His Memories of Her

42th

“I really should meet my shrink more often.” I said as I finally decided to step up from the bed and thankfully, I did not fall this time and succeeded arriving in the bathroom where I took off the sleeping dress that man gave me after closing the bathroom doors and stare to my own reflection on the mirror.

“You need to get yourself together.” I said to myself.

While waiting for my strength on my legs to return, I keep on thinking, giving me the conclusion to have as more as I could meetings with my therapist and see really what happened on my side and so that I could figure out my next move or the next thing that should and would happen with us. And finally, to make a decision out of it, from everything.

And so, I told myself while taking a quick bath. I do not know why but I feel like I need to leave here and instead of staying here and wait for Henry to tell me what he was about to tell me last night, I should juts go and have a whole day session with my therapist.

I could tell that Henry is suffering, he is not like me nor my brother who learned to live with those missing pieces of my life over time, that in ten years, it did not matter to us, specially to my brother who manage to convince me that I do not need to know because we are living perfectly happy. When I woke up the news of my brother having a girlfriend is what surprised me and it made me forgot that I had something happened to me, and when I remembered it, suddenly the wedding came which made me so happy and content as we three lived together in Japan. And that was also the time I started my medical school and practicing it and gradually, I did not really have enough time to think about it specially when my first nephew came but gone so fast just like in a snapped of fingers and thankfully that the miscarriage my sister in law had did not affect her second pregnancy with Ryu but sadly, Ryu will be their only child as she could not bear another one because of the miscarriage he had with their first one which we named Kiyoshi which I did not really understand it at first since I was staying there for only a few years. And the reason of me making sessions with my therapist is because my brother asks me recently. Saying that everything is now ok, his family is stable and is Ryu’s health so he told me that it is finally time to mind the thing we escaped by running away from it. Now that I have almost half way of my dream of becoming a great doctor. And seeing nothing is wrong with what he said, in fact it made sense enough for me to agree.

“Cath!” I what I heard from the bathroom. I could tell that Henry is in the room because I could clearly hear him with the doors closed.

“Yes?” I said replying to his calling while soaking myself.

“Your clothes are ready. I will leave them on the bed. Come down as soon as you are done, the food is getting colder.” He said from the other side of the door.

This, this is what is making it seems to me that we are moving so fast. It did not seem like a sleep over anymore from the moment we watched that movie last night it makes me feel like we are co living together. And that is what making me uneasy. I did not know the whole story, my side of story so I do not really know how would I deal with this and so afraid that I would do something bad towards Henry whom I wish nothing but happiness, sincerely because right now, from what we had last night, he is such a perfect man, a man of every girl’s dream to have that whoever he chose to settle down, she would be the luckiest girl living on earth because he is just so perfect with both living, work and even him being just himself.

“Thank you and got it.” I said yelling back to him and there he said that he will be waiting downstairs and hear the door of the room closes and only then I stood up and put the bathrobe on me and stepped out of the bathroom walking towards the bed where I see my clothes on a hanger clean and already ironed and to my surprise, even my undergarments making my eyes go wide.

“Please do not tell me that he is the one who did this.” I exclaimed looking to my undergarments which are in different colors and could tell you that they are not undergarments for a night out. They are working garments which I already feel embarrassed about.

I quickly dress up and put my make up on even though I have not told Henry that I will not be staying for the rest of the day, I still pick up my bags after completing my morning routine and dressing myself up including doing my hair in a messy bun as I did not have time to dry it and straighten it up.

“Good morning.” A woman’s voice to my surprise that made me jump off a little off turning my head looking at this old woman, old enough to be my grandmother.

“Good morning?” I said in questioning tone as I am not sure who she is or what she is in this mansion.

“Good morning.” Henry suddenly came out from his room looking so fresh and is also dressed. To which I look at him wondering.

“Morning, are you going out?” I said, or more like blurted out what is on my mind. Not really realizing until I already said it.

“Oh, yeah. I got a call from the hospital I needed to go for a consult. I did not say no since it would not take that long. How about… you? Are you also going out?” he said back to which I just nod since it is something he could say no or even needed to.

“Oh, yeah. I just received a call from Kevin and it seems his mom wants to see me before she flies away again for three years. By the way, thanks for the clothes.” I said.

“It is nothing, thank Her, granny rose who came early this morning to do your clothes and the one you used will be fine as long as you give her.” He said smiling and hearing that it was not him who did my laundry made me so happy.

I look towards the granny who is smiling towards to me and I said “I left it on the bed in a hanger.” To which she nods before she entered the room where I just came from.

“Ready for breakfast?” Henry said that took my attention away from watching the granny entering my room for last night.

“Sure!” I said with a smile and excited tone as I walk towards him and we walks through the hallway, down to the stairs and towards the kitchen where the breakfast that smells have already reached me as soon as I stepped down from the last step of the stairs making me hungrier and even more right no that they all look so delicious to me making me seat to where I only realize when Henry handed me the fried rice with his right hand and found out that I am sitting next to him just we did last night.

“It looks so delicious!” I exclaimed as I could feel Henry’s gaze, although I am not sure I what I guess is true, I’d he is really waiting for me reaction whether I would like what he prepared or not.

“Happy to know that you liked it.” He said before handing me the fried rice which I take from his hand to put some on my plate.

“Are you kidding? It is so delicious!” I exclaimed after taking one spoonful of fried rice in my mouth. The fried rice consists of bacon cubes and hotdogs and egg. And quickly take some ham as well and meatloaf.

I could hear him chuckling a little bit before I hear his utensils making their own sound as we eat next to each other. That instead of having great imaginations, like how it should be in movies, I could not. All I could feel is fright with unsure reasons that I already could feel my stomach would not be able to take in anymore even though how delicious everything are.

“Are you OK?” Henry said that almost choked me.

‘I guess I could not hide what my stomach is feeling from my face.’ I thought realizing that my upset stomach is showing in my face.

“Sorry, it is just that my auntie is someone who is so hard to deal with, specially towards me.” I said trying to hide the true reason.

“Are they making trouble to you?” he said worriedly letting go of his fork and knife.

“No, it’s the contrary.” I said in joking tone and giggles also a little bit.

“Is it that much for you to be feeling bad enough to make your stomach upset?” he asks in worried tone.

I look at him and found out that it is not because he stopped eating but because he is already done, I nod in response to him and said “Sorry, but you do not have to wait for me.”

“I have to, you left your car in the hospital’s parking lot. But if Kevin is coming to get you, I could so you could take your time.” He said.

“Kevin? He might has just gone to bed.” I said with a scoff and added “So, I guess I will just take a taxi. So it is really fine. It might be urgent, the consult.”

He chuckle first and said “I guess he has regular night life and the more I should wait for you. I would not let you take a taxi.”

I look, stare at him for a moment and God I just could not figure out why I am feeling so uneasy when I should be feeling lucky to have that kind of relationship with the dream man of the whole single ladies’ population in our hospital and I could tell even outside surely. And so I could not wait any longer so I need to find out already.

I took one last sip of my freshly squeezed orange juice before I stood up and said “Then shall we go?” to which he looked at me with surprise than he only move when he felt like I stared at him enough.

“OK then.” He said getting up from his seat so I nod and only then we both grab our things on the seat next to us.

We walk out of the kitchen taking the elevator going down towards the underground parking lot that did not take that long but felt like is since it is so quiet. We did not really talk until we get on his truck and drove out of his mansion.

The sun is already out, giving light to the huge lines of trees. Having a good view right now is really different from last night. It is so breath taking and surely will the air is that I am having the urge to open the window on my side. Thankfully I held myself back enough not to until we got out of their, his property.

But the silence is something I would not be able to take so I decided to open my mouth and said “So, you have a maid. Why I did not see her last night?” While looking at him driving with his hands on the wheels.

“She comes every other day which I guess I was in luck since she came the day before yesterday that you found the house presentable.” He said with a smile and somehow in joking tone.