Can I Love Again

it was such a stormy Wednesday on my way to the ancestral home for our family gathering when I received an email from an anonymous source I was really not in the mood for unnecessary disturbance but then again I had a gut feeling to check it out so I told my chauffeur to take me to my favourite restaurant and book a secluded space far from noise I had to fill my empty stomach first so I ordered a cocktail and a side dish when I was done I picked up my phone ready to check the mail I was really feeling nervous about this anonymous mail, what could this be about? it really made me at my end.I clicked open the mail,my palms where already sweaty as I did so .It happened so fast,oh my I couldn't breathe for a moment as I stared down at my phone. Clara, my girlfriend whom I cherish so much and I could give her the world was having an Orji and the person I call my most trustworthy friend Benedict is involved. I couldn't stop the nauseous feeling in my tummy, I could hear my heartbeat thumping in my ears as my eyes ran over the pictures over and over again, till I had CLARA expression imprinted in my brain. I had to check the mail to make sure am not missing anything and then I stumbled upon audio mails and video so I clicked the video first and clenched my fist as BENEDICT and CLARA uncapped moans reached my ears. I had to check the audio mails and oh my I was blown away . Benedict? the very one I grew up with? the very one who spent nights at my house through the course of my teenage years? why? it makes no sense . I have to investigate this.I dialed up an investigator, and with grave anger spat out my request. check how true this is and that's all I need to know oh my I need to know if who ever sent this mail to me doesn't have an ulterior motive I was really restless waiting for the results.my hands turned cold as time passed and suddenly I heard a knock waking me up from my trance oh it's the bussers she came to clear the dishes. It was a critical moment, waiting for a response I knew would come in minutes, yet when my phone rang out I jumped on my seat.I was thankful the dishes were cleared, because as the investigator words came over my phone speaker, I hauled it across the room. It happens in a single moment , when life decides to throw rocks in your direction, bringing down everything you have worked for, the relationship built all tarnished to the ground .I don't know if I should be grateful I found out, or maddened they where not only sexually involved but planning to destroy me. And by destroying me, I mean taking over my resources and everything I have worked so hard for, why? what reason? have always been these naive and insensitive? when did this deceit and scheming begin? Oh my goodness,and I have always thought every inch of Clara's body has never been shared only between us, evey inch of her body has been traced with the hands of the man I share a drink with every night, the man I go for comfort as a friend,as well as the hands of strange men .I was filled with a blind rage for a second I felt the world going blank out of anger then slowly the echoes of betrayal wrapped it's fingers over my heart.