Jackie The Ripper

Chapter 14

        I woke up the next morning to Thomas standing beside my bed not saying anything. "Hey Thomas, are you alright?" "Yes mam." He turned around and walked away. That was so strange. It started making me nervous. I shook the feeling and got out of bed. I got ready for the day, trying to shake the feeling that there was something different about Thomas. Like he was more angry than before. 

    His eyes held a hint of anger. I tried so hard to push that thought out of my head. I needed to, because it was time for me to step up and be a mother again. So I washed my face and headed into the kitchen. I heard all three kids laughing. It made my heart smile to hear. I walked in, just in time to tell Mr. Knight goodbye before he headed to work. 

    I needed to get the kids ready for school. The children ate breakfast and headed to get ready for school. This gave me a chance to have a sigh of relief. Everything seemed to be normal for the time being. The kids used to walk to school together. So I assumed nothing would change. At least until they all got to the door to tell me bye and Thomas pushed his way out the door not saying a word to anyone. 

    "Mama is Thomas going to be okay?" "Of course Damion. Now you and Emily head to school. Go hurry now." They rushed out the door to catch up with Thomas. The feelings of being scared came back into my mind. Could Jack have brainwashed Thomas? No that wouldn't happen. Thomas is stronger than that. 

    I spent the rest of the day cleaning. Getting the house fixed up from where I had been gone. Washing clothes, cleaning up toys. Everything a good house cleaner does. I heard the front door open to see Emily and Damion. "Hey babies. I'm in the kitchen." "Hey mama." "Hi mama." "Where is Thomas?" "We didn't see him. He was quiet the whole walk to school." 

    That worried me, but I couldn't let my kids see my worry. So I pushed the thoughts to the back of my head, when I heard the door open. I glaced to see it was Thomas. "Hey Thomas, are you hungry?" "Yes mam." "Here honey. Here is your sandwich. Is everything okay?" "Yes mam Aunt Jackie." "You have been very quiet since you got home. I'm worried about you." 

    He put his head down and I saw tears running down his face. "Thomas? What's going on?" "I did things that were bad Aunt Jackie." "It's okay baby. I'm glad you are safe now. Nothing bad will ever happen to you ever again. I promise." 

    He cried for about an hour while I held him. We didn't say anything to each other. He just needed to let out the pain he had been through. It worried me with the fact that Jack made him do bad things. I wasn't really sure what that meant. I couldn't bring myself to ask either. I carried him to his room. Holding him like he was a new born baby. 

    I stayed with him till he went to sleep. It didn't take very long. He was so tired, his little body needed a good night rest. At home with his family. The poor child. I walked out of his room to see Damion, and Emily. "Mama, is Thomas going to be okay?" "I don't know Emily. I really don't. All I know is that he is tired and needs rest." "What happened to him, mama?" "I don't know Damion. I wish I did, maybe that way I could or we could help him."

    They both put their heads down in defeat. I felt defeated too. I couldn't protect Thomas. I felt like such a failure. I squatted down in front of my own two children. "Listen babies, I know a lot has happened in your lives, but please be understanding as we try so hard to help Thomas get over what has happened. Can you two do this? Be my little helpers through all of this?" "Yes mam." 

    They always seemed to talk at the same time. Which was cute to me. You would think they were twins. They weren't that far apart in age though. They also had the same blood running through their veins. Which scared me too. What if my children grew up to be just like their father. Or even their evil mother?

    I tried to run from my past so hard. It just keeps catching up to me. I wish everything in England hadn't happened, yet if it had happened would I have met Thomas? Or better yet, would I have my two beautiful children? The thoughts kept rolling around in my head. 

    I was so evil in my past that I'm paying for it now. Well the young boy who turned my life around was paying for it. I put my children to bed and headed to my own room. I sat on the edge of the bed, wondering what would happen if I took my own life. I have killed people in the past. Maybe no one would miss me. 

    I grabbed a knife from my bedside and sliced my wrist. I watched the blood as it ran down my hand. The pain felt amazing. I laid back on the bed. Just letting my blood run out of my arm. It felt amazing. Then I heard a knock at the door. "Come in." Mr. Knight walked in the room as I covered up my wrist. 

    "Hello Jackie. How is Thomas tonight?" "He is finally asleep. He just keeps saying that Jack made him do bad things. I didn't want to ask too many questions. He was just too upset." "I completely understand that. He is most likely still scared. I mean Jack did take him out of his bed, in the middle of the night." "Yeah. I need to move him in here with me where I know he will be safe." "That does sound like a good idea." "I'll do it tomorrow, since he is sound asleep tonight." "Well get you some sleep and I will see you in the morning." "Goodnight Mr. Knight." "Night Jackie."