LOVE or s*x ?

Natasha wakes up early this day even she has no work. It is Sunday morning and Natasha is very happy and joyous. She does her morning routine, she jogged in the village park then took a shower after. Now she looks fresh and beautiful while eating breakfast with his brother Nathaniel. "Sissy, why you looks awesome ?Vincent will not going here today"Nathan teasing his sister. "Hmmm. What are you talking about brother? I don't care about that friend of yours" Natasha in disgusting voice "Really?" "Yes. As if it is new to you that i am always like this every Sunday. You know very well that i am always attending a mass in the village church. "yeah... but Vincent is always here every Sunday so I thought you just want to get her attention" "you fool. Of course not" "Hahahahahaha,. Your denying it my little sister" To stop their conversation Natasha just finished her food and said goodbye to his brother. When driving Natasha thinks what his brother said a while ago in the breakfast table. It is true that every Sunday she is attending a mass in the village church but it is only the half truth because she just make it as a reason for her to make herself beautiful every Sunday because her brother is right it is because Vince is always in their house every Sunday. Even before, it is their house where Nathan's peer is hanging out. She didn't know why they always want in their house maybe because their parents is not that strict or maybe because of the unlimited food she cooked for them. She cooks and prepares foods for Nathan"s friends for Vincent to notice her even in that simple way. She remembered the first time she saw Vincent in their house she just ten year old then playing her barbie stuffs in her playhouse in the garden when his brother Nathan went in her playhouse to give the doughnut he promised to her later before that afternoon but he was not alone he was with his friend and that is Vincent. Even in her young age she felt different feelings at that moment. Her cheeks turned red when he say hello to her. She also felt uneasy when she heard him said to his brother that she will become a very pretty lady when she grew up. And after that day she become aware of her looks, she doesn't want to play her dolls anymore. She even ask their made to bring all her toys and dolls to a charity because she is already a big girl and it is not fit on her to play the kids stuffs. The funny thing is that all the people in their house especially her dad wondering what happened to her because a week before she just have a tantrums because she wanted to buy the new talking doll in the department store and suddenly in a week she lost her interest in toys. Until now no one knows her secret why she suddenly change. Natasha laughs because of that thought. She is already near in the church when she saw a familiar faces outside the church, it is Vincent with his current girl Carrie. They are so sweet laughing with each other. She parked her car besides Vincent's car so he could saw her. She looked at them and she smiled, Carrie smiled back but Vincent like before just only nod at her as acknowledgement. Natasha heard the opening prayer of the mass so she get inside the church. She simply look if Vincent And Carrie will follow but they've not. Natasha can't concentrate to the mass because of what she saw a while ago. She asks forgiveness to Lord God because even she was there her mind thinks other things. It is not the first time that she saw Vincent with another woman. Almost every week she dated different women. It is a miracle that his relationship to one woman lasted for a month. He is such a womanizer but still she like him very much. She prays every Sunday the miracle for Vincent for him to change.The mass is finished and Natasha didn't understand a little bit about the message of the God that the priest discussed. After the mass she goes back directly to their house. She didn't buy any groceries unlike the other Sundays that she would pass by to the super market just to buy something she could cook for merienda and dinner because before when it is Sunday Vincent stayed in their house almost the whole day and he would eat dinner before he left .But now that he has a constant girlfriend for almost two weeks ,for sure he will stays in Carrie's condo for the whole day or even the whole night. She hurts of the thought that the two was in the bed both naked. She cut her thought before it make cause her a heart attack. When she entered their house she look for her brother and she saw him in the pool. She walks to Nathan but to her surprised he was not alone in the pool. Blake and Homer were also there The two is also Nathan college buddies like Vincent. "what are you doing here, bastards?" Natasha asked "what?did you forget that it is Sunday today? Blake answered "nope but Nathan said that you are not coming here" Nathan looked at Natasha and said " I didn't said that..what i said earlier is that Vincent is not coming today. If it is Vincent that involves you lost your mind Sissy." Blake and Homer laughed. They laughing at her. This stupid two annoys her. She decided to leave them when Homer asked her "what will you cook for our merienda little Natty". little Natty is an endearment call to her by Blake and Homer. The two is close to her. They are like big brothers to her. "nothing" she answered. "oh it hurts" with a reaction of hurting. Because Vincent it is not here' you've just let us to get hungry" Blake says teasing hear. "you fool! that is not the reason! I am just not feeling well and i want to take a rest." I'll just tell to Meredith to cook for you guys" she said in a sweet husky voice. 'what happened to you? you've just went to church then after an a hour you got sick?" her Stupid brother asked "Nothing, I felt it later before i attend the mass but i just ignoring it." she dramatically say while holding her forehead. Of course she will not tell the real reason why she felt sick is that she saw Vincent with his current girlfriend. "Enjoy your day guys" i just really need to take a rest" "drink a medicine" Nathan said in a worried voice and she felt guilty about it. She and Nathan is really close to each other even of their nine years age gap. Nathan is not only a brother to her he also act sometimes as his father and friend. So she feel sorry that she need to lie to him just because of her damn feelings to his asshole friend. "yes brother. thanks" she answered "i will ask Meredith to cook you a cream soup" he added "okay. don't worry yourself too much big Bro. I am a big girl now", she said in a sweet voice. When she is in her room. Natasha cries, she can't stop hear tears from falling in her eyes. She almost like this for more than six years when she realized that her huge crush from Vincent is already became love. She always gets hurt and cries alone in his room when she saw him in the other girl's arm. No one knows that his feelings to Vincent is that so deep even his brother. He just thought it was a simple crush as everyone thoughts. She always wish every time she cried that her mother is alive that she not died in giving birth to her so someone can understands and explains all the things she feels towards to him. She remembered the time that Vincent is still close to her. He was like Homer and Blake before. He used to call her also Little Natty. He is the one that give her that nickname because of the naughty things she does just to catch his attention. She was very happy then that every time he was coming with their house he brought anything she asked. He helped her with her home works, school projects and even he acted as her tutor to the hard subjects but all the things change because of that stupid day. If only she could take time back, she wouldn't do it, maybe she and Vincent is still close until now. If only she didn't feel that stupid love for him surely she will doesn't do such creepy things. Natasha fall asleep when she get tired of crying. When she woke up for dinner because Meredith knocked her up in her room, she saw her eyes in the big mirror on her room. Her eyes was sore and she is totally a mess, she smiles at herself and she feels that she is okay again. She just washes her face then she goes to dining area. Natasha get surprise that Blake and Homer were still there but the really surprising is that Vincent is also there. "little Natty, are you okay now?" Asked by Blake. "yes I am, Migraine always make me a mess". she answered. Her voice is still husk because of crying. " Are you really okay now, sissy?' Nathan voice still worried "yeah of course, let just eat, I already hungry." She said to stop the conversation about her migraine. They all stop asking her and they began to eat. They are all quiet while eating and she wonder why. " We will sleep here Little Natty" Homer said in the middle of their dinner She looks at him and says " Why? Don't you have any work tomorrow" "We have but we want to be your brother all the time before he tie the knot" Blake answers "whattttttttttttt?" Natasha's reaction with a shocked face All eyes were set to Blake. "who told you that? My brother Nathan? tie the knot? Are you joking?" Natasha asked in unbelievable voice and look at to her brother's eyes searching all the answer to her question. "Let me explain Sissy" His brother says.