Perfect luna

Second

Damian POV

It’s been 7 years waiting for my fated mate, and I can’t help the pain that invades my heart, I feel physically, mentally and emotionally drained for myself and my wolf Darius.We won’t be able to be with our fated mate . My dad is very sick and can’t no longer run our pack like a good alpha he’s been ready to step down of the alpha position since 5 years ago but in order for me to be the alpha of the silver moon pack I have to pick a chosen mate since I haven’t found my fated mate I have the choice of making someone that it’s not meant for me my luna and marry her, but just the thought of choosing someone else makes me so furious and devastated with the elders of my pack how come I have to give up love and my happiness ? I been looking for my fated mate for 7 years but I had no luck on finding her and my dad can’t no longer wait for me and he won’t step down of the alpha position unless I have a luna by my side, that’s just how our laws were made in the silver moon pack. My pack believes that a good alpha can run a strong pack if they have a luna to lead with the alpha . I have talked with the elders of my pack and my father, so they can let me become alpha without taking a chosen mate but they won’t let me become an alpha unless I choose someone or else they will choose a luna for me, they believe I’m going to be a weak leader without my luna by my side. But I’m a responsible alpha and I will sacrifice my happiness for the better good of my people, but the fear of finding her when I have already taken a choose mate makes my blood boil with anger. I pray to the moon goddess an hoped I never find her so I don’t destroy my fated mate heart.Tomorrow I have to choose a chosen mate, but just the thought of choosing a luna makes me very sick to my stomach. I can’t with this situation I grabbed my car keys and headed out of my office to the nearest club, I want to drink my sorrows away. I ask for a glass of whiskey and drink it the taste of it burning my throat as I quickly finish it an ask for more.Its been 3 hours and I’m still at the club I have order far too many bottles that i don’t even remember how many shots i have taken.I notice all the females staring at me with hungry eyes, ready to devour my body, one female wolf who was mateless approach’s me “have you been told you look like Matthew Daddario ? She ask “ I’m not interested on f*****g tonight get lost please ” I growled at her, she left quickly with her friends letting them know I was not interested,my wolf Darius was pleased with my respond he does not like it when females approach me. I’m very good looking im 6’7 with black hair and brown eyes, my six packs showing underneath my shirt,people always tells me I look like Matthew Daddario because we have the same features and body type. I grabbed my car keys ready to head home but before I get up from my chair I felt very dizzy from all the alcohol in my system, but I still manage to call my beta Romano so he can pick me up “ Romano please come pick me up I’m at the black swan club” I said “ yes alpha I’m on my way” he reply I figured why not finish the bottle of whiskey since my beta is picking me up. Darius my wolf was in pain knowing what was coming tomorrow for us. I will forever ask for my wolfs forgiveness he’s losing his true loved and happiness for the future of our pack but is a sacrifice we both have to endure. By the time my beta shows up I was already unconscious i only remember getting in the car and someone taking me to my bedroom before sleep consume me. I woke up with a big headache from the night before the events from last night consume my thoughts I remember my situation and finally gave in to the idea that there was nothing more I could do. My wolf Darius spoke to me trough the mind link in my head “if this is the only way we can save our pack than I make you fully responsible of your cowardly decisions, tell me Damian what would you do if our mate is still out there waiting for us what would you tell her went she finds out you bedded and choose another female to become our luna”he said angrily I didn’t answer him I couldn’t there was no response from me I don’t even know what I would do if I find my mate.Darius broke our link and went to the back of my mind not making himself present, I quickly took a shower ready to start the day I choose on a beige short sleeve T-shirt and black jeans I added my adidas Kaptir i added some perfume and lotion I grabbed my wallet,phone and watch and headed towards my office where my father was already waiting for me so we can choose my chosen mate. "What took you so long to get here Damian where were you last night? I been trying to reach you trough our mind link but you shut us down ” my dad said “ I’m already here dad let’s get this over with ” I was in no mood to start a fight with my dad “I been talking to our gamma, about you marrying her daughter I believe she’s the best choice for you and our pack she’s beautiful intelligent and very good in combat I believe she’s a good candidate to become your mate and luna ” my dad said “ are you taking about summer Evans dad? “ “ yes indeed son,she will become a very good luna and also a wife for you son please accept her as you’re chosen mate”my dad said “ fine dad if you think she’s the best candidate then let her be my luna talk to the gamma about the arrangements for us to visit their home later on today” “ Damian I know this is not the way you would want it to be, but it’s for the better good of our pack. This type of decisions is what makes us the leaders of our pack as alphas, we have to look out for our packs before anything else. Im very proud of you son with time and dedication you would learn to love your chosen mate son just like I did with your mother” my dad said before leaving the office and leaving me with a million thoughts running trough my head. Why am I feeling this way towards summer Evans don’t give me wrong she’s pretty but not my type how will I mated with her ? Why me moon goddess ? I was furious with myself for been this cowardly and stupid individual for not fighting for my true love and happiness. For the first time in a long time my wolf Darius agreed with me. I left my office letting my beta Romano in charge for the rest of the day. I went to the forest and shift to my black wolf I wanted to be alone with my thoughts. Running trough the forest is one of my favorite hobbies when I’m not on duty, we stop at a near lake to drink some water my wolf Darius is happy that I let him out.