The further away the better

Can humans respect others?

My mind is buzzing, I don’t know what to do, I’ve showered, I’ve shaved everything that needs to be shaved, moisturised and even cut my toenails. It’s 10:30, what time is lunch, I don’t want to move but I also don’t want to be sitting here staring at the wall, I get up, I decide I’ll make him lunch for a change, I haven’t really had a moment to look around the house, I haven’t wanted to pry, I find the kitchen, open the fridge and see a variety of ingredients, I’ll make a club sandwich, I start preparing and finding a rhythm with me crutches, this feels good to be busy, preparing food for another. I just finish wiping the bench when the door slams, my heart leaps into my throat, oh my god. I hear foots steps then Dr Fritz rounds the corner, “oh hey”. “Not who you were expecting Miss Kaly?” “Oh no actually, house calls on a Sunday?” Oh, well after a few cuts and bruises to attend to this morning, I thought I’d come see my favourite patient” “oh, whose that” he laughs “you Kaly” “well that’s kind of you” how’s the knee feeling?” “Yeah not to bad actually, I’ve stayed off it, haven’t attempted to put any weight on it” “good girl, let me just have a feel and check how it’s healing” he goes about his business. “So Dr Fritz, I wanted to ask you something if that is ok”. “Of course Mr Kaly, ask away.” “Well I guess I just want to understand something, I don’t think it’s anything major so maybe I can get your opinion”. “My ears are yours”. “Well, sometimes, I sort of have a feeling come into my head, but it doesn’t stay there, other things happen to and after it happens I get really tired”. “Can I ask what your thinking about when those feelings start?” “I guess things that remind me of other things”. “ so things from your past?” “Yeah, somethings I don’t remember, i guess many things I know but I just have my sleep, then it’s better”. “Miss Kaly, first of all, thank you for telling me, secondly, I noticed some signs, It would be an honour to work with you in finding what those things are”. “See, it’s hard for me, but for some reason, I want to talk to you”. “I’ll see you next Sunday, please Kaly, firstly I’d like you to be aware of where you feel these feelings, don’t over think it, just take note of it happens”. “Alright, thanks”. “Enjoy your lunch Miss Kaly, Say Hi to Patrick and I’ll check on you Next Sunday, please stay off it, but don’t do anything to exert yourself”. “ what’s this I hear about not exerting yourself?” “Dr Fritz” do I take note of this feeling, my word, my heart and stomach is pumping and I feel wet just hearing his voice. “ I made lunch, club sandwich, yeah I’m still not allowed to put weight on my knee”. Why am I talking so fast. “ thank you Kaly” we eat while I awkwardly look around the room. I feel Patrick’s eyes on me. Not in a creepy way. I eat as slow as I can, not knowing what’s to come next. Patrick gathers the plates and cups, cleans and sets them then walks back to me at the table, holds his hand out, whispers in a deep controlled voice “come with me Kaly” I rise and my legs are shaking. Patrick picks me up and my legs go around his waist, I look over his head to see the kitchen move further away, we walk up the hallway, turn into a room, he slowly lowers me to the bed. “Patrick?” “Kaly?” “I don’t know what to do” “I have not asked you to do anything”. “ it can you tell me what to do or how you like it, I don’t know how to, I umm want you, I don’t know what to do when I want you”. “You are precious, stop thinking about me” “how” Patrick kisses me, slowly, then more desperate, his tongue enters my mouth, I’m waiting for the saliva, the tongue to hit my throat, nothing I lift my tongue, Patrick lick under my tongue, slides his lips down to my lips. I do the same to him and he moans “is that ok?” “Kiss me again Kaly” I place my hands on his shoulders and he wraps his arms around my waist, positions me on his lap and his hold my neck and we continue to kiss. It’s beautiful, unexpectedly I feel a tear come down my cheek. It hits Patrick’s lips and he stops to look me in the eyes, he starts to gently wipe my tears “I can stop” concern on his face, another few tears fall. “No please don’t stop” “you are beautiful Kaly, you tell me at anytime to stop and I will, don’t worry about me, ok” I nod, I lean back in, Patrick makes his way to my neck, the feels come back, I start to run myself on his hard erection, “Kaly, that feels amazing, I am wanting to contain myself for you, but I need to ask you, hard or slow?” “What do you mean?” “Am I f*****g you or am I loving you?” “ ah, I don’t know”. I honestly didn’t know there was options. As he removes my dress , he kisses my breasts, flicks his tongue over my n****e and slides his hand to my lower back, he pushes and start me grinding him again, he makes his way to Tempe other breast and begins the same processes, I’m incredibly turned on I’m surprised he can feel my dampness through his jeans, Patrick stands up, lowers me again and pulls his shirt off, holy smokes, his body is beautiful. He grabs my underwear, slowly brings them down, then moves to my bra, as he looks at my body I notice his chest moving like he is puffing, subconsciously I realised I was breathing the same way, completely unaware of my self and mesmerised but how he is looking at me. He leans over me and begins to kiss me once again, he moves my legs apart, then moves his hand back to my tailbone gently my pelvis rises, I am overloaded with his smell and gentle you that I let out a moan, my stomach is turning with nerves as he glides his hand up my hip, to my ribs, to my breast “your so beautiful” he gently rubs my check where I can’t help but lean into his soft touch, I can’t help but thrust my pelvis up. “Kaly, are you sure?” “Yes” I am panting I’m starting feel lightheaded with wanting. I feel him at my entrance, he moves slowly, I hear his breaths, he inch’s further in, slowly is complete inside me, he moaned in my ear, a slowly starts to breath, he moves his hardness out and I clench. I freeze. I hold my breath, In the next breath Patrick has his hand behind my ear looking into my eyes, “Kaly, look at me” we study each other’s eyes, then Patrick leans in and begins to kiss me again, I soften to his gently kisses, and he continues to move, I am entranced by his lips, that I become aware of the feeling inside me, the pleasure is building, I start to tense but not in the same way as if my body doesn’t know what to do with this feeling, I can’t stop moving, my head told back and moaning loader helps the feeling, like it is refusing to be kept withheld, I lose focus of my surroundings as the pleasure releases and I move my overwhelming s*x harder than I’m slamming myself onto him, “f**k me, Patrick f**k my cunt, oh god f**k me! I arch my back as he pounds into me. “Kaly, I can’t hold it” I grind as he moves and the pleasure won’t stop. Patrick gives two more pumps and lays on top of me. Hard of breathing we lay there until our breaths come back to normal. Automatically I expect him to get up to leave, when I realise I’m in his bed, I go to move, Patrick rolls off me “that was incredible Kaly” I start to rise and find my clothing, “I’ve never felt anything like it” I respond “goodnight Patrick” as I walk I feel arms around my waist”what’s happening here?” Not understanding him “pardon?” “Kaly, can I lay with you please, after that I don’t want you to go, why are you leaving?” I shrug, “come here” we walk to the bed, I lay back down and mould into Patrick’s arms, I listen to his heart beat and inhale his unique scent. Before I know it I’m asleep. It’s dark, I’m in the shed again hiding, “found you” i’m dragged to the cupboard, you bite me you good for nothing slut and you will have hell to pay open” I wake up Patrick is staring at me “Kaly, are you ok? What were you dreaming about?” “I don’t remember” classic Kaly, it’s always been my natural instinct to avoid further pressure. I always knew it was okay what happened to me, I just knew to keep quiet. So I put up with it. “Who is Tyler?” I freeze, i’m sure my eyes are the size of dinner plates.