Fearless Boy

Postlude

Chapter Six

When life throws you lemon, make a lemonade out of it.

Living with him is like living in a club. Noises everywhere. Nonstop noises. But living with him is fun. It never bores me and I'm okay with that.

"I don't like this. I don't like this too. Channie, I'm horny! I don't want to watch a movie. Let's have sex."

Tumingin ako kay Baekhyun na busy sa pagtingin ng movie na pwede naming panoorin. Ayaw niya pero hanap naman siya ng hanap. How cute. I really like this side of him. Always whining. Always impatient. Always horny.

"Let's watch something first then we can make out."

He then looked at me and smiled. Gusto ko din ang ngiti niya. Always carefree.

"I like that idea."

Tumayo na ito at kumandong sa akin. Ipinulupot niya ang kanyang mga braso sa aking leeg.

"Chanyeol, I hate you."

I threw my head back laughing. He hates me. He does. But I know that he loves me too. When he tells me how much he hates me, he really mean it. He hates me and love me at the same time.

"I love you, too."

I leaned forward until our lips are tightly pressed against each other. Soft red lips.

"I think I'm gonna puke."

Natawa na naman ako.

**

"Ayoko talaga. Hindi ko gusto na pinagsasabihan ako. That's just weird. I'm Byun Baekhyun and I call the shots."

Kapag bumukas talaga ang bibig niya walang tigil na reklamo ang lalabas. Natutuwa ako kapag nakikita ko siyang frustrated.

"Wag mo akong tawanan! Kasalanan mo ito! Kung hindi mo ako, ah, f**k! Bakit ka nakahubad? Nagmomoment pa ako tapos pinapahorny mo ako!"

Kakatapos ko lang maligo at kalalabas lang galing sa banyo ng dumating siya. Hindi niya napansin iyon dahil nagdiretso na siya sa pagdaldal.

"Come here."

Lumapit ito sa akin at agad ko siyang hinapit sa baywang. I kissed his forehead and smiled at him.

"I love you."

He sighed and pushed his face against my chest. Namumula siya. Hindi pa rin siya sanay kapag sinasabihan ng i love you. He's really cute.

"I know. But stop saying it. Pinagtatawanan na ako nila Luhan at Tao."

Natawa ako at mas hinigpitan ang yakap ko sa kanya. Naramdaman ko ang pagyakap niya sa dibdib ko.

"Shower again?"

Hindi ko napigil ang pagngisi sa sinabi niya.

**

"Dara came back."

I looked at Sehun who's busy texting.

"She called me and said that she wants to see you."

So she's back.

"Anong gagawin mo? Paano na si Baekhyun?"

I shrugged my shoulders. Wala naman akong dapat gawin. I'm done with her. We're done with each other.

"Baekhyun's been showy of his emotions now a days."

Napatigil si Sehun sa kanyang ginagawa at tinignan ako ng seryoso.

"You love Dara. You love Baekhyun. You'll hurt him. You can't hurt her."

At tumayo ito at iiwan ako.

Fuck lemons. I don't like lemonade.

**

I don't know how it happened but I was in bed with her. f**k.

"Why are you still awake?"

I shrugged and stood up from bed gathering my clothes. Isinoot ko ang mga iyon at doon ko pang naalala ko ang cellphone ko. Madaming missed calls at messages galing kay Baekhyun.

"I'm going home."

She tried to stop but I still went out of her pad. Walking my way to my car. I'm in deep s**t. How could I forget about him? He's gonna be hurt.

Pinaandar ko ang sasakyan mo at mabilis na pinasibad iyon. Halos dalawang oras din ang byahe dahil may kalayuan ang pad niya sa bahay ko. Bahay namin ni Baekhyun.

Pagkapark ng kotse ay lumabas agad ako. The lights were off. He must be sleeping. s**t. He's mad at me. I can already feel his anger towards me. But I can live with that.

I opened the door and went inside. The house is eerily quiet. I wonder where he is. Kapag nag-aaway kami ay madalas nasa guest room siya. He'll lock the door tho he knew that I can easily open it. May susi kasi ako.

Umakyat ako sa ikalawang palapag at binuksan ang kwarto na ginagamit niya kapag nag-aaway kami o kapag galit siya sa akin. Wala siya doon. Nasa kwarto lang siya?

Nagdiretso naman ako sa kwarto namin at wala akong maaninag. Madilim kasi. Binuksan ko ang ilaw.

Fuck.

He's not here. He's f*****g gone.

Piles of clothes were strewn all over the room. May basag na vase at picture frame. It's his photo. A photo of him that I took while he's sleeping after our intense love making.

Fuck.

I even saw droplets of blood everywhere. Where is he? I suddenly got so scared. So scared that my hands started shaking.

Where are you Baekhyun?

**

2 weeks later

"Luhan, where is he?"

"I don't know. I'm sorry."

He does it again. Leaving without notice. Leaving without waiting for my explanation.

I pulled at my hair harshly. f**k!!! This frustrates me because I don't know where the f**k he is.

"Ano ba kasing nangyari? Kilala ko si Baek, masiyahin siyang tao. Matapang siya. Kahit na nasasaktan ay hindi siya umiiyak pero yung araw na sinabi mong umalis siya ay nagkita kami. He's crying, Chanyeol. And Baekhyun never cries. Ano bang ginawa mo?"

Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko gustong malaman. Kahit na alam ko ay ayaw kong tanggapin.

"Wala... wala akong ginawa."

Napabuntong hininga ito at tumayo. I looked at him in the eyes. Begging for anything that may lead me to him.

"He's hurt."

And the he left me. I smiled bitterly. I hurt him. f**k.

**

3 months and 3 days later

Seeing him again makes my heart beats so fast that I want to take it out of my body. I stared at him for three good seconds before I managed to choke a few words.

"You look... well."

I can hear disappointment within his voice. But I ignored it. Masyado akong masaya dahil nakita ko na uli siya para isipin pa ang napansin kong iyon.

"You too."

He is really beautiful. But he is beautiful in a way a forest fire is beautiful. f**k. So much for being romantic.

"I missed you."

I have to choose my words carefully. Ayokong umalis na naman siya ng walang pasabi. Na maglaho na parang bula. I damn missed him so much that imaging him gone again would literally kill me.

"Now you say. I didn't miss you."

He spat angrily. I smiled. He misses me too. f**k. I feel f*****g ecstatic.

"Don't smile. I hate you. You broke my heart. You asshole. You f*****g dared breaking my heart. Breaking Byun Baekhyun's heart. f**k you."

He's got the ghost of a smile playing on his lips. His red pouty lips. f**k. Now I'm horny. Reminded me of the time we spent in Paris. Oh memories. He's so f*****g horny all the time. And so f*****g in love with me.

"I wish I could f**k you."

I said breathless. He blushed hard and I smiled inwardly. Damn. Gusto ko na siyang hilahin at halikan pero hindi pwede. Hindi pa pwede.

"Don't make me horny! f**k you! You asshole cheater! Dara Park? Really? You asshole. You're f*****g your half-sister, you f*****g Park Chanyeol."

I bit my lip as I stared at his fuming face. Is this how he felt all the time? I don't care how mad he was as long as he's talking to me then I'm fine with it. Stay mad, baby, but stay with me.

"I so f*****g hate you! Wag kang lalapit sa akin! I may be a w***e but I don't f**k my relatives! That's filthy, that's... that's dirt---y."

Tears rolled down his face like droplets of rain. He's so f*****g beautiful even if he cries. And I like seeing him like this. Mad because he's irrevocably in love with me.

"I know. We've been like that for years. And then I ended it but she doesn't want to. I love you."

Ngumisi siya at pinunasan ang kanyang mga luha. Tumingin siya sa akin at nakita ko sa kanyang mga mata kung gaano siya nasasaktan. I'm sorry baby. I don't like hurting you but seeing you cry makes me horny. But I love you.

"Just... take me. Please. Make me forget how much it hurts me seeing you with someone else. I have missed you, too. And f**k me if I'm not horny as you are."

And that's what all it takes for me to stood up from my seat to and take him into my arms. The place where he belongs to.

**

"Ahh~~ f**k me deeper! Please, oh god. God, oh, fuckkkkkk!"

I rammed myself inside of him, filling him up to the hilt, hitting his prostate again and again. I took his hard groin between my hand and pumped him. He's f*****g coming again.

"Baby, you came again."

Bulong ko sa kanya. Naramdaman ko ang panginginig ng balikat niya. I kissed the side of his neck and pulled my thing out. I'm covered with his c*m. Damn, it's so hot seeing him come from his asshole. It's so damn erotic that I got so hard again.

"f**k. Again, please?"

Natawa ako dahil tumingin siya sa akin at ngumuso. He's so adorable. f**k. I kissed his bruised lips, licking his saliva. Hmm, sweet.

"Get on all fours, baby."

Sinunod niya agad at sinabi at ginawa ang posisyon na sinabi ko. I slipped my finger inside his hole, pushing it in and out of him. He moaned loudly and it turned me on so bad that I decided to shove my aching c**k inside of him in one push.

"Fuckkkkkk! Ahhhhh~~ Yes, again, please!"

I started pounding in and out of him, kissing his neck down to his back. Biting, sucking and licking. Leaving hickeys all over him.

I groaned when he started moving his hips against mine. Pushing my c**k deep inside if him. My c**k twitched as he held it tightly.

"God, you have such greedy hole. It loves my c**k so much."

He cried my name as he ride out his orgasm.

"I love you."

**

"We should stop doing it. I told you, I'm done with it. I'm so done with it."

Nangilid ang kanyang luha at nag-iwas ako ng tingin. I don't like seeing her cry because although I hate what she's making me do she's still my sister.

"B-but you love me..."

I clenched my fist and looked at her crying face. How can someone who has a face of an angel be so evil?

"I love you but not the way you think I do. What we did ages ago is something we shouldn't have done. Bata pa tayo noon, mapusok at mahilig sumubok ng bago. Yung bawal ang masarap para sa atin."

I saw how he anger showed within her eyes. Itinapon niya sa mukha ko ang juice na order niya.

"No! We can't stop. We can't and I won't let you. I love you, Yeollie."

Ngumisi ako at nakita ko ang pagsalikop ng kanyang kamay.

"You don't. You only ever love yourself. And you're in love with the idea of being in a forbidden relationship. You love how it would ruin our family. How it would hurt dad. And you don't really love me, in fact you hated me. You hate me because I was born in this world."

Tumayo siya at lumapit sa akin. Sinampal niya ako at nagsimula siyang lumakad palayo.

**

"You've been with her again. She slapped you."

I'm not even surprised the he saw it. He's following me like a mad man but I don't care. I like it that he's like that.

"I tried to break things up with her. She got mad at so she b***h slapped me."

He grinned at me. Lumapit siya sa akin at umupo sa kandungan ko. Hinalikan niya ako.

"She's f*****g crazy for slapping you. But why am I happy? I must be crazy. Kung sabagay baliw nga talaga ako kasi mas pinili kita kesa sa pamilya ko."

**

I have these urges that only him can satisfy. As I lay still beside him I realized how much I love him. He's like the air I breathe, without him I'll die.

"What are you thinking? Your w***e of a sister?"

Ngumising umupo ito sa kandungan ko. Lately, I have noticed how much he loves to sit on my lap. Ginagawa niya iyon kapag nagseselos siya, kapag naglalambing siya, kapag nagagalit siya, kapag may gusto siyang hilingin.

"No. I'm thinking of how much I love you. We've been together for a year and a half. Counted na yung three months na nawala ka."

He rolled his eyes at me and pecked my lips. I sighed as I stared at his eyes. His eyes that is now twinkling with joy.

"Let's go visit Kyungie. You know, he's still depressed about baby Kyung In's death. He needs me."

His bestfriend, Kyungsoo, the boy who got pregnant, gave birth to his son but unfortunately the baby died because of heart and lungs failure.

"Can we visit him later? I want to visit your body, you know."

Kinindatan ko pa siya at napangisi naman ito. I can't imagine my life without him. I just can't.

"Hmm... I'll think about it."

**

"Just so you know I won't give you up easily to that faggot-of-a-boyfriend of yours. Ni hindi rin ako takot sa kanya kahit na pinagbantaan niya ako."

Her seething anger didn't bother me. Only one word caught my attention. Pinagbantaan - nagkita sila. I smirked. Baekhyun is really different. And I love him for that.

"Kailan kayo nagkita?"

Napatigil ito at napatitig sa akin. Nagbago ang ekspresyon ng kanyang mukha. Halata ang pagkagulat.

"Yun ang itatanong mo? Won't you ask me if I'm alright? Kung sinaktan niya ba ako?"

I shrugged my shoulder and asked her the question once again.

"I can't believe you. Mas pipiliin mo siya kesa sa akin? I'm your sister! And we're lovers!"

My jaw clenched. How I want to wring her pretty neck.

"Yes. I'm choosing him. It's because I love him. And we're siblings, that's also a factor. And lastly, we're never lovers. Just f**k buddies."

Sinaboy niya na naman ang juice na order niya sa akin. Hobby niya ata. Pagkatapos nun ay tumayo na ito at umalis.

I'm quite sure this isn't over. She'll not back down that easily. She'll never back down. I'll just have to be one step ahead of her to protect Baekhyun. Even if I know that he can protect himself. I want him to be dependent towards me.

**

"You aren't leaving me, right?"

Nasa kami kami ngayon. After the tiring day I came home with him sleeping peacefully on our bed. I wake him up with my kisses and we made love until we got tired and cuddled.

"No. I love you."

Tumingin siya sa akin at ngumiti. Inabot niya ang akong labi. He kissed me deeply earning a groan from me. I can almost feel his smile as we devoured each other's lips.

"I know. Don't leave me. I can't say the words back right now. But I feel the same."

I nodded my head and pulled so half of his body lay on mine. I hugged him closely to me, kissing his head. He sighed and kissed my chest.

"I love you Baekhyun."

I'll have to earn back his trust. It's hard but I know it's worth it. After all he's all I ever wanted.

The End.