Postlude
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Postlude
Watching them from afar made me realized how coward I was. Instead of telling him my problem, I chose to ran away. Hindi ko kasi kayang makita na makita niya akong nahihirapan. He deserves heaven, not hell with me. I just wished things were different then I would've been so happy.
"Ayaw mo siyang lapitan?"
I turned my head to the right and saw Jongshin, Dyo's brother-in-law smiling at me. Lapitan? I would love to but I'm scared that he'll not like it. Alam kong galit siya dahil basta na lang akong umalis at iniwan siya. I wasn't there when he needed me most.
"No... He wouldn't want to see me."
There's a weak smile on my lips as I say it to him. How I wish I'm brave enough to tell him the truth. Naramdaman ko ang pagtapik niya sa balikat ko.
"He would. I've met Dyo hyung and he's still waiting for you. You...should tell him about your sickness."
Hindi na ako nagulat na alam niya. He was there for his husband who was just gave birth to their first born when he saw me in the therapy room. I was there...looking so weak, so fragile.
I smiled at him and shook my head. Bakit ba gugustuhin ko pang bumalik sa buhay ni Dyo kung ngayong nakikita ko na na maayos sila ng anak namin. They don't need me there. I would just be a burden. And I can't let that happen. I don't want them to suffer.
"They--- can you tell Dyo that I love him?"
Tumango siya at ngumiti. Nagpasalamat ako sa kanya at tumalikod na.
"My husband told me that happiness is choice. You choose to either be happy or sad. I just hope you choose the first one. It's better if you choose to be happy with hyung that embrace the loneliness of being alone. He loves you so he would understand. I know he will because they'll all have that kindness within them, it runs in their blood."
Happiness is a choice. As I walked away the things that he told me run through my mind. Should I choose to be happy? Do I deserve it after putting him in hell? Should I be happy with him? With Kailene...with Dyo?
Fin.
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