INSIDE THE DARKNESS.

Am myself, a young man, with a lot of challenges about life. I could remember one of my friend who describe me as a man with different department in his reasoning faculty, in solving issues the way it comes. A drought master of phycologists, who always want to solve Evey problems. I think with this he has describe a little about me, the way I am to him, but to someone else's I might be something otherwise to them, no man will be perfect in all Circumstance's. Am samlett, my friend call me babyface, a tall and black in completion, I think that's have describe a little about how I look. It will be my pleasure sharing my experience and imagination to you, about darkness. ? People look to me, and always wish taking me for granted, because of the way I looked. funny and many time silly. if you give a little time to ready my story, you gonna find in this story. Life as I thought it was, I never knew how difficult life is until I reach the age of 11, where I was left alone with my thought. No one to help except myself, people who I put my believe on failed me with the race began. Life is a difficult examination people fail easily, they think well to answer the question it asks, but still people failed it. But to my concern, people who didn't know about how to give response to the questions life ask for, pass in a massive way. So people don't want to study it as it comes anymore, instead they wish to follow the way people who pass follow to got it right. They didn't mind what its takes to get the right answer, all what they want is to pass no matter how. That's why people fail it, because they all copy each other. They didn't know its not a like a way that lead to the same path, he who is stupid is the one that stay in one way, and started shouting that his or her way is wrong. (Religion way). I keep on thinking about way out, to solve my challenge. I saw it clearly, I saw my self in a large unknown place full of darkness. I sat all alone, I couldn't see, neither hear any sound. I feel the cold of pain alone, and the sore of no one in my heart. How I wish someone is with me, how I wish they could hear me, and help me out of my darkness. But people who have eye to save are also blind, and those with ear are deaf to hear. Even people who can help, are up there enjoying there life, without bothering of others people suffering, they steal from them, and keep it in no secret, they enjoy someone else pains, labor, strength and life. About some min, I feel a relive from my pain's, I started feeling some fresh air from no where. not to long to this periods, I could feel presence of some people pressing by. I keep on shouting for help where I am, I don't know either anyone can hear me, or feel someone is here on pains. I hears there footstep as they are passing by, closer and far, but no one could just step on me where I am, maybe by this they could also carry me alone to also move on, on there path. waoh! I forgot that people have different path and destination. you may both start at the same time, but when time comes, things will fall apart, and all will be separated to follow there fate. Not so long, I can hear a sound of an old man coming near me. I shouted help in a loud voice, he heard me and ask, what did you want young man?. some min after I heard his voice, I started seeing gradually, but can't see who am speaking with. He continue, did you need my help, or maybe you want me to show you way out of this darkness. I answered In a high octave to his question and said yes. wao! am glad you requested for my help. look, people you see, also have there challenges, some have been pined and control by darkness. In darkness people sometimes see without no eye, and people hear with no ear. I was shocked when I heard this, then he continue. Don't be shock young boy, those people am talking about uses someone else's eyes and ear to see and hear, he took a little voice rest and continue. Anything can happen in darkness, don't just be so surprises with anything you see. To leave here you GATT to add smart to your ways, make a way from no way, seek where you can't see in expectation of having by force. Never mind what its take, give it all and find a way for you self. I was so confuse on what he's driving on, I don't know what he mean with what he's saying. I kept silent without asking any question. He continue, it time to leave you here boy, thinks well and find a way for youself. After say his last word, I don't know how he depart from me, I just notice I can't here his voice anymore. Now am alone with my thought, am alone to think of finding way for my self. not to long to this time, I can see clearly, and I can figure out a lot of path that possibly lead to different destination, it now up to me to choose my choices, and find a way for my self. I choose one way, in my hope that I will have a luck of getting to where am going quickly Well, that's what people want, quick way to there destiny. To my life, have never gotten any massive luck . Maybe because I always failed myself. its not that am desperate of myself, but, started from the beginning of my life, journey of my life got so tough. I didn't know why, but my friends used to say, its predestined, which I didn't believe. I moved on, through the way I chooses, maybe I will succeed, and move out of darkness. I believed and have made up my mind to give everything's it takes, to find a way for my self. If I make it, people won't care how i find possible way, then, I will become someone important to them. That's just life, they don't want to surfer with you, but they want to enjoy life with you, when they all discover that you have succeeded. They don't want to care what you have pass through, either you gives your blood or your soul to it. All what they all know when this time come is " he's my friend, we both finished at the same college, he's my blood brother, We always eat with the same plate, he's my son I always cares for him". That's just life " we must accept finite disappointment, but we must never loss infinite hope". what can makes me a real person ?, what can makes me a great history?. "MONEY". after money, its just money again and again. Money itself proved itself that any decisions must not be comply, except it conscience. That's what can easily manipulate human gentility, dignity, diligence and there precious soul. Just have it, you have made it all. I move on with my journey, all alone in the storms of life, suddenly, I met people's on the path I choose, I was happy am not alone anymore, but forgotten that we both have different desire, aims and destiny. No matter how, all of us, I mean probably 20% of us will never arrive at the same point, although we chooses the same path, but we are not born the same time, and we can't die at the same time. That's just destiny of life, it never satisfy you, but you must live it. I don't always think about my failure, and have never make it to depress me on moving on with another step, because I believe that every difficulty is a lesson, your reaction to it as a correction is what pass you out when other difficulty comes your way. When this time comes, I always look to myself, I don't trust during this time, because It a law or nature, people I might look on may fail at anytime. I took this challenge as a fight I have to conquer. And am ready to take me possible best in getting out of it. People always reject me, and always asked why I always fail. But when they asked this, I couldn't give them answer because I don't know the perfect answer to give them. After hearing this from friends and love OK ones, I will go into a silent place and started crying of the bad words people always say to me. It create pains to me, and I always thinks of ending this painful life. sometime they shot on me, I will be confuse and do the wrong things which I will surely be condemn for. I always say It that life is pain, because I woke up in pains, I go work in pains, I do things with pains. Have thought many time of ending this, but I couldn't, because I have to fight this to till end no matter how. I cry most of time, about why I was just created to suffer and eat in the bad and worst fruit I didn't planted, why I suffer the unknown sin. I always ask myself why me, why this calamity at my age, what lamentation at this stage of my life. I know its a story I GATT to tell. I tried my possible best, but most it seems luck is not created for someone like me, because instead of love, they shown hatred, instead of Care that all neglected my way, they grudge me for my mistake, and wish to forsake my way through this. How I wish I could say it so loud and clear for the world to hear my Cry's and say all the thing I wanna say. yea, I have the Faith that one day, my voice will be hear, the son of no one will become someone, even without anybody. I hope so, that one day I will be raise up to the world to see and want the same best I have when the time comes. That's the power of darkness, it wish to pin destiny down without moving, but without no relent, the light is coming to scare away the dark. I always say it, I have a lot of things to say, I GATT a lot of story to Tell. Back to where I am in the darkness, I could find way, with some people, who I think we are the same, and we are going the same way. we both started the journey together, we shares memories of the past, and move on with the present. met Felix, Murray, and March, we are all together on this journey, we don't know the end, but we keep moving, and shared the same loving and caring heart. Maybe its all a dream, or imaginations, I can't tell now, until we end it to one point. we don't know the end of the journey, but no matter how apart everything might be at the end, we must have to prepare for everything. No matter what darkness have brought to you, it's not the end, its just the beginning of the good things, don't get up light up and scare away your dark, take the move and light the journey. Friend are dangerous, but you can never ran away from them no matter how, you will have them, but you must not trust so much, if you wanna escape the dark. They are the most influencer with it got to human journey, if you get to a right stage of your life, its because you have made good friend, and if otherwise, you have enroll In bad friends.