RUBY
Flashback.
I despise myself for being capable of thinking of two different men at the same moment. Gareth, because he is a coward and he stole my virginity, and now he is not where he should be. I despise myself even more for having thought Reid. Even though it's been a few hours, the memory of his presence is still vivid in my head.
I don't understand what the hell is wrong with me. I asked myself.
My chamber door opened. I was able to see my mother. My loved ones didn't bother to quiz me about the events of the previous evening, and for that I am eternally grateful. Everyone was concerned about my well-being. And I couldn't say that I blamed them at all. It is not a performance. Earlier, I was feeling quite unwell.
But here in my room, alone myself, I have the distinct impressi
