Surviving His Memory

Chapter 11

Ethan

"You.." She says and my heart leaps out of my chest. She wants me. Just me. That has to be the most amazing thing I've ever heard. Ellie closed her eyes after she said it. Is she hiding from me? "Look at me baby.." I told her as gently as I could. My inner caveman, wants to throw her over my shoulder and run back to her room before she changes her mind. But my heart knows that I need to be patient. Quite frankly, I'm not going anywhere.

When she opens her eyes and snuggles her face into my hand, I almost come completely undone. "Please..." I barely hear her plea. My heart hammers in my chest. She is looking at me through her eyelashes with flushed pink cheeks. "I will never be able to tell you no." I tell her as I once again scoop her into my arms. I'll never tire of the feelings I have with her in my arms. This, right here, is what I always wanted to feel. Ellie wants me for me, not anything else. She doesn't like me because I play football or because of the money or the fame. She just likes me and I...damn I like her too.

I walked back toward her room. As we approached the familiar sliding door, I spoke. "You know we don't have to do anything, right? I won't be upset. I can wait for you, El. There's no rush." My inside voice is screaming at me to shut up, but Ellie's different. She isn't like the others. I want so much more with her. That thought should scare me but it doesn't. This is the woman I've been waiting for. The woman that silences every voice in my head. Every voice that has ever said I was nothing more than a jock with a wallet.

"I don't want to wait." She wiggles, signaling that she wants to be put down. I placed her on her feet and she immediately walked back into my arms. She ran her hands up my chest. "Are you going to make me wait, big guy?" Her sudden boldness woke my c**k up. My pants grow increasingly tighter as she pulls my lips to hers. Damn. That's sexy as hell. When her hands fist my shirt, I cant handle myself anymore. I slide my hands down her waist, to her hips, and find my way to her round ass, giving it a squeeze. She gave me another soft moan so I kept rubbing and pinching gently. When I feel her tongue swipe across my lip I cant stop myself any longer. I picked her up again. This time by her hips. She wraps her legs around my waist, never breaking the kiss.

I kissed her with everything I had as I walked to the sliding door and finally managed to open it. At this point, our kiss is almost frantic. Ellie is working on the buttons of my shirt as I slide the door closed and lock it. My hands quickly return to her bottom. With her legs still wrapped around me, I carried her to her bedroom and slowly lowered the both of us onto her bed, breaking the kiss for a moment. When she looks at me, her eyes are hooded with lust and I imagine mine look similar.

A small voice in my head reminds me that I need to tell her who I am. I can't sleep with her unless she knows what she's getting into with me. Honestly, my mother would fly here just to drag me back home, by my ear. Not to mention, I made a deal with her friend Diane. "I have to tell you something, El. There's something you should know about me before...." I tried to pause the moment. To hold off the inevitable at this point. I want nothing more than to show her how she makes me feel. "Can it wait?" She asks out of breath. "No baby. I have to tell you before this goes any further. I should have already told you." She sits up in the bed quickly and pulls away from me. "Oh god..you're married aren't you?" She asks as she tries to get out of bed. I reached for her and tried to pull her back to me but she resisted. I let her go. "No baby. Nothing like that. I...my work...its about what I do for a living." I try to find the words. "Ethan...what is it? You're making me nervous." She half whispered to me. "I play football...professionally." I ripped off the band-aid. Her beautiful eyes widened. Then I saw it dawn on her. "All the stares..the hostesses nodded earlier today...OH MY GOD!" Ellie practically shouts the last part and stands from the bed. "You're Ethan...Ethan Frost aren't you?" My whole name from her lips has never sounded more beautiful. "Yes. That's me. Cal is one of my wide receivers," I confirmed. Her silence is deafening as she paces the small bedroom.

"Please say something, Ellie. I know that I should have told you sooner. When I realized you didn't know who I was, I thought that you could get to know me without anything else. Then I realized how special you are to me. I couldn't do this, not without you knowing the whole truth. I don't want to let you go, but if it changes things for you, I'll understand." I tell her as I throw my legs to the side of the bed and sit up, looking away from where she is.

I feel the bed dip behind me just before I feel her hands travel over my back. Her touch is soft. "At least you aren't married." She chuckles, causing me to laugh a little with her. "Can we still pretend for a little while, that we are just Ellinora and Ethan?" She asks me softly in my ear, causing shivers down my spine. The things this woman can do to me. I've never been with a woman who makes me feel this way.

I reached around and quickly grabbed her and brought her around to straddle my lap. Her long sundress is hiked up so that I can see her tan legs. I can't resist running my hands over her smooth skin. "Ellinora...that is almost as gorgeous as you. Again, I'll never be able to tell you no. I'll do as much, or as little as you wish, baby." I said her name over and over in my head. Ellinora Grace. f*****g beautiful, just like her. "That's good because I want the Ethan that I've gotten to know. Not the one you give to the world. I want you to do for me what you wanted to do a few minutes ago. Will you show me?" Her eyes are hooded again. "God, yes.." I tell her as I begin running my fingers under the hem of her dress, pushing it further up. Suddenly, she adjusts herself in my lap enough to raise it up and remove her dress over her head.

My breath caught in my chest as I saw almost all of her skin. She wasn't wearing a bra and her dusty rose n*****s were calling me to them. Running my hands up her body for the first time will forever be burned in my memory. Finally reaching her breasts, I cup them in my hands. "They're kinda small..." She says quietly. "They are perfect, just like the rest of you." I tell her, looking her in the eye. The blush that consumes her face also causes her chest to redden. I lightly pinch her right n****e as I stare into her eyes. "...and your reaction to me is even more gorgeous. God Ellie.." I continued to toy with her breasts, pinching and squeezing, watching her chest rise and fall more rapidly. When I lower my mouth to one and begin sucking gently, swirling my tongue around her now hard n****e, she throws her head back and moans without restriction. That's it. I'm done. There's absolutely no way I can go back now. I want to hear every sound she can make while I bring her to orgasm. I won't be the same after tonight.

I stood on the bed, mouth still attached to her perfect n****e. This time she moans my name. "Ethan...please..." I place her against the wall to continue ravishing her perky breasts. Ellie's moans have my c**k pressing painfully into my zipper. "Ethan.." She moans again. "What do you need baby?" I ask her as I trail kisses up her chest to her neck. "I need you to not have so many clothes on." Ellie says. I chuckle as I kiss her. I carried her to bed again and lay her down. As I pull away from her she clings to me and I never want that to stop. "Hang on baby. Let me get rid of some clothing.. Apparently, I have too many on. Stay. right. there." I punctuate to stay with a kiss after each word. I stand then and remove my shirt. As I unbutton my pants, I watch Ellie. She's watching me with intensity, biting her bottom lip slightly. My c**k jumps at her, lying with her legs open in front of me, her hands traveling over her exposed breasts. The only thing covering her is a small pair of black lace panties. I try to snap a mental picture. I never want to forget this moment or the way she is looking at me. I dropped my pants and my boxers. Leaning over her again, I kissed her softly. She tries to pull me closer, but I have something else in mind. I need to taste her right now. I need it like the air I breathe.

I trail kisses down her jaw to her ear. "Let me show you baby.." I whisper. "Okay.." she agrees and I continue my descent. Down her neck. I give both of her breasts more attention, enjoying every sound Ellie makes. I give extra attention to the places she seems to enjoy the most, like right between, in the valley of her breasts. I use my left hand to pull on one n****e as I use my mouth on the other. My right hand travels down her body until it begins outlining her panties. Her hips buck slightly and I continue my assault. "You're going to make me cum.." She groans. "Thats the whole point baby. Let me hear you come undone. Every sound you make is like music to my ears. I want to hear them all. I want to hear you scream my name from extreme pleasure, my warrior princess." I had stopped playing with her so that I could watch her. I began pulling her panties down. "Yes..please..yes.." She moans again. "Please touch me." Hearing Ellie beg is f*****g hot. I groan.

As soon as her panties are on the floor, I open her legs and dive face first, into the sweetest p***y I've ever tasted. I lap at her, taking in her juices as her moans grow louder. "That's it, baby girl, let me hear you. God your p***y tastes good." I told her. I use my finger to toy with her c**t. While my other hand reaches for her n****e again. I replaced the finger on her now swollen nub with my tongue. My finger now circles and toys with her entrance. She's so wet for me that my finger glides into her tight p***y with little resistance. "God your beautiful and so wet. f**k. Ellinora. c*m on my tongue baby." I told her before I went back down to finish what I started. I placed a second finger inside of her to help stretch her out. I don't want to hurt her, and not to brag, but my d**k isn't small. I'll need her to be ready for me. I dont know if I'll be able to control myself.

I flip my tongue across her c**t rapidly as I curl my fingers looking for that spot. I found it pretty quickly and I drew my fingers across it. The moans that escape her are like a symphony. Ellie's legs begin shaking. "That's it baby. c*m for me." I tell her while still tounging her c**t. Then I hear it. "Ahhh...YES Ethan!" She screams as she cums. Her p***y gushed and I lapped as much of her orgasm as I could. "So damn sweet." I said, licking my lips. She reaches out for my left hand. As soon as it's close enough, she sucks on the two fingers that were inside of her and moans. That right there is the end of the line for me. I line my c**k up to her entrance and begin pushing in slowly. When I'm about half way in, I feel her body tense. I stop. "Relax baby. I dont want to hurt you." I told her, kissing her neck. "I'm trying. You're big and it's been a while." I saw a distance in her eyes. "Look at me baby. Stay here. In this moment with me." She does as I ask and I see a tear escape her eye. I reach up to wipe it away. "We can stop if you want." Immediately, she shakes her head and I feel her legs wrap around me, as far as they'll go. "Don't you dare." She says with fire in her eyes. "Your wish is my command." I grin and push the rest of the way into her. "Oh Ellie. You're like a vice. Relax baby, let me show you some more." I said, and she grinned from ear to ear. I want to keep that smile on her face.

I feel her body relax. I groan. She is perfect. I find a slow, steady pace that feels like heaven. I hear her moans again, eliciting my inner caveman. He wants to show her a few things as well. I picked up the pace. The caveman was officially released. Before I know it, her legs are shaking again, and she is screaming my name, but it isn't enough. I keep going. Adding my thumb to her c**t. I pounded into her. This time her screams are joined by my own grunts. One. Two. Three strokes and I growl out her name as I empty my balls inside of the most amazing woman I've ever been with. I partially collapsed onto her chest. Pulses of pure extasy courses through my veins as I try to hold most of my weight off of her. I cant hold myself up much longer so I pull her to one side and throw myself onto the bed beside her. Neither of us have said anything, both of us still panting as we try to catch our breath. I reached around her and gathered her in my arms. I can't wait until she lets me do that again.