I - On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
ALISA'S POV
I’ve often wondered what life would be like as an ordinary employee, just blending in and living a normal day-to-day life. Since I was young, I’ve been trained to take over my family’s huge business, leaving little time for fun or personal dreams. My childhood was filled with lessons and preparation, and any hopes I had were quickly dismissed as silly or off-limits.
This upbringing made me independent, tough, and confident in everything I do. I thought this kind of life was something you only see in movies or only happened to men, but I never expected it would happen to me so even with all my strength, there was always this emptiness in my heart — a deep need for love that nothing seemed to fill. I tried to connect with others and build real relationships, but no one could break through the walls I had built around myself.
Interrupting my thoughts, my secretary appeared at the door, knocking politely before entering.
“Ms. Ali, your mother is outside waiting to see you,” she informed me. Feeling a wave of exhaustion at the thought of another visit filled with directives and expectations. I acknowledged her with a glance. Their incessant visits, their perpetual commands — I yearned for an escape, even if just for a moment.
“Let her in,” I said, each word laced with the frost of my discontent and the quiet longing for a liberation that seemed ever out of reach.
My mother made her presence known in my office, adorned with her usual array of dazzling jewelry and carrying an air of authority that I had long since become accustomed to. I didn’t bother to look up at her. “Ali, you’ve been part of this company for five years, yet I’ve seen no significant triumphs from you. Your brother, on the other hand…” Her words trailed off, but I turned her out, too drained to care. "You always favored Adam but I didn't care though." I shrugged. “Ali!” she raised her voice, a sharp edge to her call. I felt a jolt of surprise but kept my composure. “You only show up to criticize me. You’re always going on about ‘great achievements’ this and that, but have you ever really seen what I’ve done for this company?” I challenged her, mirroring the intensity she projected. “What? Are you talking back to me?” she retorted, taken aback. I couldn’t help but let out a laugh. “Tell me, have you ever truly seen me as your real daughter? Not once! So please, just go,” I urged her, my request as much a plea as it was a demand for space.
Her reaction was theatrical, her hand clutching her chest in feigned astonishment. “What?” was all she managed to utter. Frantically, she rummaged through her purse, her hands trembling as I watched her with a detached gaze. “Just wait,” she commanded, her voice quivering with anger. “I’m going to inform your father about your disrespectful tone and your insolent behavior.” Her threats fell on deaf ears; I was too weary to care. She dialed the number with shaking fingers. “Henry! Look at what your daughter has become. This isn’t how we raised her. Listen to how she speaks to me!” Her voice cracked with emotion as she spoke into the phone, but her fake tears did nothing to soften my growing irritation. If she were anyone but my mother, I would have sent her away before she even approached the door. I took a deep breath, seeking a moment of peace before speaking. “Please, can you leave?” My request was calm, but firm. She met my gaze, her eyes searching mine for a sign of weakness, but I offered none. In frustration, she stomped her foot, continuing to berate me for my ingratitude. Even after she stormed out, slamming the door behind her, I could still feel the echo of her anger.
I had never wished for a family like this — one ruled by control and devoid of understanding. My father, once my childhood hero, had also become a stranger to me. As I grew older, I realized his affection was conditional, tied to my role as the future head of the family, especially since my younger brother had no interest in the position. This revelation only served to distance my heart further from theirs, turning it ever colder.
“Indigo,” I summoned, my voice devoid of warmth. “Yes?” came her prompt reply as the door creaked open. “Prepare the car. I require solitude. Ensure my parents remain oblivious,” I commanded, and she vanished with a quiet compliance. My gaze fell upon the stack of unfinished paperwork that cluttered my desk, each sheet a reminder of the life I never chose but was thrust upon me. With each passing moment, the walls seemed to close in, and the chill within me deepened. I never chose this path, yet here I was, shackled by duty and expectation.
I shrugged into my coat and stepped into my private elevator, descending to the parking lot where Indigo waited. She had been my right hand since I assumed the position of CEO, attuned to my every preference and aversion. Without a word, she held the door open, and I slid into the backseat. “Drive to the seaside,” I ordered, seeking the solace of the ocean’s expanse, and the engine hummed to life at her prompt touch. The silence of the car was a stark contrast to the turmoil in my mind, broken only when I caught Indigo’s concerned glance in the rearview mirror. In an instant, she filled the void with the blaring sounds of hard rock, the music reverberating through space.
'I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me, and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one, and I walk alone'
The raw energy of the music resonated within me, striking a chord in my lonely heart. It was true — I had always been alone, a fortress unto myself. People’s interest in me was never about who I was, but what I represented: wealth, power, a means to an end. The dream I was longing for never happened. It was a bitter realization, one that left me yearning for something real, something beyond the cold grasp of affluence. I kept my thoughts to myself, letting the melody wash over me as I gazed through the glass pane. The world outside was a canvas of beauty, and it stirred a curious wonder within me. ‘What if my life had been different? What if wealth wasn’t my birthright?’ These thoughts danced in my head, but I quickly dismissed them with a chuckle.
“Snap out of it,” I whispered, a reminder of my destined path. Indigo, ever attentive, glanced at me through the rearview mirror. “It’s nothing,” I assured her, returning to my silent reverie.
The car came to a halt a while later, and Indigo’s voice broke through my daydreams. “We’ve arrived,” she announced. I stared outside, and my eyes met the expanse of the ocean, its vastness stretching beyond the horizon. Stepping out, I was greeted by the sight of the setting sun, its fiery hues painting the sky — a spectacle that rooted me to the spot. The ocean’s scent filled the air, a soothing balm to my senses. Indigo stood by the car, her gaze fixed on the sunset, occasionally capturing its beauty with her camera. A thought crossed my mind — she must feel the weight of my world. I smiled faintly, acknowledging the truth. “Indeed, she must.” I murmured to myself.
I wandered along the shore until I found myself at the familiar rugged outcrop, a place where I often sit and let the sea spray envelop me. Engrossed in the rhythm of the waves, I jumped slightly when Indigo’s voice broke the silence. “I’ve grown accustomed to your moods over these five years, but today, you seem particularly distant and lonely,” she observed. Without looking at her, I listened as she continued, “Life can be so challenging. I used to think mine was the hardest, but seeing you, I realize it’s not.” I let out a weary sigh as she settled beside me. “My life is pretty miserable, isn’t it?” I questioned. She let out a soft laugh. “Perhaps, but I know you are strong,” she reassured me. “I know, but even the strong have their weak moments. I can feel pain too,” I whispered. “Want a hug?” she proposed as she smiled widely. I shrugged nonchalantly, “No, thanks.” She chuckled in response, “Alright then,” she said.
There and then, I found a rare moment of stillness. We watched as the waves met the rocks with a force that echoed like the chaos of my own life — a life where stress and turmoil often rolled in like the relentless sea. Yet, at this moment, there was a sense of calm, as if the steady rhythm of the ocean could wash away the worries, leaving behind only the tranquility of my own created world.