The Cadaver

Silence, how will you convey the word silence? Is it the absence of sound? or when every voice faded? or is it the space between sound? For me I have never experienced silence in my life.. Silence was always accompanied by a ticking sound tik..tik-tik…tik-tik… Not the ticking of clocks, not the sound of watches but a ticking sound that I don't understand… a peculiar rhythm, tik…tik-tik…tik…tik..tik-tik.. wherever i go, whatever i do, the ticking never stops.. The sound has lingered even at the edges of my life. Sometimes it drifts in the empty hallways. Echoes through the abandoned houses, And the unsettling part was it often emerges around people. No one seems to hear it. No one seems to know. I have tried going to the hospital and the Doctor described it as a medical condition. So i sought the advice of psychologist but they referred to it as “trauma" The so-called medical condition? the trauma? I don't give a fvck! THIS IS A CURSE!!! Neither of their explanations ever sat right with me, something,,,something about it felt wrong! what could it be?..... The answer that has eluded me..... Years have passed, and I finally have the gist of what is happening to me. Years of observation and I discovered only a little part of it… The ticking was not random. It was a message or more precisely it is a code. Akin to "Morse Code” but not as accurate as a morse code, it's not exactly a code that exists in cryptography. I have learned morse code in order to understand the “message" not just morse code but every other code, but when i use those codes, the “message" is jumbled, so i need to puzzle it out just to know what it is….. Experiencing trial and error when learning sucks!. but it is not like I didn't get anything by it. I have already learned how the ticking goes. Just hearing it I can already tell the "message” being conveyed. I treated this as a curse but right now? im thankful of havjng this ability, This is gold buried beneath layers of dust… end of prologue...