way out of your league

Therapy

Nathan's POV

I began therapy and it was actually supposed to last for two weeks but since I wasn't serious with it,it was extended to three weeks.I actually relived what happened again and I realized anytime I feel nobody wants me or cared about me cause I might not deserve it,I make decision which makes me vulnerable to attack.And I hurt those around me that actually cared for me.I regret ever hurting Natalie she deserved better.

This all began when I was little, the more I felt unloved by my parent who cared little about me.The more I withdrew from everyone, being on my own.So they focus more on Nelson,I might not have caused it but I allowed it when I ignored everyone totally.At twelve being a little bigger for my age we visited a family friend and their first daughter who was eighteen at the time gave me attention so I began visiting them even without anyone including my parents knowing cause I felt cared for and loved by the family.That quickly changed when their daughter lily began fondling my d**k and sucking it,I felt good while she was at it but afterwards I just felt disgust for myself.She told me that what people do when they care about each other besides I had seen my dad's friends with girls before so I believed that and I had seen some phonographic content too, soon she was f*****g me hard and that became a pattern.I was at some point disturbed by what was happening that I decided to ask lily's mum about it and she concurred,occasionally joining her daughter.After a while I just didn't like what was happening and I wouldn't go to their place for days but they kept calling.

They told me no one would care about me the way they did.And that what we had was special and others won't understand.I would feel guilty about wanting someone to actually care about me and then when I found that, I threw it back in their face.I felt selfish and foolish so I would always go back but one day I couldn't take it anymore so I spilled to my grandparents.I didn't tell them everything though but they put the puzzles together and sent guards to follow and watch me.That was how they were caught.I secluded myself that I had no one to turn to and talk to which led to me being abused and I tried doing same thing again and it lead to the issue with Stacy.

Just like before I actually found out there were people who cared about me and they were my friend now and my grandparents and elder brother then. Nelson and my grand parents helped me understand the concept of love, respect, care and abuse while my parents were busy struggling to maintain the company image and so everything was buried, the family moved on.I felt closer to my grandparents and I wasn't surprised that I was given half their shares while the other half went to my mum when they died.I felt since the both of them were now dead and Nelson gone too I had no one else who really cared but I see that isn't true now.

I was shocked when Natalie came to the apartment drunk spilling things I knew she wouldn't want me to know if she was sober.she is so cute and is a light weight,she can't hold her alcohol I thought.the next day I left for a meeting at work and when I came back she was gone.I decided not to push her,i've being giving her space for months and in a few months time she would be writing her finals.After that i'm getting my girl back. On Saturday evening Andre called threatening me and all to get me to come to Nomad bar so I did but when I got there Catherine and Julia were at it quarrelling.I was really surprised to hear Judah was dating Julia, it sounds cliché but I knew they won't work cause both loved someone else and are just settling for each other which made me laugh but I congratulated them nonetheless. And I was also happy to hear Catherine had left that douche cause I heard him making a suspicious call at the app launch and I knew either he was cheating or he would soon be.

As Judah pulled Julia away,I noticed Natalie walking away,I kept looking at her and Joy was frowning at me not that I care.I know I deserve it though cause I hurt her friend so I just ignored her.I saw Cathy talking to Mr Anderson, he runs in the same circle as my dad but he is based in UK and has been divorced for years.He is a cool and has a son who is his only child.I think his name is Bryan or so but he is in same age group as Nelson was.Catherine came over and I asked "how do you know Mr Anderson" "we met in this bar some days back and we talked about how I could expand my business, I think he is getting back together with his wife" she replied and I nodded.I noticed Natalie was dancing so I went over to talk to her "hello Natty" I said and she turned "what do you want Nathan"she asked "You" I said and she walked away but I followed her "i'm sorry Natalie,I know I hurt you but please" I was saying but she cut me off "Nathan are you really sorry cause I saw you two,you were actually enjoying what she was doing, what was I even expecting, you were always like that,you change girls just as easy as snapping ones fingers" she said and I paused cause I know I deserve this "You planned to hurt me and you did without remorse, you didn't even call for one full week and how am I sure the both of you weren't at it all week"she said screaming "I hate you Nathan" she said cutting me,I held her in my arms while she screamed "let me go Nathan" "ok Natty,please don't say that i'm letting go" I said releasing her from my arms

As she walked away,I was hurt but I followed and soon she turned and said "Nathan where were you and what have you been doing for months now,Tell me nate,what were you doing cause at that point in time it happened you didn't call for a whole week and it seems like you've been avoiding me for months so what changed" she asked and I just couldn't tell her "please i'll tell you about everything soon Natty,just know i'm sorry and I don't want to lose you" I said as I watched the tears spill onto her face which she quickly wiped off and walked away.

When I got back to the bar Andre was sitting alone and he said "so Nora and Mason huh" he said drinking "I think you should move on from her,you really deserve better" I said and he nodded. "hello Mr Martins" someone said behind us and we turn to see a beautiful lady behind us"hello Jennifer,how are you and your husband"Andre asked "fine fine,he is around here somewhere" she replied smiling "I saw your girlfriend on TV and it said she was dating someone else did you guys break up sir" she asked and he nodded "I am so sorry about every thing" she replied "how are you coping" she asked "My friends have been there for me" he said and she hugged him.I heard my phone ringing again and picking up the call my mum informed me Sandra was in labour and already at the hospital.