The Rain Is Yet To Come

CHAPTER 2: BRING AN UMBRELLA

MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN RED because of crying too much. What I have seen last night keeps haunting me. Its like, t*****e. Its torturing me!

And Im gonna say, I am hurt. Deeply hurt to be precise.

I mean, I love him and then one time Im going to see him kissing another girl?! Right in front of me!

Lazily, I walked in the bathroom and starts to prepare for school. After, I fried an egg for breakfast. I dont care if I will fail for my test just because of an egg. I seriously font care. My heart and mind is still occupied by the pain from last night. I dont even think that I can stand up again. I am wrecked. Wrecked wreck.

I have been hurt, so dont expect me to act like nothing happened.

My friend Jess greeted me but I cat greet her back. Looks like she sensed that Im not in the mood so she just kept quite. I silently thanked her.

In class, I cant focus so I excused my self.

"Can I please be excuses. I wanna go the comfort room."

The brow of our professor raised. "And why is that?" she asked.

I should be intimidated by her but I keep calm and look directly in her eyes. I am looking for a good alibi and then a great idea popped into my mind. Im sure shes going to understand it, shes a she.

"Girls problem. Time of the month."

Her lips formed "o". She nodded so I got out. I went to the comfort room then found my self crying. Crying my sadness away. I hope that this is the last tears that Im going to shed for him.

I swear.

I went to my work feeling a little off. But despite of that, I still manage to do my job well.

For the following days I keep my self busy so that I can forget about that night. But the things are not on the way I want it. Because my ex, Bryan, came and wanted to talk to me.

"What now?"

He sighed, "I want to explain."

I dont know, but I ended up listening to him.

"That night before that", he started. "I got a fight with my dad. He really is mad at me to the point that he want to disown me. I actually felt sad about that but later on my sadness is being replaced by anger. I know you cant understand me—"

"I'll try." I cut him off.

"Thank you."

I rolled my eyes. I gestured that he should keep on explaining.

"My mother talked to me and said that the only way to make my dad's anger away is to date this girl that they like for me."

My heart tighten. I know that his parents doesn't like me but I think thats below the belt.

He looked at me and guilt is visible in his eyes. "Look, I am sorry."

"Go on." I said, holding my tears.

He sighed. "Then we went on a date. I actually feel good around her. Its like, she can make my feel happy, wanted, and contented". He reached for his pocket and handed me his handkerchief.

Actually, its a little awkward to accept it but I still do. Looks like I have to lower my pride in order to understand the both of us. I listened to him while crying silently. It hurts, It really hurts.

"And the next thing I knew, Im falling for her."

This time, I cant helped it I sobbed.

"The time that you asked me where I was that night, its true that I am at the Callegros...but with someone."

I looked up the sky and I can see the gray clouds preparing a rain to pour.

"It was sudden, she kissed me", he looked at me and reached for my cheeks but I slapped it away. "Sorry. The next thing I knew, you were there. I know that I need yo come up to you but I also want to be with her."

"Whats her name?" I asked.

I saw him smiled. Smile that I wish I was the reason. But knowing it wasn't me, hurts.

"Freya. Her name is Freya."

I quietly nodded. Freya, nice name.

"Continue."

"Uhm", he cleared his throat. "Then I made up my mind. I like you but I love her. And Im choosing her that night. So sorry."

I smiled. I flashed my sweetest smile.

"Its alright, Im okay."

"No your not."

"I said I do."

"But I know your not." he insisted.

"Tell me", he held my hand. "What can I do to make it up to you?"

Both my mind and heart are fighting. I wanted to say that "Love me, lets go back to the way we were" , but I stopped. I dont wanna be selfish. So even if my heart is against it, I said this "Take good care of her. Treat her better that me. Lave her harder than me. Never make her cry. I dont want her to end up like me."

"I...I dont deserve you..." he uttered in which way, I agreed. "You deserve someone better."

"I know, and I just realized it now." I laughed.

"So this is it?"

"The what?"

"Our end."

I nodded. "Yes Bryan, this is our end. The next time we see each other, we will be strangers."

He hugged me then whispered, "Thank you. I know one day, you will found your happiness", then he left. Just like that.

This is the start, we are now strangers.

I looked up the sky and asked my self.

"What can make me happy?"

Just then, the rain poured. Now I know what will make me happy.

Umbrella. Looks like Im going to bring an umbrella.