The Alpha's Lost Love

Chapter 1

~Alpha Bastians POV~

"F**k," I cursed as a blinding light streams into my bedroom, blinding my eyesight and waking me from the deep sleep I was in.

I jolted up and looked around to see what or who the culprit was; however, the anger dissipated as soon as I saw my mother standing at my window.

"Hello, mother," I sighed. " What are you doing here in my room? And why did you wake me up? I was finally able to sleep after laying here for hours throughout the night and it's not even that late in the day..."

"Oh my baby. I am just trying to help you, dear. This pack needs their leader and you need to move past this," my mother, the previous Luna said.

At that my wolf immediately went berserk, trying to push through and force me to shift so that I could tear anyone who would question us apart. "How could she?! How could our own mother who has her own fated mate alive and well and beside her say such a thing?!" my wolf, Baskier howled.

I jumped up from the bed, not in control of my own actions, and barely stopped myself before running to the window in a frenzy with my claws out and ready to attack the person who would dare to to say our pack needs someone better than us to lead.

"Baskier!" I yelled in my head, "She didn't mean it like that! She is only worrying about us, as any mother would do! Calm down now!" I pleaded with my wolf. "Please? We can't do this and hurt our own mother! It would worsen everything even more than it already is!" I would never survive this if I managed to hurt or just alienate myself away from my parents. I can't lose both my mate and my family.

At the last minute, as I rounded up to my mother and she held her arm up to shield herself from my wrath, Baskier stopped pushing and I held back. "I'm so sorry, mom! Baskier is a little touchy when it comes to the subject of Laila. Oh my, mom! I'm really so sorry!" I wailed as I got near her.

Wrapping her arms around me with tears trailing down her face, my mother spoke, "It's okay, love. I understand mates and how important they are to us, even more so to our wolves. But you do need to know that your pack needs you. So you need to figure this out. Either go out and find her or move on. Please? Cause I need my son back! And your beta and dad need help running your pack."

With that, my mother walked out of the bedroom leaving me to my thoughts of what to do. My thoughts bringing the depression out more and more while I wondered where my love is. Where is Laila and what is she doing? Is she okay? Did she abandon me for any reason or did someone take her? All of these thoughts jolted me into thinking of when I first heard Baskier and all the things he decided to reveal to me early.

~Flashback to Bastian at 17~

RINNNNNGGG RINNNNNGGGG RINNNNNGGGG

The school bell went off, letting us all know it was time for class. I looked around at my posse of jocks and said bye so I could head off to History of Werewolves 101. As I turned around, I felt an ear splitting headache appear that forced me to lean onto my lockers.

"Oh my Goddess! Finally I am allowed to surface!"

I looked around to make sure nobody else was talking to me and realized that the hallway was empty. Apparently no one noticed me stumble over to the lockers holding my head and they all just went to class. Where I should be since there is a test today, I thought. Seeing that nobody is there talking to me, I came to the conclusion that since I'm alpha blood, my wolf is coming out earlier than 18.

"Wait a minute! Are you my wolf?" I asked the voice that spoke in my head.

"No, I'm the tooth fairy," the voice replied sarcastically. "Of course I'm your wolf! Didn't they teach you all about when a wolf emerges and everything?"

"Well yeah, but it's not like I knew when in the three years between 16 and 18 you'd come out for me, so it was just a bit of a shock."

I began walking towards the bathroom now that I knew what was happening. It's not like I would be able to focus on the test in Werewolves 101 anyways since I'm speaking with.....Wait what's my wolves name, I thought.

"My name is Baskier," the wolf's voice said after hearing my own thoughts. "I am your full blooded Alpha wolf! We still have another year though until you will be able to transform though. There are a few things we can do though before then! Or at least start training it so we will be ready when we do shift."

I sat on the sink in the bathroom, trying to figure out what Baskier could be talking about. What could we start training now when we don't even have the ability to transform yet? I asked in my mind.

"You and I are special, my counterpart. We are going to be a wolf with extreme strength and the capability to read another's mind," Baskier stated. "It will be very helpful with keeping our pack safe. You won't be able to fully explore this ability until we can shift and everything; however my young wolf, we might be able to start more intense training physically and mentally to help prepare ourselves."

~Flashback speeds up to senior year~

It's the first day of my senior year, only a week until my 18th birthday as well. My friends and I are chilling by the lockers as we do every school morning and discussing what all new chicks there are. I hold myself to a higher standard than the other guys since I am the future alpha; therefore, I don't go around b*****g every girl in the school, even though I have plenty who chase me. Most of those girls are just wanting the chance to become the future Luna though and don't want me for me. I want someone who is more real and who wants to be with me not for power gain.

"I just want our mate," Baskier sighs. "No other she wolf will do so don't even think about finding anyone else!"

I outwardly rolled my eyes at Baskier. Of course both he and I want only our mate. But what if it takes a long time to find her? Do we just wait forever?

"Yes!" Baskier says matter of factly, as if our alpha wolf hormones dont affect him any.

The week passed by quickly and I anxiously awaited for my birthday. It just so happens that my birthday this year falls on a full moon; therefore, I will be able to shift at midnight when the moon is high up in the sky. We had a birthday party worthy of a king, since it's my 18th and my mom wanted to go out all. The whole pack came out and by the end of the night, we were having to shoo people away so I could shift for the first time in peace and without a crowd around me. The only people I want around me are my parents, especially since I have to get naked to shift and I'm not quite used to that yet. We walked outside to the clearing behind the pack house and I stripped to my birthday suit, awaiting for the transformation to begin.

"Now son," my father began. "I don't want to lie to you and say this will be easy going for you. Even with alpha blood and you being stronger than others physically, it is still gonna hurt like a b***h. Just let Baskier talk you through it, okay? He knows what to do and you just need to listen to him."

I shook my head okay and took a deep breath as the first round of pain shot through my body. I could feel my muscles contracting and my bones seeming to break themselves, causing me to double over in pain and fall to the ground.

"Alright, Bastian. You just need to breathe and let me do all the work through this. It might take a little while, but we will get through this and you will get to see how awesome I look," Baskier said with a wolfy chuckle in my head.

I tried to smile at his comment to no avail, but I did stop fighting back against what felt like my body betraying me. Within about an hour of muscle spasms and bones reshifting, I stood on all fours. I looked down to see the most amazing thing ever! Two huge, midnight black furry paws on the grass in the clearing. I noticed my parents wolves walk up beside me and I could tell they were emotional seeing their only son finally be able to transform. The rest of the night until about 5am was spent with my parents and I running through the forest. It took a little while for me to get the hang of running on four legs instead of two, but once I did I surpassed the speeds my parent's wolves are able to run. When we got back to the pack house, it took me about an hour to shift back into my human form and I walked with sore muscles up to the top floor to my room. Without even washing up, I plopped myself down on the bed and fell into a deep sleep.

A day and a half later I woke up feeling ravenous. I ran downstairs to get some food from the buffet bar the Omegas set up this morning and was hopeful that just maybe I would be able to find the one our Goddess created for me. Surely it wouldnt be too long since most wolves find their fated mate within a few months of shifting for the first time. For some it take about a year or two, but any longer than that and people usually give up on waiting for their destined.

"Since we are an alpha with extra abilities, I feel like we should be able to find our mate in no time! Right, Baskier?" I asked him, full of hope.

"Well actually, Bastian....." Baskier began. I could tell this wasn't going to be something I liked hearing, so I stopped grabbing food to pile onto my plate and just went and sat down. "It is entirely possible that because we DO have these extra abilities, the Moon Goddess might have had to push back our timeline on when we find our mate. I know you were hoping we could find her soon, but forming our amazing alpha wolf self took a lot out of the Goddess when She did it and She had to adjust accordingly with the plan for our life."

My fork dropped to the plate with a loud clang, causing everyone else in the packhouse dining room to look over at me.

"But maybe I'm wrong! Maybe She was able to squeeze in finding our mate sooner," Baskier said, in order to deescalate the spiral my brain was going through.

At that point, my food didn't taste good any more and I just wanted to go out and roam the pack grounds to see if I could get even a hint of my mates' scent here. Maybe Baskier is wrong though and we will be able to find our mate in no time. Maybe I should go out and tour other packs to see if she is around them if I don't find her here in the next few weeks, I thought.

"Yeah! Maybe I'm wrong!" Baskier enthused to try to make me feel better. "We can gather all of the eligible she wolves of our pack here in the next few weeks and see if our destined is one of them. And if not, I'm sure father will let us go and search for her before we have to start taking on more Alpha duties. He wants us to have our mate and have it set in stone to have heirs before we take over anyway."

With that, I cleaned up my mess from lunch and went to my father's office to discuss going on tour.