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Mattie's POV;

Fuck f**k f**k f**k.

I've f****d up big time.

I didn't even mean anything I said! Of course I want to be with her!

I am scared that we'll get caught, and Tuesday did hit me, but most importantly Ella cant live a normal life for at least a year because she's so young.

I don't want to ruin her chance of living and seeing the world.

"f**k!" I scream and knock over a vase, not even caring when it smashed into tiny pieces on the kitchen floor.

I pick up my phone and try to ring her, but it goes straight to voicemail. She's turned her phone off.

What do I do?

I guess the only thing I can do is give her space until I can apologise.

I was just scared because I was slowly but surely falling in love with her.

She fascinated me. Her height was insanely adorable, and the way she had to stand on her tiptoes to kiss me, drove me over the edge.

She was a pure beauty, and I had just emptied venom into her.

I was just afraid with what she would do with that venom.

**********************

"Calm down calm down," Blake comforts me.

"I just hate him for saying that s**t! Who the f**k does he think he is?" I scream.

"El, seriously calm down," He's worrying because if I get angry I usually do something stupid, but at this moment in time I really didn't give a f**k.

Just then Blake's phone rings.

"Its Chase," He says.

"Answer it," I shrugged, not really caring if he did or not.

"Hello?" Blake answered.

"Another party? Not right not Chase, I'm in the middle of something," He says and I grab the phone off him.

"Chase hi!" I try to sound happy.

"Ella! You alright?" He asks.

"Yeah I'm very well thank you," I lie. "What's all this about a party?" I ask.

"Dylan Peters is throwing a party and I was ringing Blake to ask him if he wanted to come and ask him if he knew why your phone was off?" He says.

"We would love to come and it must have died," Is all I say.

"Ah okay and cool! I'll text Blake the address! Laters!" He says before hanging up.

"Not a good idea El," Blake warns me.

"Do you think I care whether this a good idea or not?" I sass him and he holds his hands up in defeat.

"Sorry Blake, I just need to unwind and you love partying with me!" I whine.

"I like partying with you when you're in the right frame of mind," He says.

"I am in the right frame of mind, I'll just have a couple drinks just to take the edge off of things," I bat my eyelashes at him.

"Ugh fine, you don't look very dressed for the occasion though," He says and I smirk before walking over to his wardrobe, rooting through his clothes and finding a large bag.

"Whats that?" He asks, majorly confused.

"This is my emergency bag I left in your wardrobe for moments like this one. It has causal clothes, pyjamas, a hoodie, a party dress, a pair of black heels, a pair of trainers, a pair of black boots, and some makeup," I grin at him and his mouth drops open.

"How did I not see that in there?" He asks and I shrug.

"Okay, well what should I wear?" He asks me and I smirk.

I waltz over to his wardrobe and pick out a pair of black skinny jeans and a tight white t-shirt.

"Thanks," He grins before stripping as I copy his actions.

We always get changed in the same room without it being awkward because, well we did take each others innocence so all the awkwardness has vanished.

Once I had got changed, I went into his bathroom to put on a little makeup. Not a lot as I couldn't be bothered, I just wanted to get absolutely smashed.

I went back into Blake's room and slipped on my heels.

"Can you text my mum and let her know I'm staying at yours tonight," I ask Blake.

"Already did that," He says and I grin at him.

I really did love him.

"Right lets get absolutely wankered!" I yell and Blake raises his eyebrow at me.

"I mean, lets have a productive few drinks and wake up in the morning feeling refreshed," I joke and he laughs even though he didn't want to.

***********

When we got there, the party was in full swing.

I saw Donte, Nate, Joe and Chase and ran up to them and hugged them.

"Ella!" Nate screamed and hugged me back.

"Babe!" Joe looked confused but had to go along with it.

Actually he doesn't have to go along with anything anymore as me and Mattie aren't even together anymore.

That means I can sleep with anyone in this room. I smirk to myself, not even caring if that was a w***e move or not.

Nate was pretty good last time - from what I can remember - but since he confessed his feelings to me, its not fair to f**k with them. I may be in full w***e mode, but I still care about my friends.

"Joe can we talk?" I shout over the music and he nods.

I grab his hand and pull him into a quieter corner.

"You don't have to pretend to date me anymore, me and Mattie are over," I say.

"What? Why?" He panics.

***5 mins later***

"And I stormed out and went to Blake's and now here I am," I finish.

"Ella, you realise my brother didn't mean any of that? When he worries he always says a ton of harsh s**t he doesn't mean!" Joe panics.

"Joe, calm down, who cares anyway? We're here to enjoy the party so that's exactly what I'm gonna do. Now I'm gonna go get myself a drink and find an attractive boy to talk to. Cya!" I grin before grabbing whatever alcoholic drink I could find and finding an attractive guy before dancing with him.

"Ella right?" The guy asks.

"Yeah, how did you know?" I shout over the music.

"You dumped juice all over my ex-girlfriend once," He laughs, referring to the time that slut was flirting with Mattie in class. Well she can have him now.

"Ah yes, she was annoying me," I giggle.

"She annoyed me too," He agreed.

The beat dropped and he grabbed my hips pulling me closer to him.

"I'm Andrew," He shouts.

"Nice to meet you Andrew," I shout back.

I grind my hips into him, and he smirks before attaching his lips to my neck.

I let out a small moan and grind harder along with the beat.

"Want another drink?" He asks.

"I thought you would never ask," I grin as he grabs my hand and pulls me through the dancing bodies.

"Here," He handed me a bottle of whatever it was, and I drunk it.

"Ella!" Nate shouted.

"Yeah?" I shouted back.

"I made you that drink again," He smiled and handed it to me. He was referring to his special drink that was a mix of everything.

"Cheers Nate!" I yelled as he went off with some girl.

Luckily he was already wasted so he didn't realise I was with another guy.

I finished that drink and saw a game of never have I ever going on.

"Wanna play that game?" I asked Andrew and he nodded.

I grinned and we walked over to join the circle.

"Never have I ever kissed a girl!" The girl said and I picked up a shot and drunk it.

The only girl I've kissed is my mum and my sister on the cheek, but that still counts, right?

I didn't really care, I just wanted to get smashed.

After about half an hour later I had accomplished my goal.

"Wanna go upstairs?" Andrew slurs.

"Of courseeee!" I sloshed.

We got halfway up the stairs when I think it was Joe - or it might have been Blake - either one of those grabbed my hand.

"Did youuu wanna join and make a threesomee?" I giggled.

"Jesus El, come on you need to come with me," The person said.

"Nooooo me and Andrew had plansss!" I wailed.

"Yeahh plans!" Andrew agreed.

"Listen pal, leave her the f**k alone," The person snarled.

"Ooohhh he's angry," I giggled again, but this time I hiccuped as well.

I took a pen from someone who was drawing a moustache on a sleeping person and wrote my number on Andrew's arm.

"Text meeee," I sang, and tried to wink but because I was so drunk it probably looked like I was having a seizure.

"Come on," The person dragged me out in put me in a car.

"Can I give you a blowjob?" I ask and the person chokes.

"No Ella you can't," He says.

"Whyyyy nottttt?" I whine.

"Because my brother would hang me by my p***s," He says.

"Meanie," I huff.

The car comes to a stop and he carries me out of it.

"Ooh I'm a princess!" I giggle.

"Yeah, princess of disaster," The guy whispers.

"heyyyyyy!" I try to defend myself but I give up.

He puts me on the sofa and I collapse.

"Mattieeee is that youuuu?" I ask the person.

"No El, it's Joe, Mattie's on his way," He tells me.

"Nooooo! He's meannn to mee! He'll tell me offf and I just wanna have funnnn!" I squeal.

"I think I'm gonna be sick," I clamp my mouth shut.

"Jesus Christ El," he mutters before carrying me to the toilet where I repeatedly throw up before passing out.

*************

"How long has she been asleep?" I hear a voice say.

"A few hours," Another voice says.

My eyes slightly open and when my pupils meet the light I clutch my head in pain.

"Owwwww!" I moan.

What the f**k?

I open my eyes to see one concerned face, and one angry face.

And by angry I mean if looks could kill, I would be six feet under in less than a millisecond.

I sit up and Joe sits next to me.

"Are you alright El?" he asks me.

"Was I hit by a car?" I ask and Joe checks my face for sarcasm, but he fails to find any as I'm being deadly serious.

"No El, you got absolutely smashed," Joe tells me.

"f**k sake," I groan.

"Do you remember anything?" Joe asks me.

"I remember attending the party, and drinking," I say, leaving out the events that led me there, even though Joe probably knows the whole story now.

"Take this, drink this," Mattie hands me some pills and a cup of water.

I do as he says as he looks very angry.

"What are you doing here anyway?" I ask him.

"I'm here because Joe rung me worried because you were in a state." he says sternly.

"Why did you call him? I remember telling you I was f****d off with him, you could have either just left me to it or got Blake to take me home." I stare at Joe.

"Left you to it? Ella you were pissed out of your mind and you were about to sleep with some random guy! Blake told me to take you back to mine as he had to deal with a drunk Jade," He tells me.

"Jade was there?" I ask and he nods.

"Well I appreciate you looking out for me Joe, but I'm absolutely fine, I'll just walk home it's literally 10 minutes from here," I say and get up until I'm forced back down again.

"It's 3am. You're staying right where you are," Mattie growls.

"Don't tell me what the f**k to do." I spit at him.

"Ella," he warns me.

"What? We're not together anymore Mattie so you can run off back to your little life where you have no worries of being caught dating your student," I sarcastically smile at him.

"Ella, just stay here for tonight, I'll take you back in the morning okay?" Joe tries to reason with me.

"Fine. But only because you asked me nicely, and I'm grateful for you looking out for me," I smile at him.

"Unbelievable," Mattie scoffs.

"You're unbelievable," I retort.

"It's just you retaliated to a situation childishly, and here I was thinking you were mature," He says.

"Newsflash b***h, I still am a child, so go torture people your own age with your presence." I sneer at him and he rolls his eyes.

"Guys please stop," Joe pleas.

"Can I just go to bed now?" I ask Joe and he nods.

"Take my bed, it's comfier than the bed in the spare room," He tells me.

"Oh no, I don't mind the spare room," I say.

"No I insist," Joe says and I just give in because I do just want to sleep.

"Okay, if it gets uncomfortable, just kick me out or you can sleep in the same bed, I mean I know I'm a w***e but I do have boundaries," I say and he laughs.

"You're not a w***e El, you can borrow a t-shirt if you want to sleep in something else, they're in my wardrobe. Shout if you need anything," Joe smiles at me as I enter his room.

I take my makeup off and slip out of my dress before taking my bra off and slipping a plain black t-shirt on.

I sigh as I climb into bed before shutting my eyes and falling asleep.