Finding Me

Chapter 4

Something's definitely wrong with my mother. When Becky came over yesterday afternoon, she was welcomed. Becky was so sweet to her, and she liked Becky. When she was asked if I could sleep over, there was no trace of anger and she said yes. She even said I can come back home on Monday after school.

When my first best friend asked if I can sleepover before, she said no and when she went home I was beaten for letting her come to ask. I know something's wrong with my mom. She is even eating less these days, there's something wrong and she won't tell me. When I was packing, she helped me pack and made sure I had everything. This is getting to me.

The day is such a bright one today. The sky is clear blue and the sun was brightly shining. It was 1:30 PM when I checked my clock. Mother let me sleep this long!? I rushed out of bed and rushed downstairs.

"Mother!" I shouted as I ran down.

"Hush Stefanie! Why are you so loud!?" She was in the living room.

I walked over to the living room. "Oh. Good morning mom."

"Morning."

"Have you eaten already?"

"No, I'm not hungry."

"Mom, you haven't eaten since morning and you're not hungry." I went to sit beside her on the couch as she watched TV.

"Either you tell me what you want or I'll just make something for you."

She turned to look at me. 

Oh please don't let her hit me. 

She just sighed and shook her head.

"A small bowl of cereal will do." She turned back to the television. "Now go on my show is back on."

I smiled and went to the kitchen. I took the milk from the fridge and a small bowl. She doesn't like her milk hot or cold, so I'll just warm it in the microwave a bit. I grabbed the box of Cheerios and placed it on the table. I made myself egg and toast since I'm probably too excited to eat much.

When the milk was nice and warm, I put a bit of cheerios in it and placed it on a tray to bring to her.

"Here you go, mother." I placed it on the little table in front of her.

"Thanks, dear." She actually smiled.

Waw, either some really is going to happen or really bad. I hope it's really good. I don't have to go till seven so I occupied my time with cleaning the entire house, completing homework and studying. On occasion, I'll stop to ask mom if she needed anything but she always turns me down. When she went to nap, I did get some shut eyes myself.

It's 6:25 PM when I watched the clock, as I was just getting up. I heard a knock on my door and my eyes fully open.

"Stefanie, get up. It's time to get up for you to get ready to leave," she said loudly.

I got up immediately and ran to the shower. There was no banging on the door, rushing me. I pulled on a black pair of shorts, with a black tank top which said 'kiss me' and black and white converse.

"Stefanie are you ready?" She called.

"Yes, mom." I took my black jacket and headed downstairs with my duffle bag.

When I got downstairs, my mother was sitting on the couch again watching TV.

"Mom, will you walk me to the bus stop?"

"Okay let's go." She went for her purse then came after me.

We waited at the bus stop for a while.

"Here you go." She handed me a MetroCard and thirty dollars. "The MetroCard is for the bus and the money is if you need anything."

"Thanks, mom." My mom never gives me money, I'm shocked but thankful.

The bus pulled onto the stop, and the doors opened. I gave her a hug before leaving, she hugged me back.

"Tell Becky I said Happy birthday." She let me go.

I hopped the bus and took a window seat in the middle. I watched as she went back to the yard as the bus began to move. I love my mother, I really do. Becky told me to get off on the third stop the bus made and she'll meet me at that stop. The bus is now leaving the second stop and moving on to the third.

It took only twenty minutes to get there. Becky wasn't standing at the bus stop, maybe she's late. I got off and waited. There was a tall guy standing there. I peeked up at him through my lashes, he's really hot. He was well dressed in all black also. I stopped looking at him as he pulled out his phone.

"Yes." His voice was deep and sexy. "No, I haven't seen her, she probably missed the bus."

I wonder if he's Becky's brother.

"Becky," that was my confirmation. "Fine, I'll wait for the next bus. You f*****g owe me." He tapped the screen and placed it back in his pocket.

"Umm, excuse me." I tapped his shoulder.

"Yes." He turned and looked down at me.

"I'm the girl you're waiting for."

"Stefanie?" I nodded and his eyes opened. "Umm, how old are you?"

"Fourteen." He stood back and eyed me up and down.

"Waw, are you sure cause you look sixteen to me." I looked down at my feet.

"Yeah."

"Oh I'm sorry, my name's Ben." He scratched the back of his head. "Let's go."

"It's okay." We walked side by side on the sidewalk.

"So what grade are you in?" He shoved his hands in his pockets.

"Tenth."

"Oh, you're cute and smart." I blushed. "You look nice tho."

"Thank you." We looked at each other and smiled.

He doesn't look like the douche bag type of guy as Becky says he is, but you know what they say do not judge a book by its cover.

"Becky couldn't come to get you cause she's said I was lazy and I had to do something, so she sent me to get you." I laughed.

"Sounds like Becky."

"So what has she told you about me?"

I don't think you wanna know Ben.

"That you're annoying and you're in twelfth grade."

"Really?" He chuckled. "That's it?"

"That's all that I'm going to tell you." He laughed. "How old are you?"

"How old do you think I am."

"Umm," I thought about it, "I wanna say 18 but I think I'll say you're 17 years old."

"Well, what you say is correct." He grinned. "Though you're a midget tho."

"Really?" I glared at him. "How's the weather up there jack." He laughed.

"What you trying to say, I'm a beanstalk?"

"No s**t Sherlock," I smirked.

"You're good."

"I try." We walked up to a large gate.

He punched in a code and he pushed open the little built-in gate. I looked around and the yard was big, but when I saw the house my jaw dropped. The house was huge, and Becky told me it was a good size house. There was loud music coming from it as we got closer. People stood all on the patio and a few on the lawn.

When I followed Ben inside, the place was pounding, laser lights pointed everywhere as people danced in the living room. There was a lot of people here. This is my first ever party I've been to and I have a feeling it's going to be great.

"Stef!" Becky ran up to hug me, shouting in my ear. "You're here!" She pulled me up some stairs.

She opens a door and it was a large room, it's basically all green. The wall was green, the dresser was green, the bedspread was green. Everything is green. Ben whispered something in her ear.

"Stef make yourself at home. Give me a minute." She followed Ben back out and shut the door leaving me here alone.

Most of the noise downstairs was not so audible, you would hear the bass from outside. I placed my bag in a corner and sat on the edge of the bed, waiting for Becky to come back. She door opened and the noise filled the room, closing it back and locking it behind her, ceasing the noise.

"Ohhh, guess what." She smiled clapping her hands.

"Lol, what?" She came over and crashed her lips to mines.

"My brother likes you." She kissed me again. "I'd not want anyone better for him, than you."

"So I'm going to have a girlfriend and a boyfriend?"

She smirked as she laid down beside me.

"Yes. Come on top of me."

I sat straddling her waist, I held my hair back I leaned forward to kiss her passionately. I began to feel damp between my thighs. We giggled as we kissed. The was knocking on the door, more like banging.

"That must be Ben. You ready to get high." She smirked as she sat up.

"Hell yeah." I got up off her and followed her to the door.

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