Knock of Mistakes

CHAPTER 6

To clear my mind, I took a shower. Thinking of their age again. Rylie is around 30. She's my mom's friend in Italy. After ending our relationship, I know that Rylie is going to Italy. But what a small world we have for her and my mom to be friends.

Jason is 40 something, while Kai is in his 30s. And they're freaking friends. Did they know that I'm both their ex? What the f**k is happening? I lay on my bed, still thinking of the situation that I am in. Then there's a freaking knock on the door again.

“Who’s there?” I shout.

"Sasha” Then I hear that deep voice again, Jason.

I gather my courage and open the door. Seeing him holding a tray with food, drink, a slice of cake, and medicine.

"Your mom asked me to..”

Mom really wants me and Jason to get along huh. If she only knew, we freaking knew each other.

“Thank you" I said, getting the tray out of his hand. But he didn't give it to me. He entered my room, and put it on the table. And I think my heart wants to be out of my ribcage. I feel every beat.

"You cried. How are you?” He nonchalantly asks.

"None of your business. Get your ass off my bed” rolling my eyes.

"I'm your father, now. You should treat me with respect" he said with a smirk.

“What the f**k? I don't care.” I snapped.

He suddenly touched my forehead. I tried to slap it but it's my forehead that I hit. I glare at him.

“Eat, then drink your medicine. You have a fever. Stop crying too." He says, patting my head.

“I also serve the food in the ref, heating it all up. A lot of guests love it." He said, and I remember what happened this freaking morning. Tears readily fall again. I hate it. I looked down to hide it but he already saw it.

"Hey, why? Are you okay?" He asked, which made me cry more.

I just found myself hugging him, crying like a kid. He just keeps on patting my head. Calming down, I pushed him. There's nothing wrong if your stepfather comforts you, but it's a different story when that step father is your ex.

“Thank you! Get out!"

He listened without objection. Maybe, he also realized that it is wrong to comfort me. I don't know what the f**k.

I cried again. Overthinking, my mom's reaction if she found out what kind of person I am. That my ex is not just Jason, but Rylie and Kai too. I am scared to be left alone again. What if she abandoned me for real if she found that out? I don't know. I just want someone to hear me. Crying my eyes out, I woke up with red puffy eyes. That's why I used concealer before going out.

To my shock, I saw Rylie cooking in our kitchen. Why is she still here?

"Do you still have a fever?” She asked.

"Uhm, I'm fine now”

I awkwardly sit at the table like a kid waiting for her meal. And she's more like my mom, serving me my food.

“Do you want to eat something or anything?" Rylie asked, while doing my milk. She knows me, this is our routine back then too.

Looking at her, she's still beautiful. So feminine that you would not think that she's a lesbian.

"I heard that you're mom's friend. How the f**k did that happen?” I asked.

"Your mouth, sweetie"

That endearment shuts me up. How can she call me like that again? And why do I feel so excited upon hearing that.

"Sasha, call me by my name,” I whisper.

"I see, Sasha.” she chuckled.

“Rylie, did you tell mom about what happened back then? I mean you are her friend, you're open with each other”

"Yes, she knows. She didn't know your name but she knows that story. Don't worry, I don't have any plans to spill it.”

“Thanks?" I laughed at my question.

“Welcome?" She's mocking my response.

“I hate being here" I blurted out.

“Why? You want to be with your mom so bad. I remember you crying and begging God to let you be with her.”

"True, but having mom here feels like a good nightmare.”

"How come?”

I sighed, and didn't have the energy to open up. I already cried a lot yesterday. I can't cry today. So, I just smiled and shook my head.

“If that's what you want then so be it" she smiles warmly, like a mother letting her kid hide something from her.