#62
787 Words
It is high time. I have not said this to anyone. But I think my son deserves to know the reality. He has the full right to know who his father is. If someday he comes to know about the reality, he may hate me.
I do not want this to happen, I will not be able to accept this. This will not be good. He has not done any mistakes. He has not harmed anyone.
He needs to know the real things. What if he gets to know about this from anyone else, then what will he do? He will not be able to accept things.
I cannot even imagine this. He will not be able to accept reality. He will not consider me.
He will not accept me. He will not at all listen to me.
What will I do? He will feel cheated.
What if he starts hating me? What if he does not talk to me? What if he asks about his father?
What will I tell? What will I tell about his father? How will I handle things? What will say, who he is, what he does? Why did he leave his mother? Why did he do so?
You are such a blessing in my life my, boy. You do not how much mum loves you my Aidwik. The moment you came into this world, I felt a sense of belonging. I felt like my male form came into this universe. I know you are too small to get this. But I love you, darling. My Lil boy. Right now I love watching you grow my boy!
You are just now beginning to know this world. You do not know what you mean to me. I am so proud of the young man I see you becoming. I am so proud of being your mother my darling boy. You are more perfect than I could have ever dreamed when I found out we were having a little boy my Aidwik.
Sweetheart, I wish I could change things. I wish I could change the reality. I want some of the harsh realities that have already happened in your young life to not affect your present, Aidwik. I wish we lived in a world where there was no issue like this. I didn’t strike innocent children.
But I can’t change the past, my dear son. I cannot change the factuality. You and I can’t protect you from all the bad things as much as I want to. The best I can do, son, is teach you and guide you to the best of my ability, Aidwik. As you grow, there are a few fundamental things I want you to know. Use them as your guidebook, especially when life gets tough darling boy.
But you know what, I would like to say about your father. Your dad was the bucket of kindness. Wherever he went, and to everyone he met, he would spread kindness and laughter. Everyone liked his positivity. Son, you have your Daddy’s same kind heart and compassionate nature, darling, Aidwik. Hold on to that, darling, my boy. I do not know why he left me? But the reality is when he was with me, he was like this only. You have his qualities. I want you to continue with them, even when life gets hard. Your Daddy was so widely loved and admired by everyone. Each and everyone would be in awe of him. As he loved and admired everyone around him. Everyone deserves kindness, baby. Don’t be afraid to show it to them.
There will be times in your life Aidwik when you will be down. You will not be in your fullest strength. You will not know what to do? You, Aidwik, will be broken. But do not give up. Being shattered does not mean you are not brave. My dear son, you will rise. Have faith, you will get up. You will be happy.
I will tell you to do things. But never do what your father did to me towards the end. Do not repeat them. where you’d rather hide or run or bury your head in the sand than face whatever challenge is in your way. I know because I’ve been there many times. In those times, I want you to remember to be brave and show courage. But bravery and courage don’t have to come from you; in fact, it often doesn’t because we, as humans, struggle with the strong grip of fear. Often it overwhelms us. When that happens, always call on God to give you courage and be brave. He will give you the strength you need to get through the battle you’re facing.
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