Gia
I am so scared of losing John, that I am losing John. I’m just an emotional wreck right now. I should have told him sooner about my situation. I’m not being fair to him, I’m being irrational, I know.
I just kept tossing and turning in the bed as these thoughts went through my brain. I looked at the click and it was three am.
I got out of bed and quietly went to the sitting area where John was sleeping. He was on his back with one arm over his eyes as the other dangled over the side of the couch.
There was no blanket. I went back to the room I was in and opened the closet. There was an extra blanket and pillows on the shelf there. I grabbed the blanket and took it out to John.
I laid it on him and then sat down on the floor next to him.
“I’m sorry I’m such a f**k up.” I whispere
