way out of your league

LOVE or LUST

Natalie's POV

Knowing Nathan's mom was behind ruining my reputation gives be enough reason to believe it was the right decision to break up with him.I can't keep putting myself in that messy situation and expect a different result. Nathan has been pissed off for weeks now especially since our deal ended and I stopped working for him.Yeah,we still hook up but it's just s*x,that way every thing is easier.The s*x is awesome and mind-blowing plus I enjoy the small talks after.It just seem to flow since contrary to how I thought it would be,him leaving after s*x isn't awkward at all.

Nora has been hanging out with us whenever she can and we all found out she is not as horrible as we thought she was.She is just full of crazy ideas about life and social status that has been firmly embedded in her since she was little.We try our best to explain how things really work to her realistically.I kind of feel like she connect more with Cathy,due to their extreme passion for dressing up.Julia's baby Catherine is now four months old and she tends to feel left out most times so we decided to hang out at her apartment this weekend. Picking up my phone,I heard Nathan's voice on the line "Hello Natty, how has your day been" "Fine,I thought you were coming over yesterday"I said "Were you expecting me,did you miss me Natty"he asked laughing loudly "Shut up Nathan,I hate it when you poke me" I replied "I'm not doing that,it's just a very simple question that doesn't change anything if you answer,I miss you so much you know,I really miss the way you moan my name when I'm deep inside you it's so f*****g sexy,and how your p***y grips my d**k,the sound you make when you ride my d**k and how your t**s bounce" he said slowly making me pull my legs together to relieve how horny I already am "Nathan!!" I moaned "Yes baby" he replied "I need to catch up with the girls at Julia's place"I said "how about you come over to my place when you are done with the girls" he asked and I froze "We've never met at your place before, you remember it's just s*x right"I asked "Sure,it's whatever you want it to be"he replied "how about my apartment"I asked "I can't make the drive today baby,Please I'll send my driver to come pick you when you are ready" he replied,I think I was too horny to argue so I simply agreed and hanged up not long after.

Nora picked me up and we went over to Julia's apartment "Hey girl, what's up" Julia said with her baby Cathy in her arms "I'm good,oh my! she is growing so fast" I said taking the baby from her "Girl you are late" Joy said and I just rolled my eyes "Don't roll your eyes at me" she said "Give me my God daughter if you two are about to start your petty fight" Cathy said taking the baby from me while Julia pulled Nora away saying "These two are crazy" I was about to respond when Joy jumped on me "Get the hell off me you fat orbit"I said laughing "Oh this fat orbit is about to do some damages to you b***h"she said while we struggled laughing "Isn't that assault"Nora asked "Sweetie, friends can get silly with each other,we say and do crazy s**t to each other but we know their is no malicious intent behind it"Cathy explain "Oh!"Nora replied "Pardon me,I just have to ask, don't you have close friends who do this"Julia asked Nora "I have friends,we hang out, go on trips and shopping together but we don't really act like this with each other else the police might be called" she said "Sorry about how uptight everybody around you are"I said "But it's ok,I can change that"Joy replied before jumping on Nora who was shocked at first but later started laughing

"Mmmmmh, Sorry to interrupt,I think I was informed I had to babysit"we heard Tyler say who pecked Julia whispering whatever to her before taking the baby to the room."Ok,am I the only one who sense Cathy's mama and papa getting all cozy" I asked "I noticed too but I was just gonna kept quiet since you all tend to call me a loud mouth" Joy said "Yeah you are a loud mouth for sure Joy, and before you focus on my business can we talk about the thing going on between you and Nathan, Natalie" "Ok, I'll keep shut next time"I replied "Sis,are you still using the dude as a booty call,no slight intended Nora"Joy asked "Before you talk about me shouldn't you be telling us how your relationship with Hansel is going cause the last time we talked, Sammy did damages"I asked Joy who put her hands up in surrender "Finally something to shut her up"Cathy said laughing "Oh you are one to talk, please do well to remember you nearly had heart attack cause of Judah's connection to Sammy"Joy said "What is that for,I never attacked you"Cathy said in disbelief "I'm just saying"Joy replied "Can we all just get along"Nora replied trying to play peace keeper "How are you getting along with Andre,can you enlighten us"Cathy asked,this left Nora speechless.Finally we all laughed which surprised Nora who said "oh,this is what you mean by no malicious intent behind it" and we all nodded "Welcome to the crew b***h" Joy said."I hope you all didn't come to my apartment to pick on each other"Julia said "Nah we came to hang out and have fun" Cathy replied "So Nora, what's up with you and Andre,are you over him or what"Julia asked.

"Talk about someone having a loud mouth" Joy replied "I really do want him back,but as Natalie explained, running circles around him isn't going to help so I'm focused on working on myself now" Nora said "Why did you do that s**t to him though,Andre can be a lot of things but using someone isn't one of them,the dude is too ignorant to even do that" Joy said "I messed up and I acknowledge that,it was stupid of me to even think he would do that but I was young and stupid and I felt whatever we have wasn't anything worth troubling myself over cause I can get it anytime I want but I've learnt it isn't like that.Realistically most people see me for only what they can gain, it could be financially, socially or even worst physically.It sucks most when they just use you for s*x"Nora replied with her voice breaking at the end, pausing a bit she continued "It's even shocking for me to know that high social status in life doesn't make one a decent human being. Neither does it make them respect or value you,I really do love him you know because of the man he is" "It can be really hard when you lose someone you really love due to some mistake or faulty reasoning on your part"Cathy said "Yeah but I think it's good you are focused on yourself now" Julia added "It's can go both way so I think you should be mentally prepared,he could actually want to get back together with you or has just closed that chapter of his life.Whatever the case you should be prepared to move on if that is what is needed for your peace of mind and self respect" I said and she nodded.

Julia went on to tell us of how much she is struggling to take care of her baby, it's like a full time job on it's own she stressed.Even though Tyler helps a lot, she still feels overwhelmed most times. We promised to visit her more often, then Joy told us of how much Sammy actually strained her relationship, while Hansel is trying to make sure things go back to the way it was before,she can't just get over everything that happened, especially with how his mom reacted.Cathy on the other hand told us of a pregnancy scare she had "I found it more infuriating that Judah wasn't bothered at all,while I was panicking he just smiled can you imagine that"she said pissed "oh my!That is a lot to take in"I said "I'm not surprised,I think he has done well cause with how much he changed girls in high school I felt he would have at least two or more kids from different baby Mama's by now" Joy said "That's my brother you are talking about,he isn't like that anymore so stop bringing that up"I said "It's funny that he was like that as I've heard and you were always uptight, like you were a virgin through out high school and Nathan is your first.Talk about opposites as siblings"Julia replied "My brother is your first"Nora asked shocked "Can everybody just get off my case,stop talking about my ex,this was about Cathy not me" I said while sending a message to Nathan telling him I was ready to leave.

"I really loved hanging out with you all and I don't need mean to be nosey but I'm really curious, Natalie are you sure it's just s*x for you, cause I know my brother loves you and I don't think either of you can be with each other without your feelings involved"Nora said then paused "I don't think I can do that with Andre without my feeling surfacing" she concluded "Nathan and I are different trust me,We have ended our relationship but we still lust over each other and this is just helping us get the other party out of our system"I replied confidently, I was tired of explaining this to them "And how much have you burned your lust for him out of your system Natalie,Does you lust for him reduce anytime you see him or has it just intensified your need to f**k him and have him f**k you from all angles when you see him"Joy asked "I hate to tell you this Natalie,s*x has never been something you've taken casually and definitely not with Nathan"Cathy said leaving me feeling confused and just uncomfortable."If this goes south, someone is bound to get hurt and I really don't want to see you like that Natalie" Julia said "Trust me,if anybody is going to get hurt it would be my brother cause I know he never stopped loving you, even with everything going on in my family he has and will continue to choose you every single time"Nora said and I truly became scared.

What are we doing,I thought.I just don't want things to get complicated again should I just stay away from Nathan,is all this more than sex.I think I've gotten over him so why does every one think our feelings is involved.Is this lust or love.I kept thinking about this as I left the group to Nathan's car where his driver was already waiting.