The further away the better

Reality check

I wake in a fright once again, the nightmares are changing, it’s as if all my past is in one, I can’t help but wonder why they’ve returned, I’ve always dreamt but never to this extent, I’m tired from the sleeplessness. I’m sleeping but waking up with fear in my heart and it’s hard to shake. Now that I’m stuck in bed, I don’t know what I’m going to do to distract myself. I hear a light tap, on the door, “come in” awkwardly I adjust myself and flatten my hair. Checking morning nip slip, Patrick walks in, tray of food and drink. Amazed at this, “ Thank you, this is beautiful”. “My pleasure, you feeling ok?” “Yeah, didn’t sleep that well, nothing I’m not used to”. “ well, I’m off for the day, I’ve moved the phone to your bedside table, press one and it will call me, press two for Beatrice, also Cherrie called to tel me Dr Fritz will be here to check you over at 11:30”“thank you again”. I ate my delicious breakfast, placed the tray on the bedside table, slowly I sat him, I slowly made my way to the ensuite, it’s funny how I’d been semi ok walking at work on Monday, now I can hardly move it. Wow, this hurts. I slowly get the vanity in the ensuite, feeling awful, but opening to try find some pain relief, crickey, this must of been a guest bedroom, it has an array of items for women, from sanitary items, to toothbrushes, lotions and deodorant. I make my way to the shower, do my business, making note to put my bathroom items in here. The burn on my face and body from the hot shower took the wind out of me. After persistent I finally get my clothes on. Now very tired, I lay back on the bed, fall asleep and wake to Dr Fritz looking down at me. “s**t, you scared me” “Sorry Miss Kaly, I had knocked and called out, you sleeping ok at night?” “ I have never really slept well Doctor”. Suddenly feel self conscious. Memories of my mother tell me to never tell anyone why I have the cuts and bruises or else I’ll pay flooded my brain. “ you alright Miss Kaly?”. “ yeah all good thank you, my knee is hurting a lot more today”. “Yes the sweeping will be quite pronounced today, I am more concerned about your face, I was quite focused on your knee yesterday, you having any lucid dreams, nausea or any headaches?” No, it’s just tender from the shower, my head is fine.” Dr Fritz stood there for sometime watching me, under his gaze I felt quite self conscious, he had no expression, I was about ask him if he felt alright. “I see you Miss Kaly, my door is open when your ready to talk.” He turned after leaving a packet of anti-inflammatories and a quick “ I’ll be back in two days, please lay of it” I take the subscribed amount of drug and lay back down. I’m back on the bed naked, I’m wearing a gorgeous laced Bra, a very beautiful G-String but this time I’m cuffed to the headboard and my ankles are cuffed with some bar that’s spreading me open. Again green eyes stare at me from the other side of the room, he’s sitting with his leg crossed and his finger on his lips, sort of like he is think but yet he is mesmerising his art. His white shirt is unbuttoned, his top button and buckles is undone, slowly, very slowly he reaches into his pants, I start panting, he starts to stroke himself, his c**k is angry and it looks like it’s a snake ready to bite it’s pray. I lick my lips, I only want to tame the angry snake. My wet cunt it’s pouring with pleasure, it feels so full yet nothing is in there. He continues to stroke himself while staring me in the eyes, “Kaly” “ yes” I pant. “Kaly, sorry to wake you”. “Cherrie hey” “ oh hey, sorry, you ok, you were dreaming, I know I shouldn’t do that but you wouldn’t stop moving”. Ok, well this couldn’t be more awkward. “ yeah, I do that sometimes” silently shaking my head. “I’m here to give you your afternoon tea, Patrick stopped by but you must of been asleep, I’ve placed in the fridge, but here is my world famous scones and a nice hot cup of coffee”. “ thanks Cherrie, you really shouldn’t have, I don’t know why but I’m sleeping a lot at the moment”. “Well if I slept like how I just seen you sleeping, I wouldn’t feel to refreshed, anyway I don’t want to pry, I know you like to keep this close to your chest, please enjoy and I’ll be back tomorrow after we close the Café” “thank you again Cherrie, your to Kind, I will do extra shifts to cover your troubles”. Cherrie shakes her head “it’s what friends do Kaly, you don’t need to repay.” That certainly wasn’t what I was expecting to hear. I always thought that’s how friends and relationships were but like we see in movies and books it’s not always the truth. I know I am stubborn, but I have built myself this way, people have always used me to there convenience. Never asked, never even considered what they did would hurt me. Of course I shy away, what other model do I need to go off. Everyone in this town, they’ve been so kind, but there is always something stirring that it will be for something, they always have an agenda. I roll back over, exhausted from thinking so deep.