The Unforgivable Mate Curse (long story ongoing)

Elder Silvanie Memories

P.O.V Elder Silvanie

After breakfast we came to the Green House to train her mind, she then talked about the dream, I never knew what Julius went through before I bought him at the auction, and everything Brielle is telling me made me go back in time.

---- FlashBack---

It was the end of the afternoon, the sun was still in the sky, but going to rest in one hour or two, a lady could not go outside alone, but I had to do my rounds, since we arrived in this town, my necklace is being erratic. The Elder that are in the search for the cursed human, brings with them a pendant with the sand from the hourglass that announces the born of the cursed. It as being eight years that I am traveling from land to land trying to find the human. A week ago we got to this land, and since there every time I got near the harbor the pendant glowed, so I had to bring with me two Moon Goddess Warriors so that it would not seem unfit to walk along the harbor looking at the ships or the sunset.

This time there was a ship in the harbor discharging the spices to the back of a carriage, my wolf could smell them, but something else, I was looking at the men coming down the wooden bridge that connected the ship to land,  they all seem very skinny and diseased, and I frown at the sight. They do not seem to the workers I usually see in the ships.

I see him, at the end of the wooden bridge looking at them the most beautiful men I ever saw with his back to me, his curled blond hair. He sensed something and as he turned around I came across the most fascinating and captivating hazel eyes, his pose was dominant, he had a cape that covers half of him, crossing the belt to secure in his large chest, that was a little exposed do to his bag on the other side, I could tell it was a merchant bag, the one they carry in the waist in the side for better access. He seems frozen looking at me, and I seem the same until one of the guards captures my attention with a cough, and when I look at him, he is staring at the ship.  I look at the ship like I was just admiring it, but I was focusing my earing on what captures the warrior attention,  my pendant started glowing, it was hidden by my cloth, but I could sense it. I could hear crying inside the ship, whip sounds, and slapping, then: “Stupid werewolf, if you want to get beaten so bad, we can help with that.” More sound of someone getting beaten, I had to restrain myself, “He is not a werewolf see.”,” He is not healing… leave him be, we are causing too much noise, and there are still people outside the ship.”,” Better watch you back kid… and you all stay quiet or it will be worse on you all.” I mind link the warriors, we need someone to stay here and check the ship, to see if the child is inside. “May I ask, what a pretty lady is doing with two escorts at these hours of the day in the docks? Is not the best place to be if you are not a businessman, not much to see, just old ships, and man that had hard times in the sea?” I got out of our communication when he approached us. “You can indeed. I like to come to see the ocean, the big ships, and the sunset. And since is un-ladylike to come alone, I bring my escorts with me. I presume since you are here, and you are not a lady, then a businessman?” He gives a warm smile. “You presume correctly, I am Edmund Dutti, a spice merchant for Company of Merchant Adventurers to New Lands, just a small investor, but the sea in the future.” I flee innocence. “I agree with that. This is a ship for spices? Is a big ship.” He looks at the ship. “Not only for spices. Since the new lands have been found, we can bring more gold, ivory, wood, amber, high-quality ceramics, textiles, wines, furs, honey, walrus ivory, spices. There is a new market for those who have the eye for it.” I need a spy, and maybe he can help, but I need a way to seem interested in something. “That is fascinating. Do you also bring exotic animals?” He comes back looking at me. “For now, only a few exotic birds. I know a few merchants that can get you one if you want?” Maybe I just got my way in. “If I could see one, are they in this ship?” He grabs his belt.  “No, this is only for spices and the rest, no animals in it. Maybe if I can invite such a beautiful lady to take a walk tomorrow in the afternoon near the big garden, we could talk more about the birds?”

I was making conversation to find out what could more be in that ship, so that invitation, caught me off guard, and I could sense the warriors trying to maintain their postures. “I-I.” I was completely off guard, I never once got asked to stroll together, I had a duty.

‘That will give you more time to try to find out about the ship, while we do recognition.’ One of the warrior’s mind link me, they are from my pack. “I don’t know what to do in this situation.’ I can sense him chuckle since he knows me since I was a little girl. ‘Say yes, and give him the rent house address, so he can send the letter of invitation, and pick you up.’ I just got confused. ‘How do you guys know all of this?’ They both chuckles, and the other says. ‘We do have a life, besides being warriors.’ I look at the warriors and narrow my eyes at them, they are saying I don’t have a life…. Well, maybe not outside the temple.

“I would love to.” His smile just got brighter, “Where should I pick you up, Miss?” I remember I was being impolite never giving me a name when he was already introduced. “Ohhhh Silvanie Blue.” He says with a little smirk. “Like your eyes.” I blink several times at him.  “Excuse.” He smiles once again. “Your house name is like your eyes, Blue.” I blush hard, my family has blues eyes, well all the pack as blues eyes, so we name blue to the most influential families. My warrior passed me a paper that as our address on to give to Edmund Dutti. He then smiles, gives a small nod, and blinks at me, “Counting the minutes until tomorrow.”

I was frozen, that man, made my heart skip a beat or two, and the air in my lungs do not seem to be enough. ‘I like him’ My wolf Antha decided to share her opinion. That woke me up. We got back after I mind linked two warriors that approached us, to watch the ship and report, they went to hide. We got out for the night. I could sense too many eyes from that ship on me.

------ End Flash Back----

We completed the training with Brielle and I go back for lunch, she seems to be adapting, she walked next to me, looking at everything. Today I gave her a practice exercise, to try to observe other people so that she will have a reference to express her one feeling, so she is being a silent observer, although this also triggers some episodes for her, she already got used to seeing the world differently, just had to find the right way to express to others not being too weird on doing so. I could see her eat and glance looks around trying to figure the expressions of everyone, but she got confused a lot I could sense. After lunch, we got back at the Green House, and I did some exercises with Brielle regarding the practice exercise she had. She was a good observant, near the time we got hungry again midafternoon, I told her that today we will cut short, I could sense her overwhelmed with all that she trained today, and she needs to rest before training in the evening. “Elder Silvanie!” we were sitting at the table on the tree. “Yes, Brielle.” She was looking at me maybe deciding if it was fine to speak.  “Can I bring the diary here to read? In the house, there is always noise around always someone poking in my room seeing if I am all right.” She breathes after saying that.  “If you feel better in here, yes you can, I will be up on the tree table going some Elder documents you can join me.” She looks down at the garden.  “I would like to stay near the pond. I don’t know why, but my body calms down near it.” I look down also, and point, “You can use the bench, I will grab you a blanket, that part will start to be cold once the outside light starts fading, and the lamplight ignites.” She looks at the place about which I am talking. “Thank you.”

I went to get a blanket and a pillow, never know, while Brielle got to fetch the diary. I alerted everyone that she was going to be with me until dining time, so they can mind link me, once the time is right. I got some cookies, tea, and lemonade for her. We both got back, I help her put everything on the table near the bench, looked to see if the lightbulb on the lamp was working, and let her be with the diary. Got up the stairs in the tree stand, I could see her from there, first, she was just admiring the lake and the fish, and I got back to my documents for the location of possible elders. I had to do a trip to check them out, for Cristian it was getting hard to move around so much, I knew sooner or later I will have to start doing the trips also, in his place, his life span was at the limit. I was just hoping we could still be here for Brielle, he has so much to offer her, his life before becoming an Elder, should help her a lot, if he is willing to share. I look over, and see Brielle asleep with the book on top of her, did she ever read a line??? I stop a little, memories coming back to me from that time.

------ Flashback------

“I am glad you could join me for a walk, Miss Blue.” He gives a little bow and a warm smile. “I am glad you ask Mister Dutti.” We both exchange smiles while my chaperon for the walk just bowed to us and let us walk 5 steps ahead of it for more privacy.  We had the most normal talk, but it felt nice, it made me forget that I was an Elder, just like normal people. I asked a few more things about his job, trying to find out more about the ships and shipment. But or I could not get anything, or he did not know. 

In the evening the warriors came back to report, seams the ship was not all spices, and ceramic, there were also humans as merchandise, they follow the human cargo and the men that took it, but they had to stop once it crossed a pack land and did not cross it or they will alert the guards, that means no one in that convoy was a wolf, or else the guards would knock down the carriage. They told me the name of the pack and I mind link the Elder of it, but it was too late, the convoy had already left pack lands. I was devastated, if I were not distracted, we could have gotten the cursed human that night the necklace announces me the ship. After that news I got a few letters asking to go out with Edmund, but my mind was on my duty as Elder, I could not get more distracted than I already was.

‘Go to him.’ Antha missed the time we had with him. ‘I cannot let myself involved. We have work to do.’

I reunited with the guards, they had permission from the Alpha to pass his land and try to find where the carriage went, so until there I was to stay in town, to see if any more ships like that came to the harbor. The letters keep on coming, to ask me out, so by the end and an exasperating wolf in my head, I started going out with Edmund.

“Miss Blue.” Same smile every time he sees me, warm and radiant. “If I can call you Edmund, I think you can call me Silvanie.” Not knowing why I said that. He looked at me with hope in his eyes. “This past week has been the best I ever had. I really would like permission from your parents to courtship with the hope of marriage.” I was lost in words, first I don’t have parents for about 100 years, the second I am a werewolf, third I am an Elder I don’t marry, and last, how do I tell him all of this, and can I tell him. My head was spinning and as I look at Edmund his eyes were sad.  “Can I give your answer later? First, I must talk with my relatives.” I gave him an excuse. “Oh Yes, when can I hear from you, meet your relatives?” He got overly excited. “Soon. I must go, but I will send you a notice soon.” I flee from his side. What will I do?

Once I was back in the house I was pacing back and forth, the warrior that was my escort in all these going outs, was just looking at me. I don’t think they understand completely my agony. Then a light orb with a scroll got in front of me and I picked the scroll up.

“My dear child, not having a mate is not the same thing as not falling in love, Live life, fall in love, have children, you can have it all if you want, you are free to choose someone to spend your or his life with even if it is a human. Even an Elder can have his or her life end before the life span ends, and the soul returns to the earth. The choice to love, live life, and be happy is yours, you have my full support on the decision you take, remember even in love exists pain.

Love Moon Goddess Stella”

My brain and heart were having a big discussion.

‘What do you want more? You love him, I love him, you have the support of the Moon Goddess.’ Antha that was more eager than I was just got a green light. And she was right I was in love, my heart picked up speed every time I was with him, I have dreams about him, but I was a wolf, he was human, does he want to be with me?

The warrior that was looking at me. “I will wait until you write the letter to be delivered to Mister Edmund Dutti.” I looked at him, and he smiled at me. Do I want to write a letter to him? Do I want to meet him??? What will I say, I am a wolf??? My frantic thinking was stopped by the warrior.

“First tell him you two need to meet, tell him you don’t have a family anymore, and you are of age to take care of yourself. Let that sink in first, and he will have questions for you, after the answers if he still wants to stay with you, go out a few times, he probably already know that our pack/family deals with art, and maybe he already meets a few of us, then you tell him about yourself.” I just stop thee looking at him with a shocked face.  “How do you know what to do?” He left his eyes to wander a little.  “I meet someone, she was human, her family never accepted us. She wanted to run with me, I had to tell her the truth, I need her to know before taking her to the pack.” I was beyond words, also curious.  “Did she accept you? Your wolf?” He looked back at me and gave a small smile.  “It took a while, she ran away from me at first. I was devastated, but then she sends a letter to me saying that she needs to know something from me, she was doing 16 years old and her parents were preparing an arranged marriage to someone she did not like.” I insisted on him to continue. “Once she meets me the Mate Bond activated, she was already 16 and the bond made her recognize her love for me.” I got disappointed.  “That is different she was your mate.” He felt my sadness.  “Is not different, if she did not love me, she would never feel the pull, and could still reject me.” I need some hope. “Where is she now?” He gave me the biggest smile he could.  “In my pack, she is now 75 years old, and still gives me a hard time.” Laughing.  “How do you coup, with her dying anytime?” He looks at me with eyes full of love for her. “I don’t think about it, we all will go someday. I was one of the few that had the luck to find his mate and live her full life. The present is more precious than a future you do not know about.”

I look at the desk with the paper that as the pack seal, go to it and write to Edmund.