head upstairs to my old room I wasn't allowed in.

She turned it on to closet space when there's 5 bedrooms with all walk in closets.

My mother wanted a big family so she had my grandfather made every room even the guest room to accommodate spoiled children.

My room however as the first born had secret compartments that even Jared didn't know about. It was just between my mom and me.

I enters the room and did the same thing I did downstairs only I pelt them either in the hallway or out my window. When I finished got all her things out I then went for what I came for.

All my compartments act like deposits I didn't get to use them before because I was afraid if I took anything from the room that I couldn't answer for I might be accused of stealing my own stuff.

I got a cute duffle bag from the ground and started clearing out my compartments....all of them. The last one was the hardest to open, emotionally at least.

I thought I would never get to see it ever again......well until they died at least. It was my mother's and I matching 21 diamond necklace. She got this for us the day I came out to her.....I'll never forget what she told me.

"No matter what you do or who you decide to love.

The love I have for you will never die and I'll always choose you. When you meet someone that loves you the way you deserve to be love give them this.

And besides I knew who you were since you were 5 years old and came home crying that you kissed your best friend and she said 'eww'."

We laughed and I gave her one of the necklace telling her that until I meet that person we both will wear it.

When she got sick she took it off and made me put them in that secret compartment never really explaining why.......I guess she knew the man she married after all.

I then noticed a vcr tape in the back of every sentimental item I had in here. I don't know what this is there's a note on it saying My first love and my Forever love. My father and me even though I hate the idea because he didn't deserve her he was the only man my mother ever loved.

I walked back downstairs with the bag in one hand and the tape in the other.

I see Stella trying to clean up everything and looking pathetic doing so.

I rolled my eyes, "where's Jared?"

" I'm right here and you can go back to calling me father of dad. "

" So JARED I found this and it's address to the both of us go get the VCR player in the storage out back let me hook it up so we can watch it. "

"So you're ordering me around now like a servant in my own house..."

I interrupted him because I know he hates it.....with a smile on my face.

"Your house???? Your house would imply that you own this which, you do not.

Your house would imply that you took care of this house or treated it with respect seeing that MY grandfather built it for my mother and her children.

Which you haven't done any of that and as for you being a servant.

Yes you are because you're living rent free in a house you do not deserve to be in at all."

"Now be a good man-servant and get what I instructed.........NOW Jared!!!"

He stood there watching me like he wanted to burn me with his eyes I watched as he looked at Stella who nodded at the corner of my eyes. I didn't move my eyes off of him till he left.

"I'm hungry Stella.......get me something."

I sat down on her tacky couch and waited for Jared while Stella appear to be lost.

"I don't know how to cook Skylar......you know that I can order something but you'd have to pay for it."

"I didn't know how to cook when you fired the chef either but I learned. So get in the kitchen."

Again she looked like she wanted to say something but she held back.

Placing back her fake smile, "okay I'll try!!"

I watched her leave and breathe out in relief, this is taking more out of me than I realised.

5 minutes passed before Jared came back struggling with the VCR player and wires all over him. I fought back a laugh I need to stay in character.

"Took you long enough. Set it up there."

I watched as he struggled for some time and he actually looked proud when he finally got it.

I laughed this time then cleared my throat handing the tape to him.

The tape can on and I saw my mother with a baby in her hand..... "Mommy!!" The tears started flowing without signs that it will stop. I haven't seen her in so long I forgot how beautiful she truly was. All the pictures was taken from me.

Jared pass something to me and I couldn't see what it was because my vision was now blurry. I walked to the Tv and trace her face so I never forget it again.

I'm not sure how long I kneed there for just crying till the tears dried and I just sat on my back ankle just staring at her.

I tried to pull myself together as much as I could but I knew the minute I heard her voice I may break again.

I was shocked when Jared held my shoulders helping me up and guided me to the couch. He then took back the remote from my hand.

He stopped again and looked at me, "Are you okay if I pressed play? Or do you need more time?"

I just looked at him.

"Okay you don't have to speak but if it gets to hard I'll leave the remote here. Or squeeze my shoulders so I'll pause it.....okay"

I nodded in response.

As soon as he pressed play I felt a pain in my chest but I ignored it and watched on.

"Hello JB my love. I'm not sure why I'm making this video because I don't have the strength to leave you. But I need to get this off my chest.

I know your intentions was to use me and my family. I always known but I fell in love with you the minute I saw you I didn't care.

Some where along the lines you made me forget your true intentions and believed that you loved me.

I was so lost in you that I forgot about the other woman you had waiting for you till she made herself known again.

The day after Skylar's was born I received a bouquet of red roses. At first I thought it was a mistake because everyone knows I prefer white lilies.

Then I noticed a card and a letter. The card was written in your hand writing apologising for taking it too far with me and the birth of our child.

Then the letter was addressed to me from this Shella or Stella whatever person.

It implied that you never stopped seeing her and you would never.

And that you only tolerated me because you can't get your hands on daddy's money.

So me being the greedy person I am I called my most trusted lawyer and made him make it so difficult for you that if you left me you would be with nothing.

I know you are accustomed to the high style living now and I'll use that till I die to keep you with me.

You may not love me Jared but I love you with all of me and I would never let you go completely. NEVER!!! "

The baby in her hands started crying the way she growled never and she pause and looked down at baby me and smiled. The cries turned into giggles as she looked at me. I guess I always had a weak spot for that smile.

"She's just perfect. She looks so much like you but I can see myself as well.

At least I'll have her to love and be loved by while you love on that cheap woman that rather attack me after I give birth than when I'm strong enough to fight."

She then looked directly at the camera again, "I won't let you go Jared not while you hold my heart.

I will not let her have you completely.

I won't let you live happily with her while I suffer.

If I should hurt then we all will.

My only fault was loving you more than I loved myself.

Loving you more than my family or our money or our business. Had you only asked for everything before this I would've given it to you.

So I guess I should thank her for waking me up.

From now on I will focus on LayLay I won't show you my submissive side anymore.

I won't show you any love at all but I still won't let you go.

I hate you Jared but I also love you."

The video cut but I know there's more.....I stopped it though I don't think my father could take anymore. I took out the tape take up the bag and started walking out.

Stella just decided to show up with some despicable looking thing on a good tray.

"You're leaving I thought you were hungry, I made you Mac and cheese."

" Raisins should never be in Mac and cheese Stella. I lost my appetite. " I looked at Jared who was still watching the screen.

"Maybe Jared would like some."

Saying his name seemed to snap him out of whatever daze he was in. But he said nothing.

So I walked out but not before yelling out to Stella to clean this mess.