Rejected but still desired

Family dinner

Ethan POV:

My mother was going on and on about something but I couldn't focus or even enjoy the spaghetti and meatballs in front of me. All I could think about was Selena and how she looked and of course, she was with him. I gripped my fork tighter in my fist. Everything in me wanted to rip him to shreds and why was she with him anyway!? This was all too infuriating, this dinner and my parents and Selena. Why did she always have to be difficult!? The image of her floated back in my mind, her beautiful hair was down and flowing over her shoulder and down her back, I had never seen her show so much skin before but she glowed, her figure and her legs were so sexy and I was getting hard just remembering the way she looked. "Ethan!" Snapped my mother, I looked at her confused, "have you been listening to a word I said?" She asked, by the looks of it, my dad wasn't listening either. "No." I stated it plainly because I was upset with my mother for forcing me into this stupid dinner when I could be with Selena right now. I wonder what she is doing? An image of Raze's hands all over her flashed into my mind and I felt myself spike with anger. I wanted to end all of this now! "Ethan, you are being so disrespectful," moaned my mother, "I did tell you that I had plans but you ignored me because you wanted everything to be done your way!" I snapped back, my bad mood getting the better of me. "Ethan, don't you dare talk to your mother like that!" Growled my father and I looked at both of them, "may I be excused?" I asked and my father glared at me, "where is it that you must go so urgently!?" Asked my father. I felt put on the back foot by that question and just looked back at my food that hadn't been touched much, "Ethan, your father and I think that it would be best if we arrange your marriage," said my mother casually as she sipped her red wine. I looked at them both horrified, "absolutely not!" "Ethan!" Growled my father again, "No! What if I find my mate!?" I snapped as I stood up from the table, "well, the pack needs a leader now, maybe you can travel to other packs looking for her, your mother and I would approve of that," said my father, "maybe I have already found my mate," I said waiting for their reaction, they didn't look surprised but scared, "Ethan, she must be a high born for the sake of our pack we cannot have some low born luna, we cannot take the risk!" "Look, it is too soon, if you found your mate I am sure you would of told us, wouldn't you Ethan?" Asked my mother, "after all, you know that we only want what's best for you." I slumped in my chair, "yeah," she smiled at me and then squeezed my father's hand. "Travelling will do you some good, why don't you start this week?" Asked my mother and I narrowed my eyes at her, "I'm not just going to leave while Raze is here!" I watched as my parents eyes flashed with fear, "when do you want to leave then?" Asked my father and I leaned back in my chair thinking, Selena's birthday is coming up in two weeks, maybe I could take her with and we could travel for a bit and be free away from all of these politics. "In two weeks," I said, finally picking up some of my food and starting to eat, "that's oddly specific," gritted my mother, "you asked," I mouthed back and she did not look pleased. "I think you spend too much time with that maid of yours," commented my mother, my father sighed and continued eating, "well she is my maid mother. If she wasn't around me 24/7 then what use is she." My words had finally stumped my mother because her face turned sour for the rest of the evening as she sipped her red wine. Once I was done eating, I excused myself and left to my room. Maybe Selena would come to me.