Finding Me

Chapter 8

"Oh, so that's it?" Becky looks at me with wide eyes. I nod. "All this time it was just this?"

"Actually, they don't teach us that in class. I figured it out myself, the teachers give the explanations and methods, we may not understand so we should always figure out other ways to do it."

"You are so perfect." She kissed my lips swiftly.

"I'm not, now is there anything else I can help you with?"

"I know one thing." She licked her bottom lip salaciously.

"No, do your homework," I tell her sternly.

"I'm done." She whined.

"Well then let me see."

"Fine, I'll continue." She began to write again.

Besides helping her, I was doing my own homework; my mind just switched on Ben, I almost miss him. He went out to study with some friends, I guess it's just lust because I kinda missed him being inside of me. I do like the feeling that she gives me like it's really fun but with him, it's like a higher satisfaction that makes me yearn for him. I can't get sidetracked now, I want to get where he is, he's way ahead of me and will be going to college next year; I need to work hard to get there. I get back to work on my science, not really my favourite topic but oh well.

It's 1:20 AM, I'm still up and studying, Becky's fast asleep; an hour ago she made a stir and told me to come to bed, I told her I was coming. I still haven't gotten there yet it seems, I hear a faint knock at the door, I look at Becky who doesn't realize a bit then I turn my attention to the door. Ben came in quietly, signalling me to come over, once again I look at Becky and I get up slowly, walking softly to the door. He closed the door silently after switching off the light in the bedroom.

"What is it?" I whisper.

"Umm...." He scratched the back of his head.

"Don't lie to me."

"I don't know I just wanted to hold you." He engulfs me into his warm chest.

"Ben, aren't you supposed to be sleeping now?" I look up at him.

"Aren't you?"

"Yes, but I'm taking the opportunity to study."

"Babe I understand, but you need your rest also." He kisses my forehead, my nose and then my lips. His tongue invades my mouth and they massaged each other's, his hands are warm on my cheeks. "Come sleep with me."

"I can't do that." I look up at him.

"I understand, but please take some rest, believe me, you need it."

"Okay." He kissed me tenderly before letting me go

"Goodnight." He opens the door going in, pulling up the covers over Becky and kissing her forehead as a parent does before they go to bed.

I put my books in my and went in by Becky's side, he pulls the covers over and kissed my forehead also, "sleep well, Ben." He smiled and went out of the bedroom closing the door behind him.

My weekend was fun and amazing, I enjoyed every inch of it, having both a girlfriend and a boyfriend is not so bad, I guess you can say I'm bisexual now, can't tell my mother though. I weirdly miss her, not the abuse though I just miss my mom, I don't know but I have this really bad feeling; I spoke to her yesterday and she didn't sound as she usually sounds. That's when I started feeling the bad feeling, she doesn't sound as strong as she usually is and this worries me; despite everything, I still love my mother. The ringing of the bell interrupted my trail of thought, I sit upright in my seat as the class is getting filled and ready for math. This is going to be a long class, I'm good at math doesn't mean I like it.

Class after class is passing, today I had a pop quiz, it wasn't bad and then there's study hall, finally. I walk in the empty hallways since everyone has rushed into their next class. As I walk past the girl's washroom I feel an arm wrap around my face and the other around my mouth, which muffled my squeal.

"Well if it isn't miss pretty herself," a boy I don't recognize says, I was surrounded by seven boys from either twelfth grade or a lower once.

"Isn't she a cutie? You're shaking like a leaf, what, you scared?" He groped my ass.

"Please no." I sob silently, God please if you're hearing me don't let this happen, please.

There was a loud bang on the door as though someone's trying to kick it down, "huffing and puffing and I'll burst this f*****g door down." With the last bang, the lock of the door gave in making the door swing open. It was Ben with a couple of his friends from the football team.

"Well, well, well, so you're the little piglets that have been going around huh?" Ben walk forward to the boy. "There's one, two, three, four, five, six, seven of you; last time I checked there was three, isn't that right guys?"

"Yeah." They all laughed.

"I've heard about you guys a lot, but you guys have never made the mistake of touching one of my girls, however secrets spread and we're here today because you idiots want to touch what's mine." He glares at them as his voice rose. "Chubby at the back, speak up I can't hear you."

"N-n-nothing." He stuttered, one of Ben's friends move over to the back and pulled the boy to the front.

"Now, what did you say? Do not stutter." His calmness sent chills down my spine.

"That you're Ben, the school's Senior quarterback."

"Oh, so you do know who I am?" He rubbed his chin. "You're smart, now run to class and don't ever try this ever again okay, Johnny." The boy scurried out, one of the guys hitting him behind the head then laughing.

"So we're going to play a game called, pick out the leader. I'm going to choose one of you and if I'm wrong you go, if I'm right well we're going to have a ball." He cracked his knuckles and neck, he turns around to his squad and the boy that grabbed me kicked him in the back. "Found him." Ben pounced on him, sending punches to his face until his nose bleeds, he lands a kick to his side throwing him to the floor.

He holds him by his collar, "you will never ever touch her or my sister ever again!" Ben face was tomato red and the boy's nose bleeding. Instead of giving in the boy spit in his face, for a brief moment, Ben closed his eyes.

"Okay Ben, I know you're pissed man, but leave him alone." One of his friends said.

"Shut the f**k up!" Seeing him like this scared me, he held the boy in his neck as he lifted him from the ground.

"You guys, better go." The friends told the other boys, they were about to run out the door but was blocked, "make that mistake again and you all will be next, do I make myself clear? And don't tell anyone about this, make sure you tell your friend." They all nodded and ran out.

Ben was about to land the fatal punch to the boy that might make him unconscious, his friends watch but I just couldn't. I took the strength I had within me, "Ben!" He held his hand and glared at me, "you're scaring me." I whisper, his features soften.

He loosens his grip around the boy's neck and let him fall to the floor as he walks over to me as I stood in the corner, trembling at his very presence. "I'm sorry baby let's get out of here okay." He said softly, as he slung his arm around my shoulder. "Guys take care of it."

"Never thought you'd ask." One of his friends say.

He walks out with me, he looked around, "there are no cameras in this area." He pulled me into one of the abandoned girl's toilet, then closed the door locking it behind him. He went over to the sink washing his face with soap. He used a towel in his pocket to wipe his face, I took it from him, reaching up to him dabbing his face. "Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yes. I'm sorry to get you into trouble." I admitted.

"You didn't, if it were my sister or a friend of mine it would've been the same outcome."

I stayed quiet, as my hand stilled.

"Baby, did I really scare you?" I nod. "I'm sorry when I'm really pissed I am, I guess Becky didn't tell you that."

"No."

"But it's okay, I won't hurt you, I promise." He held my hand, I gasped at the sight of his knuckles.

"You're bruised."

"I know, I'll get it checked out when I go to the nurse's office." He smiled and kissed my lips softly. "But now, I'd like to have you now, if you don't mind." He hoists me up to sit on the sink area.

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"Coming to help me."

"Baby, that's what boyfriends do, we protect our girlfriends." I slung my arms around his neck and kissed him aggressively, he slowly unbuttoned my shirt.

Sucking my cleavage, as he cupped my breast, I can feel my underwear damp already. His hands skimming up my thigh, he shifts my underwear to the side and inserted his index finger, I moan softly at the circular motion in me. He smiled up at me, before undoing his pants and letting it fall to his ankles along with his boxers; his erection spring up. He carried me over to the wall where my back was rested against and my legs wrapped around his waist, he went inside me slowly making me whimper, he gently places his hand over my mouth before, drawing back and thrusting into me fast and hard. I shouted but the words were muffled by his hand that's firmly placed on my mouth, he removed his hand replacing it with his mouth, his tongue invading my mouth.

I wanted to shout but I couldn't, I got my climax and he followed. Our breathing was harsh, we looked into each other's eyes, just staring.

"Shit." He grumbled as he slowly moved out of me, making me wince.

"Did I do something wrong?" He put me to stand on my feet.

"No, I just f****d up again." He searched his shirt pocket taking out a pill case with only one in it, "I gotta get more."

"First of all how do you get those things? And why do you always carry them around?"

"First of all, I'm 18 and sexually active and I can afford it, so I get it, if I were going to stay here next year I'd have you get a shot." He paused for a bit, rubbing his chin, "I still can, though, hmmm I'll schedule that."

"Umm, hello!?" I shout whisper.

"Oh and secondly, I never really carry these around, I usually don't get this because I've always used a condom but I rather f**k you raw, so I have to get the pills. However today, I know I'd end up f*****g you somehow, and I didn't carry condoms so I grabbed the pill this morning." He took a deep breath after he explained, then moved to his jacket pocket, "I know your panties will be wet, so I brought you a clean one; you left it at home."

I take in all that he is saying, "you are so f*****g weird."

"I haven't ever done that for any other girls so, you are so f*****g lucky." He removed my damp panties and replaced it with a new one. "I told you I liked you, if I didn't I'd just f**k you as a one night stand and don't give a fuck."

"I get what Becky was saying now, but you shouldn't use girls Ben."

"They want to be used, Stefanie."

I sigh.

"Don't worry I've stopped, I've got you now."

"And when you're gone and I'm not there?"

"I'll just remember you and not us girls."

"Easier said than done."

"I'll prove you wrong." He gave me a swift kiss, "anyways, promise, please do promise me that you'd take this tomorrow morning, Stefanie please." He presses it in the palm of my hand. "I can't have a child now and neither can you, and I don't want my sperm to make a life that has to be killed."

"Damn it, Ben, I will, I promise. What are you going to study for a motivational speaker."

"Never thought of it, but not a lawyer. I'm so f*****g serious." He glared at me.

"Calm your testicles, I will." I finished fixing my clothes. "And get your knuckles checked out." I glare back.

"I will, after school."

"No now."

"Yes, mother." He grabbed my hand in his. "We've got five minutes till lunch so we gotta leave."

We exit the abandoned toilet, and run through the halls, "oh hand this to Becky for me will you."

"Okay."

"Laters, babe." He went out the doors leaving me in the hallways, the bell has rung for lunch.

So I head straight for my locker, but I was stopped by a teacher, oh no, I hope we weren't caught. "Miss. Brooks the principal would like to see you, now."

"Okay, sir." I tremble as I made my way to the office. Did the boys go tell the principal about this, about me and Ben? I'm so dead, I step in front of the office, knocking softly.

"Come in." I took a deep breath before entering. "Good afternoon Stefanie, how are you today."

"I'm fine sir." I take a seat.

"You're probably want to know why you're in here." His face fell, "I have some bad news, you'll have to visit your mother at the hospital when school is over." My heart sunk as I heard those words, I should be happy but I'm not. My mouth went dry, I knew something was wrong, but what is it?

"why?" I ask hoarsely.

"I'm in no position to say, you can have the rest of the school day to think, I'll inform your teachers."

"Thank you, sir." I get up to leave.

"I wish you the best Stefanie, tell her I say get well soon." I nod and leave.

The sounds of the normal loud chattering of people are now distant as I walk to my locker, it's like I was in an almost soundproof bubble. Why? How? This can't be happening again, no.