It was only two days ago when I was happy with Adeel and now here I am with stitches on my head in my old room back at home. The morning it happened, I had woken up in his arms. He's looked at me like I'm the only thing that mattered in his life. He has kissed me and hugged me before he left for fork. I have been trying to figure out what went wrong but I can't seem to put my finger on it. He has not even come after me. He hasn't even tried calling or texting me that I kept staring at my phone. How can i still love him after he has hurt me like that? Why do i still want to hear from him? I'm annoyed at myself. Why should I bother whether he calls me or not? I don't know what has my heart aching like this. It could be the fact that he didn't care to reach out for me. Or the fact he is capable of hurting me like that. "would he have killed me if my brother didn't come ? I felt a pang in my chest as the harsh reality of it all. Why did he hit me like that? He told me he will never do that and I believed him. But he did it. I most be delusional thinking that he might have felt something for me. He has done a few things that scared me but none has me this terrified . Whatever it is that is happening, or whatever it is that I'm feeling for him, one thing I know and I'm sure about is that I should distance myself from him. I wiped the tears on my face with the back of my hands before siting up. The house is unusually quiet which reminds me of it all. They have all stayed away from me giving me my space which I really appreciated. When my mom saw me. Her eyes had glistened with tears and she'd seem sad. She didn't question me immediately. She only took care of me without question. Well, my dad and my savior of a brother are furious. I have never seen my brother lose control like that. I'll have teased him if it were a different situation.
I realized that staying in my room and shutting the world out is not going to help me. I'm going to go out and mingle with them like nothing happened. After all I'm not doing them good too. I picked up my veil and went out of the room. I went straight to the kitchen and got myself a glass of water. I drank it all at once before closing the door. It's still early in the morning so I can go greet dad before he leaves for work.
I was about to push the door but the unmistakable angry tone of my dad stopped me dead in my tracks.
"My daughter is not going back to that house. He dare to lay a finger on her!"
"At lease let's hear what happened first before concluding "
"My words are final! You are her mother, you know jidda more than anybody else. She's good. I don't think there is anything that she'll do that's worth getting hit like that. What if her brother didn't happen to visit? What would he have done to her? How far would he have taken it? Did you even think of that? It has been two days and I haven't seen him here. Do you know what that means. And if he dare step a foot in this house he's going to have to face me. My daughter is not going back "
"I'm going out"
I quickly left the door, forgetting my entire reasons for coming here in the first place.
Ahmed
I knocked on the door like my life depended on it. I counted seconds until they open the door but those seconds turned to minutes and my lack of patience grew by each passing second. Damn Adeel! Doesn't he know that I also have lots of things to do ?and he's not even answering his phone. Well he better not. Frustrated I turned the knob and it opened to my surprise. I entered the house.
"Assalamu Alaikum " I called out but no one answered. It feels like the house is empty. But then the door was unlocked. I took another step and that's when I saw him.
There sitting on the sofa is none other than Adeel himself. Only that he has a swollen eye.
"what? You got a swollen eye and you don't want to come out and do business? And what am I exactly? Your personal all time free secretary? When did I sign up for that? "
I feel like giving his other eye the same look.
"I hit her"
"What? "
"I hit her "
You hit who?
"I love her and I hit her"
What is he talking about? He looked like a broken lost child and I have no idea what he is talking about.
"she's gone " he rambled again.
"who is gone man? "
"jidda "
"You hit jidda! " has he gone insane?
"have you gone insane? How could you hit her? What the hell have you done? You have to tell me all of it for me to understand. "
"she sent me a text, asked me to come back early she's going to surprise me "
"And ?"
"she was wearing a red dress "
"a red dress? "
"and she prepared pounded yam" his voice sounded hoarse and strained.
"Damn damn damn! This sounded bad. What a mess!
" she said she love me! I Messed it all up didn't I?
It hurt my heart to see him this hurt and broken. He has been broken once I won't let him shatter the remaining pieces she's managed to heal. He has been through a lot already and he deserves her love. He deserved to be a free man. I can't see how much this has influenced him. Even with what Nadia did. He only looked broken he didn't look this lost. Like a desperate lost child.
"Have you told her about Nadia? "
He shook his head.
"why? "
"I am in love with her. I forgot all about Nadia, I forget about everything else when I'm with her.. Until.. Until..
"it's okay man"
"it's not okay, I know she hates me now. She's seeing me as some sort of abusive husband "
"don't say that Adeel, did you go after her? Did you call her?
"no, she probably doesn't want to see me. She must be cursing me now"
"don't conclude without knowing, I'm not going to let you mess this up Adeel. But you also have to do it on your own. Go meet her, apologize, tell her the reason behind this I'm sure she will understand. She might not forgive you Immediately. But you have to keep trying. You said you love her? Are you going to let the evil woman win over you? Stop you from having a chance at happiness?
"Good, have you ever told anyone what happened? Or your mom?
He shook his head.
"you have held it in for so long that's why it haunted you. Go take a shower. I'm going to tell your mom what happened. I'm not asking you. She deserves to know. She has been patient with you Adeel! How many years has it been?
He didn't argue with me
Good!