Pursuing my Freedom

Chapter 1

Night sky. I always admired sky because it gives me peace whenever i stare at it, the moon is giving me peace and the stars showed me that im not alone.

Nakatingin ako ngayon sa payapang kalangitan na puno ng bituin na kumikislap kasama ang bilog na buwan. Isang oras na akong narito sa rooftop at nilalamig na rin ako kaya pumasok na ako sa bahay actually bahay ng tita ko na kapatid ni mama nasa ibang bansa kasi silang pamilya at pinapagawa nila itong bahay nila, dahil dadalawa lang ang kwarto sa bahay namin dito ako sa bahay ng tita ko natutulog, kasama ko ang pinsan ko.

Bored na bored na ako kasi bakasyon palang namin at mag hihigh school na ako, medyo kinakabahan si me kasi sa town na ang school ko, ang school ko kasi nung elementary ay malapit lang sa bahay namin, baba ka lang naman ng mga 40+ na hagdan at dadaan sa kalsada ayun na nasa school ka na, by the way im taga baguio city nga pala at nag enroll ako last week doon sa baguio city national high school (BCNHS) i also met my new classmates because they made a gc, your section will be automatically show when your done enrolling.

Yun nga tulala ako screen ng cellphone ko iniisip(may isip pala ako) kung i chachat ko ba yung crush ko o hindi, crush ko nga pala siya since grade 6 tapos freind ko siya since grade 4, payong kaibigan lang wag kayo umamin kasi mawawala sila sayo chos, depende naman yun kung same feelings kayo samin kasi medyo weird nangyari kaya gigil ako hahaha, dahil nga bored ako kwento ko sainyo anong nangyari bakit hindi niya ako pinapansin hehe.

Mag kaaway kami ng bff ko ngayon kasi hindi ko alam basta nag ka tampuhan kami, nakaupo ako ngayon sa hagdanan dahil trip ko lang bat ba at inaantay ko yung isa ko pang kaibigan speaking of the devil eto na siya, on the other side nakaupo naman yung bff ko sa harap ko ang nag hahati lang samin ay yung play ground namin hehe sana gets niyo basta nasa mag kabilang dulo kami ng play ground ng school, medyo nahuhurt ako kasi katabi niya yung boy bestfreind/crush ko at isa pang babae so yun nag uusap sila habang nakatingin sakin so i assume na pinag uusapan nila ako, tapos may bumulong na demonyo este yung kaibigan ko sakin.

"Pinag uusapan ka ata ahh, binuking ka na" Ani nito habang tumatawa. Demonyo amputa.

"Binuking wala naman akong kasalanan bat nila ako ibubuking" Totoo naman walang akong ginawang masama aishhh naiinis ako ngayon ewan ko kung bakit gusto ko lang siya kaya dapat hindi ako nasasaktan.

"Na gusto mo si Luke" Ani nito taena sana naman hindi ayokong maging awkward ang atmosphere namin huhu.

"Ako? guusto? si dre bakit ko siya magugustuhan ehh kaibigan ko siya, a freind will be a freind" I said and rolled my eyes well im really not clear about my feelings pero dahil ang kakati ng mga dila ng kaibigan ko chos inaasar na nila ako ayun nagustuhan ko siya aishhh!.

"Yeah right, whatever IN DENIAL QUENN ahhahah" Ani nito at diniin pa talaga yung salitang 'in denial quenn' tsss.

"ewan ko sayo tara na nga uwi na tayo anong oras na oh alas singko na i need to go home kasi ayokong mapagalitan."

The Next Day.

I think tama nga yung demonyo kong kaibigan kasi medjo lumalayo siya sakin, idk why its either siniraan ako or sinabing may gusto ako sakanya.

Hindi ko alam kung ano mararamdaman ko kasi he is giving me mixed signals sometimes he's sweet sometimes he's cold ano yun.

Today we have an activity kaming mga scouts and it will be held this afternoon kaya umuwi ako para mag palit ng girls scout uniform, After eating sinundo ako ni reya medyo maaga pa kaya sinundo namin si dre, at ang ugok naman ay kumakain palang kaya nanood muna kami ng horror napasarap ang aming panonood kaya naman nakalimutan naming may pasok pa kami, i feel someone's staring at me and when i look at my side Luke is staring at me we had a staring contest but i looked away immediately and decided to go so i asked them and they agreed.

Late na kaming nakapasok sa school buti nalang hindi pa sila nag sisimula kaya naka abot pa kami, alas kuatro na natapos ang activity kaya pag katapos nakipag laro muna ako ng badminton bago umuwi.

Days went by and nabalitaan kong isinugod ang kaibigan kong si Samuel sa hospital and i didn't know that it would be the end of our friendship, while samuel is in the hospital luke and reya found a new freind they didn't talked to me, but im still thankful i have my bff but another news broke my heart, My bff and boy bestfreind/crush are in a relationship but i acted like i dont care because i dont want to ruin our friendship.

But something happened and that made me believe the saying 'kapag may umalis, may darating' because 2 people came into my life, at first i was hesitant because since the my trauma is getting attached to someone because i'm scared they might leave me and that what's reya and ralff did they left.

I continued living with my new freinds, i was shocked when i saw Samuel, reya and luke coming towards me i didn't know that he's already discharged from the hospital. Again their questions stabbed heart.

" Jhaz may iba ka ng kaibigan ahhh bat d ako inform" Dre asked.

" oo nga nawala lang ako ng isang buwan, nakakatampo ka na ah" Samuel said.

" D ka na din namamansin" Reya said.

I choose not to answer their stupid questions instead i just laughed at them, that day i thought we can have are friendship back but the next day they didn't talked to me, they also had a new freind wow thats fast.

Days, weeks, months went by and our graduation came, i expected them to greet me or fix our friendship but they didn't and thats our last interaction, but i was so immature that i run after my boy bestfreind i chatted him everyday even though he wont reply i did that for the whole vacation and i received nothing.