Finding Me

Chapter 3

Winter starts in just a week and also I'll be turning fifteen. Mother has suddenly become less abusive and I've come to recognize that she always ties her head nowadays. She also speaks and yells less, and she lets me take the school bus to and from school. I know I should be happy, but I'm really worried. Mom never ties her hair, she comes home really late at night.

I stood at the door for a bit before I rushed to her side and hugged her. She didn't embrace me at first, but then she did.

"See you later mom."

"Be good now."

With that, I left the house smiling like an i***t to myself. I waited for the school bus. After a few minutes to bus pull up beside the stop slowly, and the doors swung open. I ran up and took my usual seat next to Becky. Ever since my mother allowed me to take the bus, I always sat by her side.

Tomorrow's her birthday and she's excited as ever. Over the last month, since I met her, we've spent lots of time together and gotten to know each other. I felt so comfortable with her, that I finally told her what was going on and she made it her duty that I had a smile on my face every day. I can say she's my bestie and I'm really taking a liking for her as I like her a lot.

"Hey, babe." She greeted me with a smile as I sat beside her.

She's been calling me either babe or Stef. I like it.

"Hey, Luv." I embraced her in a warm hug.

"How are you today?" She eyed me cautiously.

"I'm actually happy today. I hugged my mom."

"Awww I'm glad to hear that."

"How about you?"

"Lol, I'm turning fifteen tomorrow, like the fuck." We both laugh.

I stayed quiet for a while.

"What's wrong?" She patted my back. "You can tell me."

"It's just that... I don't know if I'll be able to get you anything......and you do much for me."

"Stef, please, I know you can't, and if you could've I know you'd give me the world. And me doing stuff for you, babe, that's what friends are for. You already have given me a gift, and I totally love it."

"Really? What's that?"

"Your friendship silly, it's the best thing I could ever wish for and it's a friend like you." She gave me a big hug.

The bus stopped at the school, and we walked off of it.

"But, I know a gift you can give me." We walked together through the crowded hallways.

"What's that?"

"How about I tell you at lunch?" She stopped in front of me and smiled.

"Sounds good." I grinned.

"So guess what I got a party on Saturday night. Will you be able to come, plleeaaseee, it won't be a happy birthday if the happy to my birthday is not there." She pouted.

"Becky, you know my mom won't let me go."

"Urrgggghhh, but you have to be there."

I thought about my next few words.

"I can try to sneak out with your help." She squealed, jumping up and down and clapping her hands.

"I'll let you know what time." She called down.

"I'm looking forward to it."

She pulled me close and squeezed my ass, I gasped. I still like when she does that.

"Laterz Stef." She bit her bottom lip before turning to leave.

I don't get why I have this funny feeling inside me when she touches me. Not bad funny, but good, I just can't explain it. I walked over to my locker to take my morning classes books as usual. I know the chances of escape is almost impossible with mother, she sleeps way too light. I dread this idea, but with the help of Becky, I'll be able to pull it off.

I sat down in my empty classroom and studied a bit before the bell rings for class to start. Miss. Simons walked into the room.

"Oh. Hey Stefanie. How are you?" She set down her books on the table.

"I'm fine, just doing a Lil bit of reviewing before class starts." I continued reading.

"I see that." She started writing some notes down on the board. "That's why you're my favourite student.". She smiled as she continued.

I laughed and continued my studying. Since mom has been not so much of herself, I have been able to study more and cover so much on it and also completing a lot of homework. I can sense something's not right, I just know it. The bell rang and the class began to be filled with chattering.

"Okay, settle down. There's something on the board." They all groaned.

The morning went quick today, and it was actually a Friday, so I'm not surprised. I got to my locker and put in the combination. I wonder what gift Becky is talking about; this girl's crazy. I switched my morning books with my afternoon classes book. I got a free period after lunch, so I'll just go to the school's library to read and study.

"Hey babe, you ready?" Becky came over smiling.

"Ready when you are." I shut my locker.

Ever since we did pizza and park for the first time, this has become our usual lunch routine. She always insists on buying me lunch, I don't like the idea but it makes her happy so I just go with it. We strolled to our usual spot of seclusion and sat down. We ate and laughed about some of her morning classes drama. I'm so glad I don't go through it, but it's fun to hear about.

"So what's that birthday gift I can give you?" I wiped my mouth with a napkin and dusted my hands.

"Well," she did the same and moved closer to me. "Stef, have you ever wanted to try something?"

"Like what?" I smiled.

"I know you've never had a boyfriend or ever had anything with a boy." She paused. "How about trying your first kiss with me?"

I was in complete shock. Mother was always against same-s*x couples, and she'd be so mad, but I'd want to try. I mean I curious about how it feels, why not try it with my best friend. I already like being touched by her.

"Well, I don't know," I said nervously, "but I'd like to try."

"Really?" She beamed up at me.

"Yeah."

"Okay, you ready?" I nodded. "Don't think too much about it and go with the flow."

She's been with boys already, so she'll know what to do. She brought her face close to mines, as she held the back of my head with one hand and the other, she held my waist. She planted a soft peck kiss on my lips and then look at me. She kissed me again, this time she sucked my lip. When she licked my lip, my mouth automatically.

I felt that funny feeling inside me again, as she was kissing me. Between my thighs felt wet, and I kissed back. Her hands went to my breasts and she squeezed them. I moaned softly. When she pulled away, we were both breathless as we stared at each other.

"You're a great kisser." She said and I blushed.

"Well, you're a great teacher." She giggled. "I'd like to try more with you."

"Really?" I'd really like to try more with Becky.

"Yes, I have never done it to someone before, but it's been done to me. The feeling is amazing."

"Waw. I'm up for it when you are." I laughed as she put her face in the opening of my shirt and licked my cleavages.

I felt damper.

"Well, we can do it on Saturday." She put her head up and looked at me. "I have an idea, how about I ask your mom if you can sleepover?"

"Good luck." I scoffed.

"Well, I'll come home with you today."

"Sure thing." She kissed me again.

I never bring people home, cause I don't know what mother's reaction will be. As we kissed, I forgot all my worries and kissed back. It feels so right, I could get used to this. I doubt mother will say yes to Becky's wishes.

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