The Unforgivable Mate Curse (long story ongoing)

Elder Silvanie Memories - The Truth

I got a mind link it was time for dinner, I got up and went to Brielle waking her up. We got back in the packhouse for dinner, and she went with Natasha and Chadrick to training in the temple. I was not ready to go to bed, the flashed of my life with him made me nostalgic, and my heart wanted more, so I got back to my house, yes, my house, this is my origin pack, and I have my house, near the lake, we spend the rest of his day here in this house. I don’t come here very much, but when I got in, his smell filled me up, like we were here still. I got to a cabinet looked, and got the key out off my necklace, open it and got a very old album out, prepared some tea, and went to the porch facing the lake, and looked at the painting of us, of him.

----- FlashBack----

This is the day, we have been in courtship for about one year, the next step is to prepare the wedding, so I had to do it now, I had to tell him, the more time I get to know him the more difficult it becomes, because the fear of losing him, is just too much. My warriors told me that he has a lot of influence on the market, so we might find out more about the child, but for that, I must come clean.

Tonight, I was cooking for him, he had a late cargo and was running late, we haven’t done anything more than kissing, and my wolf was also getting impatient because she wanted to mark him, so it had to be tonight.

Knock Knock “Sorry I am late darling.” Edmund comes near and leans for a kiss. “You warned me, remember.” I smile at him. “Smells delicious, is that?” He is already drolling looking at the food.  “Your favorite, meat stew.” He then looks to my side and his eyes widen. “And is that?” I looked over at him. “I got some cheese and baked some bread.” He got closer to me and put his arms around me.  “You are perfect to be a wife, and I am lucky to have you.” I gave him a small smile. My mind was just telling me ‘liar.’

After we ate, I sat on the couch while he sat on his chair preparing to read the income book like always, while I usually read a Lodovico Lazzarelli book before going to bed. In courtship for marriage two adults can share a house, but have to sleep in different bedrooms, well no one knows, but I sleep in his bed, is the minimum I can do to get my wolf under control, I told him a was afraid of the dark, and being with him calm me down, and he believed it.

“Honey I need to talk to you.” He looked up from the income book and once he saw my face, the book was cast aside, and he was next to me on the couch. “What is wrong, Darling, you look pale.” Maybe I was because I was completely afraid, he would call me a monster and cast me aside. “There is something about me I need to tell you before we start preparing the wedding. And I am afraid you will leave me because of it. I need you to keep an open mind.” He just looked at me, maybe thinking about what could be so bad for him to leave me. I took a deep breath and just blur it out.

“I am a wolf.”

He just, stood there looking, and then started laughing. I waited until he stops and looks at me again. Seeing that I was not laughing. “You, not joking.” I nod my head. “What do you mean a wolf? You have two legs, two arms, a face, last time I checked a wolf as four legs, and a long nose, and sharp canines.” I was trembling but was the warriors told me, breathe, and answer his question the simpler I could.  “I am what humans call a Werewolf, part human, part wolf.”

His eyes widen at that, I know he heard the stories that sailors talk about the new lands and people that can transform into wolfs, in those lands werewolf’s are raw, born from the land itself, they can’t choose when to shift, they just obey the Moon and shift on the Full Moon. I was getting restless because I could sense the fear in him, his heartbeat racing, but his face was locked on mine, and his eyes were not afraid more like curious. “If you have any questions before I tell you more, please ask.” I feared the silence. “You have more to tell me?” I think his mind just backflipped thinking out what more I had to tell him.  “Yes, but first, ask your questions.” I moved my hand in a continued kind of way. He started thinking then stared at me. “I have heard of people shifting into creatures.”

I gulp when he said, creatures. He then positions himself, a litter farther away from me, and looks at his hands. “Where, you cursed?” If it were that it would be easier right? “No, I was born this way.” He nods. “Were your parents cursed?” What is it with humans and everyone must be cursed?  “No, they also were born werewolf’s, is not a curse is the same as people being tall, or short, we have a wolf inside us.” He was moving a little bit every time showing discomfort. “Do you shift on a full moon?” I look at him intensely. “I can shift whenever I want.”

That made him look at me, I can see the terror in his eyes. “Do-Do you eat people?” I just sigh. “No.” That is common for people to think that. That made him relax a bit. “Don’t you have any more questions?” He thinks a little bit. “None that I can think of now.” I may have the saddest eyes in my life.

“Do you still want to marry me, even knowing I am not… human?”

After a few seconds that seem like an eternity. He sighs like giving in. “What I feel for you is bigger than what I ever felt for anyone. I could not leave you and being a wolf, you still have your human part.” I smile at that. “Yes, but she likes you also.” His eyes look curious at me. “She?” I nod my head at the excitement of being accepted. “My wolf is called Antha, and she loves you also, we are two in one.” He puts his hand on the back of his head and looks at me with pleading eyes. “C-Can…” Coughs “Can I see her?” My wolf started jumping on my head. “You want me to shift?” I just could not believe what he was asking me. “It’s that wrong, can you not shift for me, is there any werewolf’s laws that forbid?” I respond whit a vigorous nod no, “Will you be afraid?” He thinks for seconds. “I have seen enough in this world, to not be afraid of a wolf that loves me also.” I got up a pick his hands. “Come with me then.”

We got to the rear of the rented house, well not rented, since there were werewolf’s that used it also. The back was faced with a huge forest.

“Wait were, I must take my clothes off to shift.”

I go off to a nearby place that I shift for runs. And I shift. And after I am in full wolf, I got out of the forest and started going near him, slowly. I sense the fear in him, the urge to run, and then I look eyes with him, and he sees my blue eyes, my eyes are like the pack so they do not change when I shift, and I sense him recognizing me, my wolf is proud because he could recognize us. I am a small wolf, but since I am an Elder my wolf is different than the other, I am a brown wolf with a difference in the paws, I have symbols that say the amount of power I have, mine is only in the front. I walk closer to him and sat down, I am not a normal average wolf, but I not taller as alfa, but even sitting next to him my head reaches his shoulders. He reaches for my head and snuggles it, and I love it.

“Is this you, those blue eyes can fool nobody?” I wag my tail at him. That seems to make him laugh. “Your wolf is beautiful, but it cannot talk to me.”

‘Yes, I can’ – Mind-Link by Antha. He steps back and looks at me. ‘I will explain everything, going to shift to Silvanie’ He just nods, in confusion. I went back to the forest, change, and got dressed. Once I got near him, he just turned and got inside before me, and I follow.

Once we were inside, he started pacing around. “What was that? Can you, read my mind? Is that how.” I just looked at him. “I can’t, but I can send you messages, but you have to talk to me for me to understand you.” He stopped then started pacing again.  “But… How?” His arms here on the air on in his head, he was a mess.  “I am not an ordinary werewolf.” He just stops and looks at me. “Being a werewolf is not ordinary!” Maybe is time for lesson one.

“In the werewolf hierarchy, there are the Alphas, like your kings, then the Lunas, like your queen, we have the Beta, more or like your Lords, or more like a counselor in our case that can maintain the pack while the Alpha his away, then the Gama, like your Knights, and the omegas and normal wolf, like peasants, not quite equal, but so you can understand better. And near the Alpha but with a little more power, we have the Elders, that work directly with the Moon Goddess, like your bishops.” He starts to sit down on the chair again and I join him. “Moon Goddess?” Lesson number two.

“Yes, like you have god, we have the Moon Goddess, but unlike your god, the Moon Goddess sometimes comes down and presents herself to us, she was the power to Mate werewolf’s.” He got his hand to his head like it was too much information.  “Mate werewolf’s?” Lesson number three.

“When the werewolf is born, she also makes him or her a perfect match in this world, like a soulmate,” I explain.  “And how do you know that he or she is your soul mate.” I smile. “We sense a pull towards that person, and sparks end we touch.” He got his head up and his face was completely confused. “A pull???” I nod. “Something supernatural, that makes us want to be with that person and no one else, that makes feel that the person is what you have been missing all this time.” His eyes widen. “Did you feel that for me?” I stayed a few seconds in silence, and that made him look at me anxious for the answer.  “I do not have a mate.” I look down, I could not face him. “Why not?” I continued. Lesson number four.

“I am an Elder, and we live more than the average werewolf.” I did not want to get to this part.  “Live more?” I could not look at him. “Average werewolf can live up to 1700 years.” I sense him tense, but his voice was sad. “That is a lot, and you?” It’s now.  “My lifespan is 2300 years old.” I look up to him. I can see him gulping down his next question, so I respond before it is even formed. “I have 558 years old.”

His eyes are almost falling off from how open they are in surprise.  “You- you do not look a day older than 20 years.” That was not what I wanted to hear. “Since we live a lot longer, we also age slower. “He started to make calculations. I could see his face changes like when he is checking the account books. “When I turn 60?” Better respond with truth. “I will still look 20 or around 30.” He nods his head thinking. “What do you mean by you are different?” Does he want more? “I am an Elder, that means I can live longer, I can see the Moon Goddess a lot more also, I am trained as a Knight, we call them warriors, and I have powers, one you already know about, I can mind-link even humans, but I can’t read mind, we can only do that in our pack.” He seems curious about everything I am telling, more like we want to know everything. “Pack?” Lesson number five.

“Yes, every werewolf belongs to a pack, like a person to a kingdom, only we can’t leave, we have a connection with each other member of the pack, that connection helps to understand how we feel, and also share thought, mind-link.” I can tell by his face that he is more troubled with the mind-link that me being a big wolf that and rip heads. ‘That is cute.’ “That is a little weird, listening to other people's thoughts.” I giggle. “We can block from others what we think, is simple.” He continues asking.  “Do we ever mind-link?” I was starting to feel loved again. “Once I mark you, I can read your thoughts.” He got closer to me. “Mark me?” Ah yes, lesson number six.

“Yes, that is another thing, we werewolf’s do. We bite a spot on the neck with the canines, deep enough to leave a mark, but not like a normal bite that can kill a man.” He seems to be thinking ridiculously hard.  “Will you need to mark me at our wedding?” This made me relax completely. I blush a little. He was no clue. “Or before, my wolf is getting agitated because you are not marked yet. A mark tells everyone that you are mine.” He picks up my hands and starts to caress them.  “Is that the only thing you need to do, bite me to mark me?” He keeps looking at my hands. “That is basic.” He looks up into my eyes. “Well. Then mark me.”

I froze. ‘Did he just said to mark him?’ Antha was losing it.  “I am sorry, did you just?” He continued looking into my blue eyes. “Mark me.” He says again with confidence. “Are you sure, after all the information I told you about, are you sure, I can wait for you to clear your mind?” He kisses my hands.  “I am sure, I love you like a never loved before. Maybe you don’t feel that soulmate with me, but I feel it with you, your everything I ever wanted, wolf or human, I want you, so mark me, make me yours.” I lost words. ‘What are you waiting for?’ My wolf getting ready.  “You may feel a little dizzy, and it will hurt a little.” He got his chest to the front. “I can handle it. I don’t want anyone but you.”

I closed my eyes, and my wolf came forward. “Lean your neck.” He gave me access to his neck, and my wolf got to him not holding anymore sunken her canines in the sweet spot, when the neck connects to the shoulder, he tensed. I could feel he was holding in a scream to maintain his man look, but after a few seconds, his chest vibrated with pleasure. After my wolf licked the wound and gave me hold of my body again. “Are you alright?” His eyes started to close. “That hurt a little, and I am feeling tired.” I got up and helped him up. “Let’s go to bed then, is normal to feel tired after the marking.” He leans and put his arm around my shoulder. “Too bad I can’t mark you.” I smile. “You will, at our wedding.”

We got to bed, sleep invading his eyes, and we slept cuddling together.