BLOSSOM'S POV
I stared at Capheus blankly and even though I could see the celebration in his face which was clearly what he had wanted, I was lost in my head turning my thoughts back and forth and trying to hold myself together. I hadn't thought doing this would be easy but I hadn't expected it to be this hard either. I was trying my best but that only seemed to make things worse and I couldn't keep myself away from self-blame.
Maybe the elder was right, maybe this wasn't supposed to be my position. I was failing and I didn't know the first step towards making it better. For years, I had known nothing but peace, only fighting friendly matches that didn't require me to kill anyone. This was all too much and the more I stood there looking into my brother's face, the more I felt like it wa
