Chapter 1: A Wife in Name Only
The laughter in the room wasn’t meant to be quiet.
It was controlled. Polite, even.
But sharp enough to cut through me like a blade.
“I heard she’s from a poor family…”
“Ethan could have married anyone. Why her?”
“She doesn’t even fit in.”
Each whisper wrapped around my chest, tightening like a rope I couldn’t escape from.
I stood still, my fingers tightening around the stem of the glass in my hand. The expensive wine inside it shimmered under the chandelier lights, mocking me in a way I couldn’t explain.
Everything here screamed wealth.
Power.
Status.
Everything I didn’t have.
Everything I wasn’t.
I adjusted the hem of my dress, suddenly aware of how simple it looked compared to the glittering gowns around me. Women walked past me with confidence, their laughter effortless, their presence commanding attention.
I, on the other hand…
Felt invisible.
Or worse—
Like I didn’t belong.
“Amara.”
That voice.
Low.
Cold.
Familiar.
My breath caught slightly before I turned around.
Ethan Cole.
My husband.
The man every woman in this room secretly—or openly—wanted.
Tall, perfectly dressed, his presence alone demanded attention. His sharp jawline tightened slightly as his eyes landed on me, and just like always, there was no warmth in them.
Not even a trace.
Just indifference.
And something colder.
“Don’t embarrass me tonight,” he said quietly, stepping closer so no one else would hear.
But I heard him.
Clearly.
Every word.
“Just stand there, smile if you can manage it, and don’t draw unnecessary attention to yourself.”
My grip on the glass tightened.
I wanted to say something.
Anything.
But the words refused to come out.
Because deep down…
I knew he meant every word.
“I’m not asking for much,” he continued, his tone sharp but controlled. “You knew what this marriage was when you agreed to it.”
Yes.
I did.
A contract.
An arrangement.
A solution to a problem I never created.
“I understand,” I finally whispered, forcing my voice to remain steady.
Forcing myself not to break.
His gaze lingered on me for a second longer, as if assessing whether I would cause trouble.
Then he stepped back.
Just like that.
As if I meant nothing.
As if I was nothing.
And maybe…
To him, I was.
I stayed a few more minutes, pretending.
Pretending to belong.
Pretending not to hear the whispers.
Pretending not to feel my heart slowly cracking inside my chest.
But there was only so much I could take.
“I need some air,” I murmured to no one in particular before turning away.
No one stopped me.
No one noticed.
Or maybe…
No one cared.
The hallway outside the grand ballroom was quiet.
Too quiet.
The sudden silence rang in my ears as I leaned against the wall, closing my eyes tightly.
My chest rose and fell unevenly.
I didn’t cry.
I refused to.
Not here.
Not because of them.
Not because of him.
But the pain…
It sat there.
Heavy.
Unmoving.
“Pathetic.”
The voice came suddenly, slicing through the silence.
My eyes snapped open.
Vanessa Blake.
Of course.
She stood a few steps away, her arms crossed, a faint smile playing on her lips. Her dress hugged her perfectly, her hair falling effortlessly over her shoulders.
She looked like she belonged in that room.
Like she owned it.
Like she owned him.
“I was wondering how long you’d last in there,” she continued, her eyes scanning me from head to toe. “Not very long, it seems.”
I straightened slightly, refusing to let her see how much her presence unsettled me.
“I just needed some air.”
“Of course you did,” she said with a soft laugh. “Places like this can be… overwhelming for people like you.”
People like me.
The words stung more than they should have.
“You know,” she stepped closer, lowering her voice, “you really shouldn’t force yourself into spaces you clearly don’t belong in.”
I said nothing.
Because what was there to say?
She wasn’t entirely wrong.
“But then again,” she tilted her head slightly, her smile turning sharper, “you’ve already forced your way into a marriage that was never meant for you.”
My breath caught.
Her eyes gleamed with something cruel.
“You think he’ll ever love you?” she asked softly.
The question hit harder than I expected.
Because it touched the one thing I tried so hard to bury.
Hope.
Foolish, fragile hope.
“He doesn’t even look at you properly,” she continued. “Do you know where he was before he came tonight?”
I didn’t answer.
Didn’t want to.
But she answered anyway.
“With me.”
The world seemed to tilt slightly.
“He loves me,” she said simply. “He always has.”
Silence filled the space between us.
Heavy.
Suffocating.
“And you?” she added, her gaze piercing through me. “You’re just… temporary.”
Temporary.
The word echoed in my mind long after she said it.
“I was looking for you.”
Ethan’s voice cut through the tension as he stepped into the hallway.
His gaze flickered briefly between us before settling on Vanessa.
And something changed.
Something I had never seen when he looked at me.
Warmth.
“Vanessa,” his voice softened.
Just a little.
But enough.
Her smile shifted instantly, becoming something softer, almost affectionate.
“Ethan.”
The way she said his name…
It wasn’t just familiarity.
It was intimacy.
“I thought you left,” he said, his tone completely different from how he spoke to me.
“I was about to,” she replied lightly. “I just ran into your… wife.”
The pause before the last word was deliberate.
Sharp.
Ethan’s expression hardened slightly as his eyes moved to me.
And just like that—
The warmth disappeared.
“Go back inside,” he said flatly.
No concern.
No question.
Just an order.
I swallowed.
Nodded.
And walked past them.
Because staying any longer…
Would have broken me completely.
Later that night, I stood alone in the massive bedroom that was supposed to be ours.
But never felt like it.
I stared at my reflection in the mirror.
The same face.
The same girl.
But something inside me felt… different.
Cracked.
Tired.
Empty.
The door opened behind me.
I didn’t need to turn to know it was him.
“You left early,” Ethan said, his voice carrying mild annoyance.
“I wasn’t feeling well.”
A pause.
Then—
“You should learn to endure things like that. It’s part of your role.”
Role.
Not wife.
Not partner.
Just…
A role.
I let out a small breath, my fingers curling slightly at my sides.
“I’ll do better next time.”
“See that you do.”
Footsteps.
Then silence.
He didn’t stay.
He never did.
That night, I lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling.
Wide awake.
Alone.
And for the first time since this marriage began…
A thought settled clearly in my mind.
Maybe…
This wasn’t where I was meant to stay.
Maybe…
One day…
I would leave.
And when I did—
I wouldn’t come back as the same woman they all looked down on.