unwanted success

when i lost lost everything

I told my father that i can do this. I dont know where did i found this confidences but i really belive in myself. Then i follow my dream. I start the hardest military training at the age of 6. Everything was going to very smoothly. I trained 17 hours at a day. I learn how to speak 13 languages,gun fight, driving, swimming and every hard thing that a child not to do. I wish some day my father did the salute like those day my father did . I use to like work hard but still when we are free me and my father always spend time together. When i was 12 years old suddenly my father went do go to south Korea. He told me When he was little he had been into a vacation in korea with his mother .He always told me korea is this. korean is that....and how beautiful is korea southern korean food, k pop everything .That's the first time my father told me a story with my mom. That my father proposed my mother in seoul tower. The highest town in seoul city when the full city can seen. I thought my father is kind of ready to talk about my mother. That night i was very happy and We made a plan that was we will celebrate his 40 birthday in korea. I had never been to korea so i really want to go to korea. That's why i am very exited too. Everything goes smoothly 2 months later we celebrate my 13 years birthday party. That evening goes very beautyfully but suddenly after 1 weeks later (x) county terrorism ar attack and g******e start again. People are suffering again. And i don't know why i had a bad felling about it. As a mejor general my father has to go do that country with his force. And i want to stop him but i can't because this is how we have to do. When the time came we must not think about us and our family we have to think others. But this time i want to go with him. Maybe i am 13 but I can joint the military as a helping hand because we had already training for many thinks. So that me and my fiew friends wanted to help the force as a helping hand. My father want to stop me but he already knew i will never stop so that he finaly agree with me... When we are in a war area the first time i imagine i had no idea about pain is. I saw many child who are in my age they just want some food and water because have are starving from 2 days Its broke my heart. I talk with many familys and child they just want to live they just wait for the war to be stop by someone . And i learn from them it was 45 years war and evey time innocent people must pay for there life they lost there family member too. The war was started after 2 different groups people death but right now 18 Millions of people ar death for this war.World bigest organaization can't even stop the g******e. This war as a helping hand was passing secret news, carry food and water,drive the car like that. The day after 13 days i was normal work as a driver. Suddenly the radio station came out unit 2fb was attached and every one was death. I dont know what was that felling i just stop thinking others i just want to hear my father was ok.... I try to hear the radio that some one needs to go the war zone and chack if anybody alive. I was 2 km away for the war zone but i just could not want to stay there anymore.. when i go their i saw the base camp was distroy and bodys ar separated from other. But i just want to know if my father was alive. suddenly someone wants to carry the bodys in my car. And want me to carry the bodys to different side. I dont know what to do and this time i saw someone whom i know. And he insure me to found my father. That's why i must live the place as soon as possible. When I drive the car carrying with death bodys radio station announce the death bodys name who are death. I just remember i wish to god( not this time) but the name i dont want to hear its came out.. My fathers name.. That's means the bodys i carry in my car one of them are my fathers body. Its fell like end of the world. And i forget how to breath. I just can not drive. I dont know how to drive the car to carry own father death body. I just can't. I lost my both parents in this war. I dont know that to do.After the news spaild out general want me to back America. I dont know i should be happy or sad. because i could not found my mother death body but this time i found my dads death body. I must be lucky. when my father death i don't want to cry i dont know why i just want to be strong. Not everyone wants to be strong so this this time i will be strong. I promise myself i will be change. After 2 days for live alone from this house its like the house will killed me. And i can't even look at my father picture. I just want to live the place and live the camp. Sometimes I just want to die. I was confounded. I cant belive i lost my last hope my family. I even try to kill myself but karim found out. He try to stop me...He said you need a break and after that start everything from beginning . Karim wants me to go some where to find myself. At firts i refuse but after then i decide to restart . At first i decide to go paris there i always want to go but suddenly i remember my father wants to go to korea. So i decided to go to korean. Maybe this is my best decision who knows..?