A wolf in teachers clothing.

Love letters

All day long I was on edge, the thought of my mate being transferred from my class or worse hurt somewhere terrified me. I couldn't keep myself from searching the halls during the passing period, or watching the faces of each of my students closely as they filed in to sit down in my class. In the back of my mind I could feel my wolf pacing back and forth, all he wanted was to go and track down our mate and be sure she was ok. Lunch rolled around and I sent a quick text to Axle asking him to pick something up for us to eat, I knew he would stay in town not wanting to miss an opportunity to meet our mate and yet I would have to break his heart again. I step out in to the parking lot in time to watch my brother pull in and take a parking stall close to the door. I shove my hands deep in to my pockets and cross the street.

-She never showed did she?- I heard his voice ask quietly threw our mind link. I open the door with out looking up at him and shake my head sadly. I couldn't say it out loud, the mounting desperation in my soul beginning to cut off my ability to speak. I cant voice my fear because then the would be real, then the universe would use my worst nightmare to torture my brother and myself. My ears begin to ring as I hear some ragged noise that sounds like sand paper, my vision begins to blur and I know what's happening but I'm powerless to stop it. Panic floods my system full blown hands shaking vision blurring panic attack I look to where I know Axle is sitting next to me seeing his wide eyes in between bouts of blindness. I felt pressure on my hands as he grips them tightly trying to calm me from my fit.

-Alexander listen to me. you have to breath.- I heard his voice say calmly in my head, I could hear the strain of him trying to help me without using his alpha command on me. I knew he was just as worries about Freya as I was and that watching me break down before his eyes was only making his internal struggle that much harder.

-I'm trying- I whimper threw the mind link. I was trying to calm my ragged breathing but the more air I tried to gulp in yo my lungs the harder it was for me to breath, I was suffocating and no matter how much I tried to change it I couldn't stop the panic attack that had me in its death grip.

-For give me but I have to.- I heard Axel say threw the mind link before I felt his hand snake up and around my neck pulling my head toward him. I felt his soft lips mold with mine sending sparks of joy threw my body. I could feel my heart rate slow and the tingling feeling in my hands that comes with a severe panic attack began to subside. Axel pulls away slightly allowing me to catch my breath before leaning in for another kiss this one filled with fire, I could feel him nip my lip harshly as he tugs on my hair pulling a moan from deep with in my chest. Pulling away from him I let out a soft growl.

"We said we wouldn't do that in public." I reminded him my finger tracing over my lips. I watched as axle rolled his eyes and handed me a burger wrapped in paper from some random fast food joint.

"Eat fast you used most of your lunch with that little melt down of yours." Axel gave a soft smile at me and even though his words were harsh I knew he meant it with love. I finished my food quickly and leaned over giving him a quick kiss before opening the car door. Standing up I feel Axel grab my wrist tightly.

"Alexander we will find her and we will make her ours." I smile softly at his words of encouragement before pulling my hand back and heading back inside. Just as I was getting to my class I caught a few wisps of her scent.

-Axle I smell her she was here briefly but she was here!- I exclaim threw the mind link we share.

-Good ill fallow the scent from your mind- I could feel the excitement pouring off of him knowing that we had a lead. I hated to break this happy moment and burn his hopes to the ashes but we needed to be realistic.

-That's not the most accurate way of tracking Axel- I think softly as I step in to the class room. Students start to pile in and I'm forced to break the link off so I can focus on teaching. I go to the white board about to start my lesson when I see something catch my eye. The top drawer of my desk was left slightly open and I know full well that they were all closed before I left the room. I felt a lump form in my throat as I proceeded like nothing was wrong. The last hours of the day drug by sluggishly and when the shrill shriek of the end day bell rang I couldn't rip my desk open fast enough.

There dead center was a folded piece of paper with elegant scrolling script written on it. I was almost too distracted by the presence of thin note to notice the strong sent of Freya wafting from the depths of the drawer.

-she was here- my wolf said frantically. -she was here and you missed her you big stupid oaf. All because of your whining and crying.- I blocked out his incessant whining trying to focus on opening the folded paper.

Dear Mr. Slade,

I'm well aware of the connection you felt the first day we met, I felt it too and... although it pains me to say this nothing will come of it. I have dreamed for years that I would have a mate I just never thought I would be so broken when he showed. I will continue to sit in your class till I move on to my next home it is the only thing I can allow. I beg of you not to take away this minuscule happiness from me, I know it will cause you great pain to be near me and never be able to have me and you may think me selfish but I cannot bare a true rejection. I fear the loss of my wolf entirely should we do a proper rejection. It is with a heavy heart that I write this to you and at the most vehement opposition from my wolf. That being said she demands I leave you some token of my self with you, under your copy of Macbeth you will find a lock of my hair. I will say this once, I love you, and I wish you every happiness without me. With my highest regard.

-Freya.

I sat there stunned rereading the letter over and over as my anger slowly rises in my chest. Something is wrong, she sounds to reluctant about a rejection, almost like some one is telling her to do this or perhaps controlling her in some way. Her letter said she was broken, how could that be she is the most perfect woman I have ever laid my eye on. No some thing was certainly wrong. I lift the lock of her soft brown hair to my nose and inhaled slowly, her sent helping calm the raging animal inside. Under the familiar sent of lemons and rain there was something else, the rancid stench that could only be permeated by fear, something or someone was scaring my mate. Then and there I made a promise to the moon goddess that I would find her and I would save her no mater the cost. Hearing soft foot steps approach my room I quickly hid the letter and hair back in my desk drawer till my brother opened my door.

"Alexander are you coming?" He asked his voice gruff from irritation. I didn't say anything back, I have no words all I could do was open the drawer and watch as his eyes shift as he smells the full sent of our mate for the first time.

"You kept this from me?" He hisses anger evident threw out his body language and voice.

"I found this in my desk at the end of the day." I say handing him the letter an lock of hair. A low growl escapes my chest as the grip I have on my beast slowly slips. "Do not accuse me of hiding information from you brother, especially not about our mate." my voice comes out as a low growl as I stand up and storm out of my room my mind thoroughly focused on the task of rescuing Freya.