Reality and Dreams

Dear diary, I'm really having a bad face. My exams are near knocking at my doors and I am sleepy I don't know why. I am not sleeping in that sense but I am not active also. I just had it off conversation with my dad for my school called him up. To be honest come up I read in one of the most costliest dum school in the city which is ready to Harris you any moment you wish. I got scold it for not informing and wasting electricity from the heater switch on, which I didn't knew even. It's my mom who looks over these. How ever come up he just went by without having his lunch and I just dropped my evening plans with Ash because I feel low. I have my friend Cia 's birthday coming up but haven't figured out yet what to do. Am I becoming to lazy? I guess. I might be getting another round of scolding once my dad returns best of luck to me! I'll let you know if not much weeping out. Bye for now :)) Hi! I am Maeve... Maeve Riott, a teenager in her sixteens. To be honest, I feel that I was lucky for my first year after my birth after which the struggle began, 15 years of life struggle. I know it's sounds quite funny coming from this young age. Me and my parents live in an apartment at Boston. We have an isolated family who just have the same surname or else have different lives. My mother has a small school of extra curricular activity and my father has a teaching centre and I been their child is feeling in one of the other subject for the whole session in my secondary schooling session. I just go to message left by my father- "Call me when free.." I'm sure that this isn't going to be something very good as he is not in a good mood after the morning incident. With a deep exhale, I ring him up.. "Hey dad! What's up? Is everything going well in school?" "Is it expected to go good standing harassment for your assessment marks. Have you ever kid about my respect? I am a man who works with his chain up, with self respect and self esteem and every time why do I have to hear all this?" ( As expected) I was expecting this and was mentally ready for the whole stuff. This is the third time in the year he has been called. Yes I do feel bad for him. He is not even responsible for all these. I don't get the base behind why do you need to make the parents here all these question mark are the ones to study? I remain quite while the whole look goes until he hangs at up till now I'm very use to all the stuffs but the emotions still hits you the same way every time. And with all this bad face and notification pop up my lock screen. It was from Ash asking- "you coming this evening?" With a sigh " not today babe!" Ash is my boyfriend it's been 3 months were in relationship quite recent I believe!! In such a mode I had no wish to meet him. He doesn't know Mummy in deep, my life, my past or anything much about me. He is in the final year of schooling applying for medicine. He wishes to go abroad for his medical degree and wants to settle in Dubai for the rest of his life. I met him in our school while our school hosted the inter school football competition under 18. At that time my life was a bit different as it is now, my schedules now need to share that time with another. Ash is my second boyfriend, then I had earlier was a crook. I was really I never believed in love, having love life, having a partner. Somewhere the main reason that lies in my heart is growing in a broken family. My mom and dad do they live under the same roof but they are far apart from each other from their mind from the soul. As a child on my growing years I feel it, understand it more as the days passed by that yet the live under the same roof they don't live together. In such a scenario I never wish to keep attachment with Ash or even anyone who comes in my life. You never know were destiny takes you. It might take you apar; it might take you closer. We are in our adolescence. As yours passed by comma both of our choices will change comma priorities will change comma will have a difference in mind sets then we use to have a go different shots of likes in this likes unlike the past years and everything won't be same as of now. So, let's see were destiny takes us. If it bonds us together then I have nothing more to wish to God than else. Till then, I feel that, yes of course, I love him but growing into each other too much might take us in a state where we cannot live apart. Mum came in my room to keep my wash clothes in my wardrobe. "Would you like to go for an ice cream date, sweetheart? It's been long we haven't had one! " Well that was actually something unusual. Thouma we share the same blood get we are a part of hearts. I nodded, thinking that's finally some good should happening today. "Sara ranged up and told to let you know she'll be coming in an hour" "Really, mum?" "Yes... She seeing to be very excited while she talked!" "Mhmmmm......" I know why she was so. I just texted her this morning I and ash and it up together last night. She is my best friend and she will be here to hear me out anything I wish to speak, be it good or bad. Oh, let me introduce her to you.. the one I'm talking about here, is Sara...Sara Benz. She lives in the same city as of me, Boston a few metres away just. We are best friends since our preschooling years. I remember, while I was in my nursery class I met her one day at the bus stop while waiting for the school bus while I saw a little girl crying while her way to the bus stop. Yes, it was Sara. She never like to go to the school as school seem to her as a boring place where the teachers use to instruct and she never liked to go on someone's orders. That was the first day, when I said beside her while we were going to the school. I greated her good morning which she had replied sobbing. We talked the whole day that day and even I invited her that evening to come to my house and we could play together. That was the beginning of our friendship. 14 years of friendship and this is where we are today and fingers crossed that this friendship goes lifelong. She is like my second mother, she feeds me, helps me in my clothing takes care of my schedule and me; looks for my betterment and even scolds me sometimes. She is my all time support, when never I need her she is there right beside me as a shoulder. She would listen to all my crafts with one long go and would try to Sood mean every possible we she can. Sometimes when I am stuck in boys we just end together cursing them. Yes, that's how friendships are meant to be!! She is really protective about me. She keeps a check on Ash and ask me often that if he is doing good with me. She keeps a note if I am happy with my boyfriend, if he treats me well and everything goes compatible between us. And it between this the bell rang. She is here! We created with the real tight hug. My mood just fabs when never I see her. She got flowers for me! "How sweet!" What better could you expect from a best friend. In fact, not a best friend she is my sister from another mother. "So how was it, last night?" "I mean... Yes, it is pretty nice. I got princess treatment and we ended up cuddling this morning!" "Awww " We talked about yesterday over a coffee and I also told her about the morning incident with my father. "Maeve, it's a matter of two more years. Less than that in fact exclamation mark and then your out of here. You are a strong girl and I trust you that you will be able to go through this also. You have been a strong girl all these years and continue to be one for the rest of your life." This is why I love her. Her supportive nature. She never makes a judgement and just motivate me over who I am. Now it's her time to speak. "What's going up with you? In relationship? Or just random dates? What about the British guy, you were talking about last week?" I understood by her smile that there's something new. "Yeah.... We ender up together last evening in a shopping mall fitting room together. You know what I mean....." "What..?" "Yes, let's go for a walk while telling about the whole story" We went on a walk to the nearby cafe and I heard the whole story over a cup of coffee. Then, we return home by 8 and then I am back at my study table. My exams are starting from 14th of this month and just look at me on aware of the whole syllabus. "What the hell am I doing with my academics?" With a grief, I just started turning over the pages and going through it.