way out of your league

Wanting More

Judah's POV

After the ruckus at that house party immediately after Julia left with joy and my sister,I kept wondering about what happened until Hansel called the next morning filling me in on everything and requesting that I distract Natalie till everything was dealt with.I knew that was the best especially for my sister cause she is my priority.I did just that but I kept wondering if I did the right thing as I watched my sister cry endlessly, miss classes and loose weight.

Two weeks later and he wanted to talk to me about everything so here we are at his apartment the same place everything went south."Thanks for coming Jude" Nathan said "how are you feeling now" I asked "physically i'm fine" he replied and I nodded "And that slut" I asked "Its been taken care of but she is also being watched as I was told but I know she wasn't successful thanks to Andre,Hansel and Sandra" he replied "I know you are mad at me man,I f****d up bad and I did hurt Natalie, I don't know if she would even forgive me.I'm so sorry about this mess I created,and I know you feel like hitting me and you can but I love her Judah and I can't be without her" he said "why did you even do that s**t when you knew how much she cared about you" I asked "I was so stupid, I've been messed up since my brothers death and I felt I had been taking it out on her.I just wanted her to get a little space while I sorted out my s**t without dragging her in it.I never wanted to hurt her to that extent" he said "You did hurt her,and you trying to get back together with her now is messing her up.she is back to crying endlessly again" I said "f**k" he replied "I never wanted to hurt her" he said. "True,but you ended up doing that and the issues you had that led to that, you haven't dealt with yet" I said "i'll be seeing a therapist soon" he said "Good, but please Nathan, fix your s**t before getting back together with her and please, it's my turn to beg you not to tell her what happened that night.Its her final year and she needs to be focused. It's over a month into the semester and she has been missing classes every now and then.she is trying to get things back on track.please allow her do that while you clear your shit." I replied and he nodded "I understand but I just want to tell her i'm sorry one last time" he said and I nodded "hey dude i'm here if you need to talk to someone" after saying that I left.

When I was sure Natalie was coping better,I left New York for Washington DC while there I decided to see cathrine who had been calling me.So I called and that evening she came to my apartment which left me surprised as I opened my door to see her "hey cathy,how are you, I never knew you were coming over" I said as she stepped in while I was on my jogging pants only without a shirt "Jude I need to talk to someone, i'm running mad help me out" she said pacing "calm down Cathy, I don't think i'm the right person to listen to you" I said and she sat down sobbing "its ok cathy,please stop crying" I said and she stood up just to come hug me while crying,I pulled her in rubbing her back "shhh,ok tell me everything" I said as she hiccupped and began talking "Andrew is just so mean and very much inconsiderate,i'm tired of everything, he goes to see mirabella and most times he ends up spending the night there,when I talk to him about it, he flairs up and calls me a jealous and uncaring person after doing everything for me" she said crying "she even sends me pictures of him in a bed with her" Cathy said pulling out her phone to show me pictures of Andrew sleeping with Mirabella head on his bare chest and him in a towel in her apartment and so many others,I was quiet for a while.

"Cathy you have to understand she is pregnant and needs help,and he is the father.I'm not excusing what he did but i'm just saying you should have expected to deal with this when you got back together.I'm sorry cathy" I said while she nodded "I miss you" she said out of nowhere and I froze.I don't want to go back to that place that hurts "please stop this cathy"I replied sitting on the couch. She sat beside me and everything was so awkward, I turned to tell her to leave and she kissed me with her hands on my chest moaning,I kissed her too but as I thought about how wrong this was, I pulled away.She quickly apologized and left.

I decided to move to new York instead of shuttling between and I kept looking for a place there.Since it would give me a little space from Cathy.I still loved her and she doing what she did the last time which was messing with my head.she had a boyfriend and even though I wasn't exclusive with Julia,I won't just get tangled up in another affair while with her.I care about her and I don't want to hurt her especially as I know how that would feel.it took me three months to finally move to new York and when I did I was finally getting my life back.

Natalie was doing fine and she was back to being just friends with mike.she still had her friends with her but I knew she still missed Nathan.Nathan kept asking about her even though I already knew he was keeping tabs on her,I just ignored.Joy and Julia avoided Nathan, blaming him for everything Natalie went through.He was back to being the hot rich f**k boy to them.Cathy has being calling since I moved and I felt too guilty to pick since I never told her anything about moving but today I decided to pick since Juls was getting suspicious about why I wasn't picking her calls "hello Cathy" I said as julia left the room "hello Jude,do you hate me that much,is that why you didn't tell me you were moving" she said with her voice breaking "Cathy please don't get mad,I just felt you were dealing with a lot this period and I didn't want to add to it,you know I can never hate you" I said "Natalie just told me,its seems i'm becoming a burden to every one around me" she said "Don't even say that cathy,what has Andrew done this time" I asked irritated "well Mirabella came to my apartment and she was screaming at me asking me to leave Andrew alone,it was crazy and soon she switched on me and began crying.I was so confused,she called Andrew to come get her and as she cut the call I think her water broke,I froze,I was confused I didn't know what to do Jude" she said crying "Cathy where are you now"I asked "that isn't important now,well you see when I finally decided to do something she was still screaming at me saying I caused this, she won't forgive me if anything happened to her baby,I called an ambulance and when they arrived Andrew was already there" she said still crying "baby where are you now please just tell me" I asked caused I knew this wasn't good "please let me tell you everything so you could honestly tell me everything I did wrong,when Andrew came he was mad at me for stressing her and making the baby come earlier than expected, I tried to explain Jude, I really did try to"she said crying as julia came back to the room."Cathy were the hell are you,just f*****g tell me now" I said seething "The hospital,Louis Medical.Jude did I cause this,she has been there for hours and now I think they are about to operate on her,Andrew is so mad, he said i've done enough and I should just leave.he broke up with me" she said and I felt like punching that asshole "Jude ....are we ordering pizza or eating out" Julia asked,she knew I was talking to Catherine so I don't understand why she trying to be seductive cause I had told her earlier that I already ordered for pizza."Juls I already ordered for pizza"I said "Cathy listen to me,you didn't cause this,its a messy situation in the first place and you are trying to make the best out of it. Do you understand me" I said.

"Ok Jude,its so confusing,I don't want to be blamed for hurting an innocent child" she said crying and Julia keeps trying to distract me,presently she is trying to kiss me to stop me from talking so I'm trying to pull away just as she straddles me moaning "that feels good Jude" we weren't even doing anything, i've had enough so I said "Stop it Juls,not now" I got up walking out of the room saying "i'll come get you Cathy" only to realize she had cut the call.Julia came out blocking my way saying "i'm not letting you go to her" "Are you ok Juls, you were never this clingy,what is going on" I asked "She is always trying to get things that aren't hers anymore, so you dropped a guy and someone else picked him that means he isn't hers anymore, i'm sick and tired of girls like that" Julia said "where is this coming from,and when did I become a thing to you,does this have anything to do with Tyler cause you've been acting strange since I moved here.oh and I know you slept with him even if you didn't tell me,he wants you back so he told me so I can get out of his way" I said "Yes I slept with Tyler, multiple times but that's cause we weren't exclusive or anything" she said "That why I never had an issue with that so stop this clingy s**t,its weird and it's not you.I care about the other you,but right now Cathy needs my help and i'm not leaving her high and dry" I said.

"I'm not letting you go there just so you can f**k her,I want this to grow.I care about you Judah" she said "few weeks back you told me you were still in love with Tyler so what changed, and just for the record I am not going to f**k Cathy and we've never done that since we broke up" I said "I know you have,but I don't care and what's with you always calling her Cathy or whatever the f**k you call her"Julia replied "I also call you Juls too, I call Natalie,Nat so what's your point" I said sighing, I continued "Juls I don't want us to quarrel about this, I promise we'll talk about this when i'm back tomorrow"and I quickly walked out driving off.I got to the hospital but Catherine refused to pick my call,I had to search for her all over until I was directed to Mirabella's ward and i was directed to where they were, I got there to see Andrew talking to her "i'm sorry about everything Cat,the last few hours has been hetic and I might have said hurtful things to you but I just want us to move forward.i'm sorry about everything,and I want us to get back to normal again. would you like to see the baby" he said and she nodded I watched her walk into the room to look at the baby while I stood behind her.

"Sweetheart,daddy is here" Mirabella said to the baby while Andrew kissed her her picking up the baby "Your baby is so cute mirabella and i'm sorry for every thing.Andrew I think its best we move on with our lives without each other,I don't want to get back together with you.Bye Mirabella" Cathy said and Andrew got up while Mirabella held on to him with tears in her eyes she said "Thank you very much Catherine and i'm sorry for every thing I said" Cathy turned to walk away that was when she saw me at the door.

"How,when did you get here" she said to me "its not important" I replied pulling her away from the hospital. When we got to my car,I pulled her into my arms while she cried.Soon she slept off and I placed her back on her seat and drove to her apartment.I hate seeing her like this but I knew she would be better soon.