Everything, nothing at once

AFTER A S T R O The rain was pouring down at me and the street threating-ly but my gaze falls remains on the dirty water that flows underneath my feet, The storm and thunder was raising one after another to left that blasting sound, which was meaner than the one inside my head and on the other hand the lighting seems like having a fight against the sky but yet the sky stays calm and quiet letting the lighting beat again and again until the sky break down. however all this consequences doesn't bring any sense or even made my head jerk up to look above instead my gaze still falls remains on my feet as I know there's no place than to look else my feet. I know tears were running out of my eyes and were vanishing by the rain but this time I preferred the idea of rain washing the tears along with it, so no need of hiding and wiping off. Hard. The pain was enough, just enough and all my life till now, I was aware of pain but not a whole break down. The memories flashing. Before I could stop myself I was climbing down from the top of the building, my feets bumping against the floor, loudly. "You shouldn't have did that" I muttered while the pain carried me away. I thundered the way, pulling my dorm room firmly. The next I did was allowing myself into the bathroom and search for a sharp metal, that could take my soul away, somewhere I could not feel pain. When my hands touched the blade, I hadn't think for a minute before drawing my wrist. I drew. The blood dropped on the floor, creating a small pool down me, it hurted but not much as the pain. When minutes passed my vision blurred and everything spinned before I pass out myself on the floor. IVY It sucks, everything sucks along with being here, looking again and again at what she left. Does she even knew how hard it to be not without her. Never knew. I sighed while looking down at my hands, knowing tears were running out unstoppablely. "Iv, Are you there" I heard someone banging at my door and I knew who it was. "Storm, I'm here" I answered back before pulling the door wide open. "Heyy" he said weakly. "Hey" I said back. "How's you doing" he asked and than bitted his lips like he hadn't wanted to ask that question. "Like okay?" More like answering, I asked it myself. I'm I okay?? "Whatever, I thought like talkin' to you but it just hard, you know, it's hard to talk, it's hard to say others how badly its hurt, I'm feelin' like, heck, I don't know" he rushed his words, finding how to bring more words to not puzzle his talking but I know it's just hard for him and all of us, so much hard and even worse. I nod back, understanding him "Can a hug could change something" I asked carefully, tears gathering up in my eyes. He nod back, knowingly "Sure" he said, somewhere his voice cracking. I hugged him tight until the coldness in my heart warmed by him. "Thanks" he said and I tried to smile but failed. "I'm suppose to go and find Rayn" he said and I nod. "I'm suppose to go and meet Astro" I said and he nod back, his face adding a worst pain, which I could feel in all ways. Moving in two separate ways, I made my way to Astro's room, he must be there and being there til that day. When I reached his room, I banged twice but there was no reply and I thought, maybe he want to be alone but when I took a step away, my heart hadn't allowed me to go like that without consoling him, so I open the door swaggy open and walked in. The room was dark and lifeless but a sort of light sparkled in the wall and made me look behind to catch the source of light and I found it from the bathroom. I walked upto the bathroom edge and called out "Astro, Are you there" no reply, so I banged once at the door and it opened a little, proving me it's not locked. I pushed a little more before my eyes laid on the body lying in my floor. A gasp goes out my mouth and my heart thundered inside my chest "Astro" I screamed reaching upto him and kneeling down next to him on the floor "Astro" I shook him, but no answer came out and than I noticed the pool of blood that flows from his wrist "Astr-" My throat dried. Before I pass out, I took my phone out and called Talon. "Pick up, pick up, pick up" I mumbled endlessly. "Ta-Talon" I yelled at the phone "You okay??" he Asked. "To your room, fast, rush up" I shouted at the edge of my voice. "Yeah, just seconds" ******** heyy guyss, don't forget to comment and let me know your opinion about the first chapter and also please check down my book Voice of Arran. With a lot of love, Riya