RUBY
Flashback
I gave the floor to Gareth first. Obviously, this led to my feeling of dissatisfaction. But I just couldn't bring myself to say it in front of him. I don't want to give Gareth the impression that I'm being demanding simply because he is the one who took away my virginity. The reality is, however, that I was upset that he just abandoned me here after what had occurred between us.
Am in some way, and I wonder whether he places a lot of importance on me. It gives me the willies to even consider asking him this question. It would be embarrassing for me to ask him what role I play in his life. When his situation has been resolved, perhaps we can have a conversation. I am desperate to find out what it is that he thinks of me in his mind.
When I am in the shower, I can't help b
