What I want

What about me?

Muayyad POV

Things around the house were bubbly and something was definitely going on, it was like something was transpiring without me knowing. It made me nervous but I didn't think too much of it as in due time I'll find out, I always do. 

I was back from work and exhausted, mufeedah was finally talking to me again which was a big relief. She didn't wanna talk about it in general and a big part of me was glad because I really had no valid excuse, everything I would've said would definitely sound stupid. I finished my food and took my plate back into the kitchen And on my way out i ran into my sister.

"What got you so excited?" She stares at me with a growing smile patting my shoulder 

"Let's just say sometimes acceptance is better, don't fight it. I just wish you'd see how much we love you and are trying to look out for you" sadness deep in her eyes 

She turned around to leave and I stood there for a minute trying to wrap my head around what just happened and for the life of me I couldn't the girl was confusing as hell most of the time.

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After coming back from fajr prayer I sat with my dad like we do every Friday morning, we talked and discussed things and he advised me but today seemed a bit different

"Muayyad you've never given me any Problem, in fact your sister stressed me out more than you and that's saying a lot giving that fact that you're a boy. You've always heed my words and I'm hoping what I'm about to ask, no advise you on you'll listen and accept" I nod confidently 

"As a parent I want the best for you, you might not see it right now but eventually you will. We parents see and try to prepare you for things before they happen, mostly because we want to protect you from things that'll hurt you in The future. Someone I respect a lot came to me to ask me a favor I couldn't say no to, someone who's helped me become who I am today and you're gaining from it as well. I asked your mom about what she thought of it and she thinks it's a good one too, Muayyad"

I raise my head to look at him " do you know a girl named Arfah Malik?" I replied with a nod, that Troubled girl 

"Her dad personally asked me about marrying you off to each other" my head snap to look up at him with wide eyes, my heart beating a mile a second 

"B-b-baba" I shake my head hoping it's not what I think it is 

"I accepted" that was all he said and I knew it wasn't up for debate, I could've seen it but I was too foolish. He was never asking me, he was telling me what was going to happen and all I could do was nod as he left me kneeling there hands shaking and tears trying to stream down my face I refuse to let go 

I felt a hand on my shoulder and look up to a guilty looking hauwa, she knew. And I wasn't angry at her, I got up and walked into my room thinking about how I break the news to my girlfriend who I promised a lot to.

Arfah 

looking at the design I shake my head at my mom and sister "too much glitter, I'd prefer something with a simple design" my mom sigh as Salma shakes her head 

"You're the worst bride I've ever met, like how can you take a week choosing your own dress please let's get over this I'm tired" I laugh going through the catalog as a design finally caught my attention  "this " I pointed with a smile that made my mom and sister sigh in relief like damn I'm not that bad.

"Trust the process" my sister mumbles while taking a sip of her ice tea 

"So what's this thing I head about ya Aslam having the Hots for your soon to be sister In law ?" I burst out laughing 

"You heard right he actually likes hauwa, there's a twist my sister..... she likes ya manaur" she let out a hard laugh 

"No way, omg this is so comic. Finally ya manaur has met one girl who chooses him and not ya Aslam he must be happy"

"At first but now it's hurting him seeing ya Aslam looking like a lost puppy so I heard he's trying to help him" she giggles clearly enjoying the whole thing 

We pretty much were done with 90% of the preparations  just a few minor details, I still haven't heard anything from my soon to be husband and it kinda disturbed me, we were going out tonight on a date courtesy of my mother in law.

All dressed and ready to go I stood outside as his car pulled over,I walked to the passengers seat getting in. Here goes nothing!

Muayyad POV 

I watch her slide into the car, she turns to look at me a huge smile present on her face and i couldn't ignore her beauty she really was Gorgeous, she just wasn't mufeedah.

We pulled at a restaurant and got in, we ordered and as we waited for our food I looked over  at her only to find her staring at me.

" I'm sure you're pissed or just bored" she was apprehensive which I didn't blame her for

"I'm not pissed, don't worry we'll talk about all this after we eat cause god knows I need the energy" we fell into a comfortable silence after that, our food came and we eat peacefully mostly her on the phone making preparations for our so called wedding

We walked around the garden with a cup of hot tea as I look over at her,she had a long tight fitting nude dress which stopped at her ankle, a brown side bag crossed across her chest , nude wedges and a head-tie tied firmly on her head. She looked really good and I'd be lying if I said any man wouldn't be lucky having her as his. Just not this man, my heart belonged to another.

"I can never love you the way you want" I announce making her walk come to a stop 

She turns to look at me with a smile urging me to continue "I'll go ahead with the wedding only because of my dad and that's it, don't expect anything from me" she lets out a sigh sitting on a bench next to her

"I know, I don't expect you too. All I want is to be able to call you mine and that's about enough. I'm hoping you'd learn to love me and if you don't it's okay I have enough for both of us. Don't worry Muayyad I know what you mean , I know you'll keep on seeing her one way or another even if you're not dating . I have prepared myself for the worst" she lean down to press a kiss on my cheek before turning Around and leaving me here standing alone .